Soooo I just bought my bus ticket to see SG Hopeful Pettis!!!! OMGOMG Im freaking out!
So incredibly excited! Its gonna be an awesome couple of days!
Slushies at the kiddie park and random pics errywhere!
Can't wait to share it all with you guys!
Uhhh the bank pushed our meeting back till Wednesday...
Tomorrow I go to the Village for my current job, then work all day, and have a meeting later than night.
Super busy, but its making the time go by fast.
Hopefully Ill will be meeting one of my besties, miss SG hopeful Pettis,
Yeah she's a hottie, and soon we will be having a blast together.
Can't wait, I'm so stinking excited.
I'll also get to see my little brother graduate from High school, so proud of him.
And he doesn't even know I'm coming, so I am super excited for this summer
and for life. It's always a journey and an adventure, what more could we ask for.
Well besides some pictures yeah know...
Tomorrow I go to the Village for my current job, then work all day, and have a meeting later than night.
Super busy, but its making the time go by fast.
Hopefully Ill will be meeting one of my besties, miss SG hopeful Pettis,
Yeah she's a hottie, and soon we will be having a blast together.
Can't wait, I'm so stinking excited.
I'll also get to see my little brother graduate from High school, so proud of him.
And he doesn't even know I'm coming, so I am super excited for this summer
and for life. It's always a journey and an adventure, what more could we ask for.
Well besides some pictures yeah know...
The bank said come back another day :|
I need a new camera...
a non film one...
So I can take more pics for you all...
See its an excellent reason for someone to get me one.
lol.
I also need more alone time, so I can take those pics for you all.
Or maybe I should just hire a really sexy girly friend of mine
to be with me all the time so we can take sexy pics of each other.
lol
volunteers?
Anywho...goodnight all
I need a new camera...
a non film one...
So I can take more pics for you all...
See its an excellent reason for someone to get me one.
lol.
I also need more alone time, so I can take those pics for you all.
Or maybe I should just hire a really sexy girly friend of mine
to be with me all the time so we can take sexy pics of each other.
lol
volunteers?
Anywho...goodnight all
Hey Guys so sorry I been so MIA lately
Life has been interesting.
Trying to plan the wedding got overwhelming, I think I had a mini break down
And on a positive note, Im trying to open my own coffee shop again
I go to the bank to talk to them about a loan tomorrow
Keep me in your thoughts though, cause I have never bought anything on credit
and I literally have nothing to put down as collateral
The only thing I own is my cute lil self
I been running a little bit, trying to start working out again
Damn I miss SG and all of you!
Don't worry I promise pictures soon.
Hope you all are having a great end of semester!
Peace.Love.Coffee
Life has been interesting.
Trying to plan the wedding got overwhelming, I think I had a mini break down
And on a positive note, Im trying to open my own coffee shop again
I go to the bank to talk to them about a loan tomorrow
Keep me in your thoughts though, cause I have never bought anything on credit
and I literally have nothing to put down as collateral
The only thing I own is my cute lil self
I been running a little bit, trying to start working out again
Damn I miss SG and all of you!
Don't worry I promise pictures soon.
Hope you all are having a great end of semester!
Peace.Love.Coffee
Sooo I just bought myself some random underwear, and its honestly the most I've spent on under garments but Im super excited and honestly I been working my butt off between work and school! So yay! New stuff for me.
I hope there real good quality.
Not much else going on, last two weeks of school, its crunch time, but im working a ton these last couple weeks. :/ Wish me luck. On the plus side I just found out I get to attend my little brothers graduation in the lower forty eight! YAY for a trip away and maybe some wedding dress shopping with one of my bestest friends!
Yay for girls night out in Indianapolis?! I think so!
I hope there real good quality.
Not much else going on, last two weeks of school, its crunch time, but im working a ton these last couple weeks. :/ Wish me luck. On the plus side I just found out I get to attend my little brothers graduation in the lower forty eight! YAY for a trip away and maybe some wedding dress shopping with one of my bestest friends!
Yay for girls night out in Indianapolis?! I think so!
So as life turns out Imma be in the small town for a while...ughhh kinda hate that
Its just like a feeling I dread because it seems like it always happens.
But hopefully its all meant to be right? And the fiance decided not to take
the job he was looking at...Which is really stressful but at least he wont be gone for six months.
He also decided the other day that he wants to push our wedding date up,
That stressed me out like crazy, I mean I love him to death but I dont think he
really understands how much time, money and effort it takes to plan something like a wedding.
