hello all...realized i hadn't put anything up here since the new year started...figure i'll get one in before it ends.

2007 started with a lot of promise, and for the first time in a while i was excited to seriously start anew and actually try to make 2007 good for me.

i had met a girl and things were great there...i had quit smoking (for real) and felt a little better about that...work was crazy busy and for the first time in a long time i wasn't living hand to mouth...pretty good, huh???

it all went downhill from there...fast.

the girl i spoke of moved in with me in mid january...we knew we were both flawed and slightly broken, but failed to realize two wrongs don't make a right in this situation...we clashed but i gave it all i could, thought i could save the burning building...i struggled for 7 months or so.

in the midst of one of our last heated "arguments" (if you can even call them that), i got a phone call to inform me that a friend and off and on roommate of 20 years had killed himself in his fiance's kitchen only 2 months after he had moved out of our living arrangement of 4+ years...friends came together and we got through it...less than two weeks later live in g friend chips and informs me that she too is going to kill herself and that i am a horrible human being for not being able to make it better.

ahhhhh...that felt good.

long story short, 2007 sucked...big time...but i have my place to myself again and am making the best of a truly horrible year.

i got high hopes for 2008...things are getting better and i'm happier than i've been in a while, which isn't saying a whole lot i spose considering where i've been the last 365.

hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season and has some good plans for the new year.