Woo I'm updating my blog. SG is boring, but I like the layout. I would still check some shit out if the layout was ugly though, because I do like some shit. And reminiscing at old sets because I loved to look at SG when I was a 16 year old (like :love. Oh, what the heck, it's my jerk off spot too if I feel like moving away from hardcore deepthroat gagging videos to softly looking sexy women and I feel less goofy about posting vanity photos than I do on facebook. So, not that I'm dissing SG, although my personal tastes would prefer a little more variety of women and some more artful/dark sets and less overrun with hot girl in the usual format, not that those aren't good too. Whatever, nudey ladies galore was super thrilling for me when I was a little perv. I need to have sexy time with another woman, not just look at sexy women. My woman perv side is too deprived. Oh and I'm so generally horny now, I was in bed with my friend who slept over and in my half sleepy state I was trying to get over to her and grabbing my breast, thinking (wishing) I had some kind of lover there. Fuck. I'm dying from some cock, actually getting quite serious now. I've had these condoms in my lady drawer for a year and a half (accessible through many unprotected fucks (one resulting in pregnancy (I knowww I should be burnt alive or something for being such a dumb and dirty slut) and I'm wondering how long condoms take to expire and also feeling like a bit of a fucking loser. I really need to feel a hard, veiny cock in my mouth. And get fucked, like, to hell. In the ass! I don't think it's gonna happen soon and I'm not much for all of the socializing that goes with little flings that don't thrill me that much anyway. I need s+m lovin and a certain kind of rough touch. A big fucking cock, from someone who knows how to fuck.





I'm in Wales. I don't wanna talk about my 'life' life, not here or anywhere. I just wanna smoke a lot of pot and be cosy a home or In Wales.

I'm such an idiot. I lost my job again because they got a terrible, horrible new manager. And I started taking painkillers again and smoking hash more and more and being shit at college even though i'm only a month in and spending all of my money, just spending all of my wages whenever I get them and now I have no job and I've spent all of my money. I am so terrible. I'm really mad too. But not too mad. So regretful and sick of myself but also kind of don't care, kind of. I'm depressed, and an idiot.