Things of my recent past:
Experiencing Canada-land for the first time. (Hockey on the front page of the paper! Bellinis! Caesars!)
114-degree heat. (Angering!)
Deciding to give notice. (Liberating!)
Also, I'm back to where I can read 50-100 pages in a day. This makes me happy.
Experiencing Canada-land for the first time. (Hockey on the front page of the paper! Bellinis! Caesars!)
114-degree heat. (Angering!)
Deciding to give notice. (Liberating!)
Also, I'm back to where I can read 50-100 pages in a day. This makes me happy.
So, I'm an asshole and haven't been around since my b-day. Thank you, all who commented; I'll try to be more consistent with this thing. I thought December was a hectic month; well, January kicked my butt.
Ben's off to Haiti tonight to film his brother Chris' Clean Water for Haiti project. Chris builds ceramic water filters so the people of Haiti don't always have to have water with the remnants of animals, people, and feces in it. He's off for 12 days, which sucks, but I'm proud of what he's doing. When he gets back, he'll use the footage to create a 10-minute or so informational tape that details the work that goes into the project. Chris can show this when he comes to the States to do charity drives. I'm sure Ben'll take a ton of pictures as well...
Back to editing I go...
Ben's off to Haiti tonight to film his brother Chris' Clean Water for Haiti project. Chris builds ceramic water filters so the people of Haiti don't always have to have water with the remnants of animals, people, and feces in it. He's off for 12 days, which sucks, but I'm proud of what he's doing. When he gets back, he'll use the footage to create a 10-minute or so informational tape that details the work that goes into the project. Chris can show this when he comes to the States to do charity drives. I'm sure Ben'll take a ton of pictures as well...
Back to editing I go...
I am becoming my own friend again. Unconventional happiness. Maybe I'll even get my handwriting back, finally.
"Atypical depression." According to Prozac Nation. I've never asked for an official diagnosis. It's been nothing but a haze. But recently, some clarity. I'm angry again, and at the right people. I'm sick of cowardice being mistaken for brazenness. I'm sick of people so full of themselves yet think they can be so deep, people who give five minutes' thought to the big picture before sinking back into myopia.
Everyone's either depressed and revelling in it or depressed and ignorant of it. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one bothering to help myself - save for Ben - while the rest of the people I know can't get over themselves long enough to take that long, hard look in the mirror. I look in the mirror too much, but at least I look at why.
"Atypical depression." According to Prozac Nation. I've never asked for an official diagnosis. It's been nothing but a haze. But recently, some clarity. I'm angry again, and at the right people. I'm sick of cowardice being mistaken for brazenness. I'm sick of people so full of themselves yet think they can be so deep, people who give five minutes' thought to the big picture before sinking back into myopia.
Everyone's either depressed and revelling in it or depressed and ignorant of it. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one bothering to help myself - save for Ben - while the rest of the people I know can't get over themselves long enough to take that long, hard look in the mirror. I look in the mirror too much, but at least I look at why.
You know when you try to do things that may be simple or may be complex and no matter what you just fuck it up over and over and all it does is give you a migraine? Yeah. I'm there.
Could be worse, though. I think of my issues and then look at the headlines and I understand where things fall.
Heading to Ashland tomorrow, then la-la land where apparently it is pouring.
Could be worse, though. I think of my issues and then look at the headlines and I understand where things fall.
Heading to Ashland tomorrow, then la-la land where apparently it is pouring.