So I been trying to get him more involved, so he can look at it all realistically.
But of course hes far too busy/tired/sick lately to even think about wedding stuff
I been okay, slammed with homework, but at least it keeps my mind off most of the
other stuff, which is good, cause I know I get pretty negative sometimes
Im working on it though...
Life is good, but because this is my blog Imma vent for a while
So the fiance also said that he'd like to abstain from any sexual stuff until the wedding
which is fine, except I dont know if he is being realistic about a timeline here, I mean
from the way he talks he is thinking a couple months, and in all honesty its not like
we have been getting alot of nooky as is, but I still feel like he is just not giving me what I want.
I know that sounds bad, and I dont think he is trying to hold back, but
He just doesnt treat me like he used to, its like around my family he has this phobia of me...
and I feel like every guy Ive ever been with develops this crazy behavior.
Its like my parents are so intimidating they turn all my bad boys into good little church boys,
which one is a major turn off, and two drives me insane! Who wants to be with someone
who is only goody two shoes all the time?!?!? That was me for so long and it was SO BORING!
Im not asking for him to throw me on the counter and fuck me at the dinner table, but come on an ass slap
or neck bite every once in a while wouldnt kill him. But on the flip side I feel bad
cause I know he is trying to juggle pleasing me and the parents, and he is already stressed out bout all this.
And I think he feels like I am never happy with him, but I am, so happy in fact that I just want some alone time so I can have all his attention.... Idk I feel bad wanting more, but that doesnt make me want it any less....
Its just like a feeling I dread because it seems like it always happens.
But hopefully its all meant to be right? And the fiance decided not to take
the job he was looking at...Which is really stressful but at least he wont be gone for six months.
He also decided the other day that he wants to push our wedding date up,
That stressed me out like crazy, I mean I love him to death but I dont think he
really understands how much time, money and effort it takes to plan something like a wedding.
So I been trying to get him more involved, so he can look at it all realistically.
But of course hes far too busy/tired/sick lately to even think about wedding stuff
I been okay, slammed with homework, but at least it keeps my mind off most of the
other stuff, which is good, cause I know I get pretty negative sometimes
Im working on it though...
Life is good, but because this is my blog Imma vent for a while
So the fiance also said that he'd like to abstain from any sexual stuff until the wedding
which is fine, except I dont know if he is being realistic about a timeline here, I mean
from the way he talks he is thinking a couple months, and in all honesty its not like
we have been getting alot of nooky as is, but I still feel like he is just not giving me what I want.
I know that sounds bad, and I dont think he is trying to hold back, but
He just doesnt treat me like he used to, its like around my family he has this phobia of me...
and I feel like every guy Ive ever been with develops this crazy behavior.
Its like my parents are so intimidating they turn all my bad boys into good little church boys,
which one is a major turn off, and two drives me insane! Who wants to be with someone
who is only goody two shoes all the time?!?!? That was me for so long and it was SO BORING!
Im not asking for him to throw me on the counter and fuck me at the dinner table, but come on an ass slap
or neck bite every once in a while wouldnt kill him. But on the flip side I feel bad
cause I know he is trying to juggle pleasing me and the parents, and he is already stressed out bout all this.
And I think he feels like I am never happy with him, but I am, so happy in fact that I just want some alone time so I can have all his attention.... Idk I feel bad wanting more, but that doesnt make me want it any less....
Ahhhh Life Changes happening, seems like when ever I plan something
it never works out... Ill update you as soon as I can stop my head from spinning.
it never works out... Ill update you as soon as I can stop my head from spinning.
Heyy
So not much going on, done house sitting
And school is piling up, work evaluations are this week.
And while we were house sitting I had some greens for the first
time in like 6 months! So hopefully drug test doesn't follow the evaluation.
That would suuuck.
Also my hair is no longer red, but faded to a really bright neon pink...
gah I hate pink...lol
Pre-shower
See what I mean, PINK!
I havent been working out and its starting to show
On the plus side, my fiance made a wonderful dinner last night
which I ate an enormous amount of.
So not much going on, done house sitting
And school is piling up, work evaluations are this week.
And while we were house sitting I had some greens for the first
time in like 6 months! So hopefully drug test doesn't follow the evaluation.
That would suuuck.
Also my hair is no longer red, but faded to a really bright neon pink...
gah I hate pink...lol
Pre-shower
See what I mean, PINK!
I havent been working out
and its starting to show On the plus side, my fiance made a wonderful dinner last night
which I ate an enormous amount of.
So My and the fiance are housesitting this week. YAY!
