I am quite high right now. AHHHH it feels soo goood. I can smell fresh cut grass, smells like baseball and spring. My two crazy cats are acting all, well, crazy. One of them is using me as a salt lick. I worked in the cafe today, so im sure I taste like coffee and steamed milk and eggplant parm.
My nieces birthday is Saturday, I got her a Cinderella bowling set. She will be two. Im excited to get all drunk with my brothers and play with the bowling pins like we did with out set when we were kids.
Someone should make an bowling alley smoke cafe mix. You could call it Bowlers Smoke Cafe, or something. You could have an arcade and everything. Though if anyone takes this idea, i want half!
I just bought myself a new guitar not too long back, its an Ibanez Art100. Les paul copy with dual buckers. Pretty sick sound and holds tune well. Fit and finish is top, setup from factory is medium low and fast.
I just bought a set of Piranha Razorbacks and a Nodor board for my apartment. I need to practice throwing darts for my weekly match ups at Prost. If you live and Portland or Vancouver wa. and you havent been to Prost in NE Portland than you havent had a good time! Ha that might be an overstatement.
Still pretty high considering it took me 20 minutes to write this.....
Talk to you all later.

Long time no update.

So still living in Vancouver Wa. and loving it. Im loving my job as a barback, but sadly only working it 2 nights a week. Im learning soo much about being a bartender and just bar service in general, I cant wait to branch out and try to work as a bartender when I feel my skills are high enough. I say that because I dont want to work for some dive tavern only pulling taps. I like mixing up the drinks and the tips that come from higher end establishments.
I finally paid off my credit card. I have had this thing since I was 18 and have never had it paid before. I went through some bad times and ran it up pretty high, but now im free. It feels soo good to have one less debt in this world. Now just 15,000 of student loans to go.
Im itching for new ink lately, but im having creative block on what I want. For the best right now I guess with Christmas time coming. I really want to make it special for my niece and nephew. Any ideas on what to get a year and and half girl and a 6 month boy?

Life lately has been AMAZING! Job is going great and im making decent money. Decent enough to buy a new road bike.


Not the top of the line, but its faster than my old single speed, its lighter than the SS and now i can climb hills without my knee aching after.
Moved to the couv. For those of you not from the Portland area, thats Vancouver, WA. Its cool, yea the night life is non existent, but thats not really my thing anyways. I work days during the week and nights on the weekend, my schedule keeps me out of trouble. Its nice to be out of the city but still be close enough to commute and use its benefits. Well i hope all is well with all of you. Im taking my bike out for a nice country road ride.

I NEED XBOX KINECT!!!! Played for the first time at a friends birthday party and im hooked! Now i just need my boss to give me more shifts like he said i was going to get and maybe i can afford it.
So new stuff with me is, i have a lady friend, which makes me super warm and fuzzy and happy, but is making a few others very unhappy. Well to them i say, SUCK IT, you had your chance with me.
Im working at the restaurant 3 days a week, but i need more shifts, i need more money. If any of you are in Portland Or, come into my cafe its connected to the restaurant on the corner of Broadway and Washington downtown. Its called the Pazzoria. We gots awesome food and tasty coffee.
Well thats all for now, i need to either go take a nap or mainline caffeine.

So i woke up this morning with my account overdrafted It was caused by this wonderful site. But today was payday, so it was really no hard no foul.
I gotta say, i love being a webcam worker!!! Nothing comes close as a confidence booster than having people pay you compliments, while actually paying you at the same time! I also must say i am really excited for the new FX show Lights Out, which premiers next tuesday. I use to box when i was younger, and if i wasnt so out of shape now, in comparison to boxers, i would still do it.
OO OO OO i also had a sit down with a boss today, i start working full time next monday morning! Its not the best hours, kinda kills my night life, but the pay is decent and the people i will be working with are awesome. Id say today, aside from first thing this morning, has been a good day!

mY heart is pounding out of my chest! I feel like im on coke without being on it! I dont know where this energy came from but i know i need to be in bed soon but i just cant make it there. Im doing a tune up on my bike tomorrow. Im going to ride it 15 miles. First bike ride in over a year and a half. Dont worry it will be break between each 7.5 miles. I cant explain this feeling i have. Nothing but Brand New lyrics running through my head, but no where near the depression that comes from their lyrics. One select set keeps running through my head.
"I am not your friends. Im just a man who knows how how to feel. I am not your friend, im not your lover, im not your family!" It relates to how detached i feel. I have a hard time conveying my emotions. Some think im without them. It could explain how cold i am. I just keep everyone at arms length, no one come closer. Everytime i let someone close i get hurt.

Well its time to get back to the real world. Sadly for me that means i have to cut off my mohawk. I grew it for a new years party and you know i forgot how much i love having one, even if its super short. But today it has to come off. The positive of this is, i finally have some shifts again!!!!! I am really in need of money. I mean i have been the webcam thing on the side, but i wont get paid for a week or so, and i need to pay bills now. I hope everyone had a good weekend of recovery, lets start this first working week of 2011 off with a BANG shall we?

5 hours of sleep. Bladder woke me up, racing thoughts are keeping me awake. I cant stop thinking about being broke, the bills i have to pay, and the job i dont have. The very start of this year was cool, free champagne at a bar, good looking lady nearly 10 years older than me gave me a kiss, singing good tunes. Never been this hard up for money before. Maybe ill just do porn or something.

So im still alive, which means the magic mushrooms i took last night were not the kind that can kill you after you see some shit. I havent taken those beautiful little stems and caps in over a year and a half, and honestly i dont know why. Sadly though, now im out and i need more. You would think living in Oregon i could just go to the nearest cow pasture of forest or random other location they thrive in, but i dont know what im looking for. I need a hook up here in Portland, but all my regular guys only dabble in the herbal and the hard stuff. HELP ME I NEED MORE!!!

Anyways its NYE......woooo woooo. Most things here to do tonight cost money, which im very very much out of. I was suppose to get my old job back when i came back to live here, but sadly it was a lie. I mean my boss told me i will get the job back 3 weeks before i got home, and when i got home my old boss, who is also my brother btw, said it wouldnt look good to fire someone even if they suck and hire me back on. The only problem i have with that is, everyone who works there knows im a great worker, got voted employee of the month 4 times in 9 months. I just dont get it. So anyways im in Portland, trying to find a job still, i have been here for 20 days. Im broke, and im in desperate need of fun and psychedelics. Yep pretty much sums it up.

I TELL YOU I CANT CONTAIN MY INSIDES!!!!! I feel like i cant breath and then i realize its because im holding my breath! THIS IS NOT PHILOSOPHY! It is the beautiful effects of psychedelics! Im sitting on my chair, in my super super soft loving hoodie that i got for christmas, not wanting to step off. I wish there was someone here to be doing this with me, which is probably why im blogging it. My bed across the room is rolling like the waves, and Back to The Future III on the tv is cracking me up! My computer screen seems to be moving but my flat screen tv doesnt. Weird.

Well anyways. Its almost the new year! God i hope a year from now we arnt all dead. But i think this coming year will be a time of enlightenment. Im not talking about world enlightenment per say, more personal. This is probably going to be the hardest year of my life to date, but i feel it will come out of it stronger and wiser. I fucked up a lot in this past year. Im sorry for any personal pain i have caused in my roller coaster wake. Of any emotion i am more sure of than this pure feeling of euphoria i am experiencing now, it is that i am sorry.

Well to say goodbye for now, i feel a picture is appropriate.