i dont know where, and i dont know when
i wish i could say at least i still have my friends
the days seam shorter as this sun gets longer
to a night that seams endless, now i cant understand
my thoughts are so loud i cant hear you now
my thoughts are so loud i cant hear you now...

well things are looking up

finished putting my DS Lite back together, just need to sort out the power switch now
but my lovely new crystal case is looking fab!




and i got accepted with Apocalypse Girls yesterday which was nice and ive already had a few hits from people wanting to shoot, so things are looking rather nice at the moment concidering im still broke as fuck and got no job!


peace

well since i have no job i have a lot of time on my hands lately
and since models keep fucking me about bailing i have even more time, stupid sluts!
why pick a date then bail TWICE! saying youre tired n all that bullshit and post all over facebook how you're out!?
makes no sense if you ask me.....

well been writing alot more lately with all my free time, more lyrics and story's amongst other things
been doodling again, my friends wants some designs for his band so ive been getting my thinking cap on and pen in hand and ive got some cool doodles done, just need touching up and finalizing


sucks not havng a job, i get bored sat round with fuck all to do, ive actually just been going out for a walk n chill in town in the sun, but even that seam repetative now
plus i have like £10 to my name! grim times!

well not much else to say really? just watch Youth In Revolt was a really good film!
oh and i might aswell say if anyone is around manchester give me a shout and we can hang or shoot or something?


peace

weel turns out that studio is full of liars, one thing i hate the most
my friend vicky said she got a call back on wednesday so i gave them a call to see what was happening
the woman on the phone said she knew nothing of it but said she'd ask someone and call me back.
sure enough she called me back and told me that the guy who did the interviews hasnt called anyone back yet...

...... :/

i didnt tell them my friend got a call back, the girl that had an interview with the same guy right after me lol
gona call em back on monday and pester some more, not to sound bad but im a better photographer than my mate and she even said it!
i think its more to do with the fact i have tattoo's on my hands!

always the same fucking thing, people just giving me bullshit excuses when i know its cos of my tattoo's!
DISCRIMINATION! comes to mind lol

its been a while again, seam to have less time each day as each new day passes

life update (not that nay of you care its more an open diary)
havent heard back from Flawless Studio's about my interview/trial on 5th May so ive emailed them like 10min ago just to ask about it, the guy seamed really possative about me and said he'd get in touch before tue, when the training started. AND! bumped into my friend vicky on the way out, ive asked her about it n she hasnt heard anything either although the guy said to her that he'd make sure he got back in touch with her and adam about starting the training. ADAM he mentioned my name
but still nothing? ah well see what happens

still no job, was supposed to be shooting lastnight but everything just went tits up
for some silly reason my phone decided not to work although worked fine for me?
got like 12 txt's through at once, one of them from the model i just got of the buss to meet lol
all backed up? its done this before not sure if its just my iphone cos its never happened with other phones?
doubt it though more than likely silly server O2!?! :/

ah well still no job, got a few shoots planned though and a few gigs too but ill more than likely be blagging my way in free and shooting them, been a while since i got my mosh on.
decided not to go see KISS again, they're not that good inside a venue more of a festival / outdoors band
so i decided to go watch The Chariot instead was a good gig, lots of kids there tbh was a bit dead but was fun shooting, and the guitarist remembered me

chilled n chattted with the bands after gave em my buisness card n told em the photos would be up soon


erm cant think of anything else to say now...


peace

interview seamed to go well today

said id hear back in a week, by the sounds of things they're looking for a collection of photographers for their studio so im fairly confident, having heard the girl being interviewed before me
not to sound bad and im sure she's a lovely girl but she didnt have a clue and had no exp shooting!? yet she was applying to be a photographer...?

well i guess everyone has to start somewhere

things are on the up... slowly, but its a start

got a trial/interview at Flawless Makeover studio's and noooo im not getting a makeover it a photographer thing


and another plus kate has unblocked me on facebook and accepted me as a freinds and we've been talking
odd though she changed her relationship status to "it's complicated"

see silly things like that make me think, and how she said is as really nice talking to me again

well ive still go my fingers crossed


peace

fired!?! :/ .....


and i still cant get a certain girl off my mind even though ive tried so had...

well my first week at work is over, its been good.
was a bit hard getting back into the swng of things bit of a bombardment of knoledge but im getting there now
got my first 2 sign ups on friday

well my entire plans for the weekend went out the window lastnight which sucks!
got me down abit, and i just started thinking too much sat in my room alone
like every other night with fuck all to do


ah well, World Pin Hole Day on the 25th


here's to living in the moment...
im still carrying a little hope that things could be a little different now
could i see you tonight just one last time, i wana make things right...
just to somehow feel you again....

yeah well as a few of you's know i have a job now
and thanks for the very few (two people) that gave me congrats
i start monday! O.o
street fundraising for NSPCC ive done this sort of thing before though so im fairly confident about starting
just been doing my research on the NSPCC


so yeah anyhoo im out of a shit patch at the min,
as a few of you may know my bro's on remand cos of stupid ex
and well i was just messed around n hurt mby a girl i really love... still do..
and i still think she's just shutting me out because she thinks shes burdoning me with her child or something
i dont know?

but yeah anyhoo things have seamed to be going okay the past few days
did a bit of a shoot yesterday



yeah thats about it
oh i got some new ink as well my way of celibrating getting a new job
(and to commemorate my broken heart)



peace