I can be naked all day long! Yay! But I also wanted cupcakes...
So then I started to cook.
Pettis Hopeful SG and Eureka SG Hopeful these are kinda, yeah, for you guys ^.^
The whole time this was happening, my fiance...was sleeping
^_^ of course. But then he woke up....
And this is for you mr. you know who
Also on a more serious note, I have been researching the Kony2012 Campaign.
I think that if you haven't already looked into it, you should, it's worth at least checking out.
In this world of terrible people and things, we are often unable to help or do
even have an impact on the world around us, often times our motives even if they are of
good intent, have little to no large scale impact. This is a way for everyone to get involved,
for us, as the youth and future of the Nation to take a stand. Let us join together,
to let the whole world know, that the people of the United States of America can put aside their difference, and take a stand against a common enemy, the harm and abduction of children.
I know that many people have said that their children here being abducted also, and we should focus on our own Nation first, but maybe by joining together to help others, we can start a movement that will eventually be able to take on other issues in the world.
Check it out if you have a few minutes.
http://www.kony2012.com/
I can be naked all day long! Yay! But I also wanted cupcakes...
So then I started to cook.
Pettis Hopeful SG and Eureka SG Hopeful these are kinda, yeah, for you guys ^.^
The whole time this was happening, my fiance...was sleeping
^_^ of course. But then he woke up....
And this is for you mr. you know who
Also on a more serious note, I have been researching the Kony2012 Campaign.
I think that if you haven't already looked into it, you should, it's worth at least checking out.
In this world of terrible people and things, we are often unable to help or do
even have an impact on the world around us, often times our motives even if they are of
good intent, have little to no large scale impact. This is a way for everyone to get involved,
for us, as the youth and future of the Nation to take a stand. Let us join together,
to let the whole world know, that the people of the United States of America can put aside their difference, and take a stand against a common enemy, the harm and abduction of children.
I know that many people have said that their children here being abducted also, and we should focus on our own Nation first, but maybe by joining together to help others, we can start a movement that will eventually be able to take on other issues in the world.
Check it out if you have a few minutes.
http://www.kony2012.com/
Ah life and stress. We meet once again.
My fiance tells me that my personality changes when I'm around my family, which
I think is somewhat normal for all people. Your family and you have a completely different
relationship that anyone else in your life. Its like a battlefield and a cozy blanket all in one.
Being the almost psych major that I am, I can't help trying to figure out why they do the things they do.
So I been rummaging through the DSM 5 manual for fun and discover they are codependent.
Which explains a lot, such as why they they hated my ex-bf until the day I broke up with him because then
he was like their pet project, someone new to take care of. And why they disliked my fiance for so long
because omg there's not a single mental issue or area in which they are necessary in his life for him to survive. And it also explains why they have an inevitable ability to not connect or reach out to their own children.
But it still leaves me with this empty feeling... As much as I love them, I still feel like they need help. And I'm finally realizing (yes, I know its common sense) that I can't fix them or help them understand their own problems. They aren't able to see things the way I do (another part of codependency), but now what do I do. I came home to try and help our relationship, to attempt to fix those issues my parents and I had so my four year old sister wouldn't have to deal with all the things I have.
Now I just feel kinda lost, I'm not giving up, but I'm also not gonna fight this way anymore.
But thanks for reading, and here are some pics.
My fiance tells me that my personality changes when I'm around my family, which
I think is somewhat normal for all people. Your family and you have a completely different
relationship that anyone else in your life. Its like a battlefield and a cozy blanket all in one.
Being the almost psych major that I am, I can't help trying to figure out why they do the things they do.
So I been rummaging through the DSM 5 manual for fun and discover they are codependent.
Which explains a lot, such as why they they hated my ex-bf until the day I broke up with him because then
he was like their pet project, someone new to take care of. And why they disliked my fiance for so long
because omg there's not a single mental issue or area in which they are necessary in his life for him to survive. And it also explains why they have an inevitable ability to not connect or reach out to their own children.
But it still leaves me with this empty feeling... As much as I love them, I still feel like they need help. And I'm finally realizing (yes, I know its common sense) that I can't fix them or help them understand their own problems. They aren't able to see things the way I do (another part of codependency), but now what do I do. I came home to try and help our relationship, to attempt to fix those issues my parents and I had so my four year old sister wouldn't have to deal with all the things I have.
Now I just feel kinda lost, I'm not giving up, but I'm also not gonna fight this way anymore.
But thanks for reading, and here are some pics.
