Carve my Name

i sit wondering how this could be
the cracks in my skin
show this cold world the true me
the blood trying to wash away the sin
carve my name in the tombstone
it seems to be the only way home
if i stumble will you catch me
if i drown will you save me
oh god please forgive me
for what i've done
how long is this road to you and i
lead me the right way so i can get home
demons on my back and angels in front of my eyes
i've forgotten which way to go
carve my name in the tombstone
it seems to be the only way home
if i stumble will you catch me
if i drown will you save me
oh god please forgive me
for what i've done
stars and dreams make me believe
where is christ in the rememberence of me
this is the hymn of a soul so lost
god please save me i'll pay any cost
carve my name in the tombstone
it seems to be the only way home
if i stumble will you catch me
if i drown will you save me
oh god please forgive me
for what i've done

The Reaping

pray for the weak and hope it doesnt fail
a new american christ you wish for
no one is listening no one to sell
greed is the only thing you worship
the rapture is on your tongue all
you shall get is a mouth full of sin
reap what you sew
its a bloodstained life
reap what you sew
its a black hole death
call my name
salvation awaits you tonight
walk with me as we journey thru your tomb
you cant change the inevitable
remember where you lay is where you die
you could have controled this, you were able
these are the choices of your life
now start digging, dig your shallow grave
reap what you sew
its a bloodstained life
reap what you sew
its a black hole death
call my name
salvation awaits you tonight
burn you alive
in the blinding light
smell your smoke
as you die
no need to scream
there is no more life
call my name
salvation awaits you tonight
obay the reaping
this is what you asked for
obay the reaping
this is what you diserve
call my name
you cant run you cant hide

A Poem des Lebens

time? what is time?
time is an illusion
moving in a clockwise motion
but always frozen still
like the artic ocean
in winter
so vast yet all the same
drop 3 feet below and
see the ripple effect of
mistakes unmistakenly made

Circus Ole

i walk alone, mind twisting in circles
so cold and contorted, dementia sets in
locked inside of me, welcome to this circus
so weary and confused, now it begins
the rock of life begins to crumble
broken like a rock to a window
try to fit pieces to a puzzle
chaos reigns this is the circus
shattered glass brings cuts and pain
chaos reigns this is the circus
the circus of ole
we walk together our minds blistered and bruised
as help passes by, all we do is refuse
locked inside of you your pain becomes the glue
so ugly and so used, circus ole
begins to show thru, walk away
the pain is too much for you
so rotten and so pitiful, i blame this ob truth
try to fit pieces to a puzzle
chaos reigns this is the circus
shattered glass brings cuts and pain
chaos reigns this is the circus
the circus of ole
twist your eyes and
blind yourself dont forget to
cut your lies and
bleed yourself
you'll never be alive
untill your veins run dry
try to fit pieces to a puzzle
chaos reigns this is the circus
shattered glass brings cuts and pain
chaos reigns this is the circus
the circus of ole
circus ole, what a ride
so ugly and so lame
so pretty and so deranged
but not as deranged as me

Lightless Life

im suffocating in the airless black
the code of life is what we lack
as we rott into an artifact
we know now there is no turning back
our minds blank with this horrible fact
its time to go now depict this horrible act
as they march us to where the earth is cracked
days turn from light to black
nights turn from black to darker
all this hate is a product of our life
scream now with me cuz it only gets harder
the chime of the bell we know is near
its time to face our deepest fear
dont cry now dont shed a single tear
thats what they need to take your years
once again we hold close what is dear
days turn from light to black
nights turn from black to darker
all this hate is a product of our life
scream now with me cuz it only gets harder
life is what we need
this you can bet sets us free
be careful now and remember
its much easier to bleed
black and darker
as life gets harder
strings attached to a martyr
pull them now as
the hate is a blotter
days turn from light to black
nights turn from black to darker
all this hate is a product of our life
scream now with me cuz it only gets harder


this is a song i wrote. please give me your thoughts & feelings on it.