So its late at night, just past midnight my time, and im sitting here alone bored out of my fucking mind. No one to talk to or to even im. I hate being alone sometimes, its such a strange dilema in my head... there are times in my life when i desperately want to be alone and almost literally crave the loneliness that presently tortures me. Seriously how can anyone have such a love/hate relationship with anything... I supposed its just hard presently because everyone i love is having a good time, and i honestly can say sitting in this fucking RV is not so fun... I just hate not having my own place, my own room, to exist in. I miss being able to run around naked and crank my music loud enough for the neighbors to hear. I miss the stupid shit... but i really miss it...
...I really miss Alaska...

So my Victoria Secret Order came in today! YEAH for new bra's n swimsuit! N let me tell you mmm they are hot! Buuuut I think Im gonna save them for my first set! Which Im planning n thinking about non stop!!! Im so excited! I also looked at my dream camera this weekend the Canon Ti3 aaahhh its so lovely and I cant wait to get it Im definitely saving up for it!!! Ahhh there i go dreaming again...

But in other events in my life, dropped the bf off at the airport today He'll be gone for the week in Phoenix, sad but at least its only a week and hopefully i wont go to crazy here being... jobless... and broke... haha oh well I'll find something to do hopefully!

But hope Monday wasn't too terrible for you all, i know mine was pretty chill... ttys
Peace.Love.Coffee.

Today/ Last night we went camping and fishing! I caught the biggest fish! YEAH!!! Got a couple pike and two walleye... i actually spent quite alot of money on my fishing pole but come on it was my first fishing pole ever so yeah i spoiled myself a bit! So that was fun! Slept under the stars! Love that even if they don't shine nearly as bright as the stars in Alaska.

I was also thinking while i sat under the sun about all my future tattoos, sad i know that they are all always "future" tats but soon I hopefully will have all that i have planned and more. Any who i think i want to get a panda bear sometime in the future. While it is a little girly i also want it because when i was little i used to pray for the panda bears in China and that they would have enough bamboo to eat. Even though it was a long time ago its something that still crosses my mind sometimes, I really would love to see a real panda bear someday! But any who now i'm on the lookout for the perfect panda and the perfect placement for it!

Headed to a party tonight, hopefully...seems like I have yet to attend one where I have fun. Yeah it could be that i haven't partied alot but still...you'd think at least one party wouldn't feel so awkward... or maybe I just expect everyone to be like the SG girls and expect them to be willing to give me a chance... Im kinda shy at first, but really talk to me AT ALL and you'd realize Im pretty fun.... idk wish me luck....
Peace.Love.Coffee. and today Pandas!

So today all that is on my mind is my non-existent cash flow. Yeah it really sucks and I know a lot of people are going through the same situation or even worse, But it really sucks when I live in a state with one of the lowest unemployment rates. And its not even that I cant get a job, more so that this coffee shop is taking a lot longer to get going than I was planning on... Its really frustrating... but since I have no money and am forced to be a dreamer for the time, Here are a few things I been dying to buy.... given when I actually have some fun money laying around. Haha or maybe Ill get them for my bday lol.... Anywho here they are...


http://www.splitmindplush.co.uk/mall/departmentpage.cfm/splitmindplush/_299870/1/Kittys

This adorable bunny! So scene I know, But they are actually hand made by, Akito, an SG girl!
Ever since I discovered them, I've been dying to get one!!!!



I really wanted to pre-order SSX: Deadly Descents but yeah that didn't happen, hopefully when it goes out I will at least be able to drive to Walmart and test it out haha. Yeah i loooved the first two!
Kaori was always my favorite but thats prolly becayse I love Manga n Anime!




Then there is my ever present addiction to makeup, considering I've never actually bought any brand
worth mentioning it is on my list of things to acquire.

But yeah so this Blog is definitely sounding a little snobbish and materialistic but
if I had the ability these would be the a few things I'd buy just for me!!!
But anywho its also laundry day so Im sure Ill be posting more when im sitting at
the laundry matt with all the creepers ... Peace.Love.Coffee

Just outta the shower and me and my man are gonna take a drive, i love being here and starting a new adventure but omg living with six other people is really frustrating sometimes! Especially when some of them are his family.... ahhhh i feel like im going crazy sometimes and its not gonna be alot of fun when my bf leaves for Phoenix for a week and im here all alone, and jobless.... not cool!

There are some more pics, hopefully they keep you all smiling, and im gonna keep my head up and rock out to some screamo! Peace <3 and Coffee!

So kinda good kinda bad last couple days! Yesterday my bf's mom who I was partners with in this cleaning business basically fired me, laaaaaame for sure! Especially considering my coffee shop doesn't open for another couple weeks, but at the same time I'm looking at it as a blessing. Now I can just focus on my shop and getting every arranged for the Grand Opening! Ahhh Im really nervous, not gonna lie, its scary starting your own business. It really makes me miss my family lately, my mom was always so supportive and there for me whenever I needed her. Sometimes its hard moving to a new place, where you don't know anyone! I just need to turn pink so that I can finally chill with some awesome SG girls... buuuuut anywho Im gonna jump in the shower n then maybe I'll post some more pics! Peace and <3 and Coffee!

Happy Late Fourth of July!
Sorry I'm late we went camping this weekend and it was awesome!
There were fireworks all night, they started just before dark and went
till almost four in the morning, it was so beautiful.
We were down by the lake fishing all night and having a good time,
Then of course when it got dark we all went skinny dipping!
N right then I looked up and paper lanterns filled the sky!
It was so lovely, lots of good stories, good drank, good memories made!
And don't worry lots of pictures to come also!!!!
Hope you all had a great weekend!