Saw NIN on Monday, it rocked!! Saw a lot of people from my past! I have women issues, issues meaning I'm an idiot!

Im now currently sick, been sick since that night. It's been hell waking up at 4 in the morn to go to my mind numbing job with snot clogs and a sore throat. Thankgod my schedule got moved up to later so i can drink at the bars more!!

Who are you, who am I
just two walking chemicals on this dim Earth
What a waste to be a waste
let's stick to what we know and do nothing more
I've been bought, you've been paid
go back to the start and finish the race
Lustful intentions, mindless equations
I can't hide my eyes,
you can see everything, but not see me
I see lame shirts, cows agrazing
Look at me, smell me, adore me,
aren't you so glad to hate me.

Moving On
The road ahead
All the good times
Breeds new life
what was meant for me
its everything
its everything
Within Reach
Its one more day
You know
its everything
its everything
Big city dreams
Crossing oceans
new memories
Goodbye Midwest
Hello new beginnings
its everything
its everything

I went to a show last night - Foreign Born, The Grates, We Are Scientists.

I was drunk, but i was sober! I was letting it all go and having a damn good time at doing it. Why should I have to wake up at 4 in the damn morning just to get to my routine job to lead my routine life??!!! People on the streets race faster and faster changing lanes constantly just to get to the next red light. Why must life have to be at 50 mph??? Driving my car can be just as routine as work as life...it's all bullshit!

All the damn people of Kansas just stiff as wheat. Going to concerts in this town has been about oberservation. Not about feeling the music!

I like who i am dammit! I like that i question everything! I like being the complicated individual! I like Me. Yes there are things that i could change or might want to, but I still like myself even though I hate what i have become. Give it some tough time and eventually i will be different from what kills me.

Kill as many routines as i possibly can!!! Make everyday a surprise. I love fuckabees!

Pics from band practice day...yeahhhhh i get to play with mee band. I have to change the snare wire - it's missing oh about 8 wires.



Have you seen my keys???

Drumstick through the ear, needs to be bigger??!!!

Pics from today enjoy, I'm upset about life...Can you tell??

God my feet are tired and my torso feels numb. Just saw a duo from Boston, MA play and they put a good vibe in me. Very solid voice and great songs, Bob Dylan lines. Then a band played that was Messugah like with no lyrics. Felt just like a practice of noise on stage instead of songs or music at that, beer was drank and i left to play some songs for some friends at the studio. Man it is hard to play when your are not sober, my arms feel like putty. My head is clear, but my body is not here. Thankgod i don't have to do my robot job tomorrow. Burst into flames, burst into flames, burst into flames...wait that was that 70's show.

Today i enter in something, well that was that.
I have a band, who doesn't??!!!
X: Unsigned
We are in the studio and will be playing out soon.