I think I have a job! very exciting, i know. and a great christmas present. although being unemployed has had its perks....hmm.... My apartment office wants me to work for them. They came to me...which was definitely flattering. 
The lady said she always liked me and when the job came open, she thought of me. Fucking awesome. I sure am going to miss sleeping all day though.
The lady said she always liked me and when the job came open, she thought of me. Fucking awesome. I sure am going to miss sleeping all day though.hello lovely people. the doc doubled my zoloft. i think she thinks i'm crazy. i think i think she thinks i'm depressive. but really i just think the world sucks ass. and i'm not so sure that makes me "depressed" or anything. in fact, i think it moreso categorizes me as a post modern punk rock feminist, if there is such a thing. everyone should check out the band bell orchestre. they fucking rule, i just discovered them. same people from arcade fire....but better. i'd much rather have music than friends.
haven't heard back from my interview yet... hopefully i will soon. i watched history of violence today. that's a badass movie, i was on edge the entire time! other than that.. just excited about my christmas list. so far I want some books, movies, a humidifier, a nintendo ds with nintendogs and a hello kitty fender electric guitar. i've been at a kind of standstill with my music writing. nothing i write seems any good anymore. i need inspiration.
i have updates! so i applied as a manager trainee at this dry cleaning place and had two interviews last week. i was so excited, since i've been jobless for 3 months now. not that it was a job i thought would be a marvelous career step for an english major....but hey it's money. SO THEN this publishing company called me on thursday last week and we had a phone interview. they called back to set up a real interview tomorrow. Then the dry cleaner place called to offer the job. I talked him into letting me have until tuesday this week to decide if i want the job. so i'm really hoping the publishing job goes through, because it is really what i should be doing. but if it doesn't i still have it set up to have a job. hmmm.. wish me luck for the interview 
by the way new pictures posted under the folder "red." i only have a few uploaded, will post more later. 
I had an interview today for a manager trainee at a dry cleaning place. not the best... i know, but it pays pretty well. i'm at the point where i really don't give a fuck what i do, as long as i have a job. my second interview is tomorrow...woohoo! i must have impressed. i also have my audition for this cover band tomorrow night. that's another way i plan on making money. i enjoy playing my own music better, but i just love to sing and if i can make money doing it, even better. AND i figured out what mommy and daddy are going to get me for christmas.... a Hello Kitty electric guitar!! it's fucking awesome.
so the boyfriend's being all moody. things are so rough right now without a job. bills piling up. just barely making it. my parents want me to move back home so i don't have to pay rent and utilities. but......i can't bring my dog. my dog is the world to me and i can't imagine not being with her. but anyways, the boyfriend, is all upset because i want time alone. everybody needs time and space to think. we jumped into things and really haven't spent the night alone since we've been together. and he's got a little girl who already calls me mommy. it's a lot to take in, that's all i can say. i went from living with my ex for nearly five years thinking i was going to be with him forever to being a stay at home mother almost overnight. i don't think i need to apologize for feeling a little out of place and overwhelmed.
ever get afraid that the big corporate bank is going to come get your car? hmm.. strange. side note: sex is good. doesn't matter how bad anything is if you're having good sex. sex and tetris. i'm a badass at tetris. it sure is addictive though. 
got some new thigh highs to wear: black with cute skulls wearing pink bows. i'll have photos up soon. not much to say tonight. too stoned in more ways than one. mainly mentally stoned from thinking too much. life can be such a dirty dirty drug.
