I have a crush on a girl that is moving away in 2 months. And I think she likes me back. FFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
So, this was by far the most fucked up thing to ever happen to me on a date...
I was having a decent time with this girl, at a baseball game (I hate baseball, but the tickets were free, so fuck it). I didn't really have any intention of dating her for various reasons, but she really sealed the deal when she showed me a video she had taken at work. She works at a pre-school. So, when she said, "Want to see what I did at work the other day?" I say, "Yeah, sure!" I expected a video of some cute kids finger painting or something like that. NOPE! There was a possum that had come too close to the school...so the video was of a guy smashing it in the head with a sledge hammer. I wont' go into detail, but it was horrific. The look of sickness and horror which spread across my face caused her to say, "Oh, I thought you'd like it because of what you do." I am a butcher in a local market. Clearly, because I am a butcher, I am down with animal cruelty. I informed her that I was not, and did not speak to her the rest of the night. I still can't get the images out of my head.
I was having a decent time with this girl, at a baseball game (I hate baseball, but the tickets were free, so fuck it). I didn't really have any intention of dating her for various reasons, but she really sealed the deal when she showed me a video she had taken at work. She works at a pre-school. So, when she said, "Want to see what I did at work the other day?" I say, "Yeah, sure!" I expected a video of some cute kids finger painting or something like that. NOPE! There was a possum that had come too close to the school...so the video was of a guy smashing it in the head with a sledge hammer. I wont' go into detail, but it was horrific. The look of sickness and horror which spread across my face caused her to say, "Oh, I thought you'd like it because of what you do." I am a butcher in a local market. Clearly, because I am a butcher, I am down with animal cruelty. I informed her that I was not, and did not speak to her the rest of the night. I still can't get the images out of my head.
I cannot wait for April to be over. I was violently ill, my parent's dogs were horrendous while they were gone, my dad all but disowned me, my friend got doored by a car and has brain damage now, I had a weird thing with my best friend's fiance wanting to do me, my car was fucked up, my phone was fucked up, and today I did this at work:
It only took 5 stitches, but it bled like a mother fucker. My knife slipped off of some really hard fat. So now I look emo.
And now I just found out that the aforementioned fiance's old hairdresser was my long time crush. And this crush has now moved.
Bicyclists: wear a helmet, please. I just got back from seeing a friend in the ICU. He will be there for at least 5 days, 3 of those unconscious. He was riding his bike, and someone opened their car door. He clipped the door with his handlebar, flipped over the handle bars and landed on his head. He has a cracked skull, and brain bleed. He doesn't have insurance. We'll be doing some fund raising to cover the $50k+ bill.
Please wear a helmet. Fuck looking "cool."
Please wear a helmet. Fuck looking "cool."
sometimes there is nothing you can do but love someone and hope they aren't too far gone. sending warm thoughts to my dad on his birthday, even though he doesn't want to talk to me.
this is good.
man, a lot of this guy's blogs are about nick cave recently.
well, here is why:
TO ALL THOSE AT MTV,
I WOULD LIKE TO START BY THANKING YOU ALL FOR THE SUPPORT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME OVER RECENT YEARS AND I AM BOTH GRATEFUL AND FLATTERED BY THE NOMINATIONS THAT I HAVE RECEIVED FOR BEST MALE ARTIST. THE AIR PLAY GIVEN TO BOTH THE KYLIE MINOGUE AND P. J. HARVEY DUETS FROM MY LATEST ALBUM MURDER BALLADS HAS NOT GONE UNNOTICED AND HAS BEEN GREATLY APPRECIATED. SO AGAIN MY SINCERE THANKS.
HAVING SAID THAT, I FEEL THAT IT'S NECESSARY FOR ME TO REQUEST THAT MY NOMINATION FOR BEST MALE ARTIST BE WITHDRAWN AND FURTHERMORE ANY AWARDS OR NOMINATIONS FOR SUCH AWARDS THAT MAY ARISE IN LATER YEARS BE PRESENTED TO THOSE WHO FEEL MORE COMFORTABLE WITH THE COMPETITIVE NATURE OF THESE AWARD CEREMONIES. I MYSELF, DO NOT. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN OF THE OPINION THAT MY MUSIC IS UNIQUE AND INDIVIDUAL AND EXISTS BEYOND THE REALMS INHABITED BY THOSE WHO WOULD REDUCE THINGS TO MERE MEASURING. I AM IN COMPETITION WITH NO-ONE.
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY MUSE IS A DELICATE ONE AT THE BEST OF TIMES AND I FEEL THAT IT IS MY DUTY TO PROTECT HER FROM INFLUENCES THAT MAY OFFEND HER FRAGILE NATURE.
SHE COMES TO ME WITH THE GIFT OF SONG AND IN RETURN I TREAT HER WITH THE RESPECT I FEEL SHE DESERVES - IN THIS CASE THIS MEANS NOT SUBJECTING HER TO THE INDIGNITIES OF JUDGEMENT AND COMPETITION. MY MUSE IS NOT A HORSE AND I AM IN NO HORSE RACE AND IF INDEED SHE WAS, STILL I WOULD NOT HARNESS HER TO THIS TUMBREL - THIS BLOODY CART OF SEVERED HEADS AND GLITTERING PRIZES. MY MUSE MAY SPOOK! MAY BOLT! MAY ABANDON ME COMPLETELY!
SO ONCE AGAIN, TO THE PEOPLE AT MTV, I APPRECIATE THE ZEAL AND ENERGY THAT WAS PUT BEHIND MY LAST RECORD, I TRULY DO AND SAY THANK YOU AND AGAIN I SAY THANK YOU BUT NO...NO THANK YOU.
YOURS SINCERELY, NICK CAVE 21 OCT 96.
