remember when I said I love you?
well forget it I take it back.
I was just a stupid kid back then,
I take back every word that I said.

i finally got around to seeing dillinger escape plan last night.
there were only about 100 people at the show, pretty crazy.
i love that band so hard it makes my insides squirm.

bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.

-captain murphy
captain of sealab 2021 season 1-3ish

i love that show so fucking bad.
the world should have died when it was cancelled.

piss.

what more can be said? i've put more into this than most... for what?
on a wing, and a whim... to think, too thin... falling apart as we watch.
nothing seems to mean too much to anyone nowadays, so... fuck it.
i want out, and i want some compensation for the times i've wasted.
just a nip on the nose, or a peck on the cheek, something... anything.
call me old fashioned, but i thought this was meant to be. oh, well.
i guess i'll just wallow here in my mire, surrounded by ghosts.

i'm so tired. for reals.



nobody reads this.

nothing couldn't be solved.

well, i go out walking after midnight. out in the moonlight. just hoping i'll find you, somewhere.

i go out walking.

after midnight.

in the starlight.

searching.

for.

you.

you know... uh, no. just, no.

six cheers for self destruction and a side order of glee.

...and the rest of them, who gives a fuck.