Soo its a saturday... so far I went to the store...
and now im going to work my ass off on hw...
But first... some pics for you!!
and now im going to work my ass off on hw...
But first... some pics for you!!
Trimeric (in progress)
How did it come to this
To single second pecks of lips
Just as fingers forgot to explore
And hearts constantly desire more
To single second pecks of lips
Sparkling eyes glitter in the mist
Quicken pulse and sharp breath in
Just as fingers forgot to explore
Once they start wandering uncharted shores
Investigating every hidden crevice
And hearts constantly desire more
Quickened pulse beats ever faster
And a rolling sound that is nowhere close to laughter
How did it come to this
To single second pecks of lips
Just as fingers forgot to explore
And hearts constantly desire more
To single second pecks of lips
Sparkling eyes glitter in the mist
Quicken pulse and sharp breath in
Just as fingers forgot to explore
Once they start wandering uncharted shores
Investigating every hidden crevice
And hearts constantly desire more
Quickened pulse beats ever faster
And a rolling sound that is nowhere close to laughter
School started today! N oh man these 7 weeks are gonna be intense!
16 chapters to read by Monday for one class! Not counting the quizzes n essays.
130 math problems CORRECT in the next two days.
But at least my social change class is gonna be a breeze. Her number one rule is state your opinion!
But I have to get to work now...
Hope everyone is having an awesome day!!!
P.S. Nude pics are in here \/ \/ \/
16 chapters to read by Monday for one class! Not counting the quizzes n essays.
130 math problems CORRECT in the next two days.
But at least my social change class is gonna be a breeze. Her number one rule is state your opinion!
But I have to get to work now...
Hope everyone is having an awesome day!!!
P.S. Nude pics are in here \/ \/ \/
peace.love.coffee
Heyyy I got my hair done. its much shorter than I asked for...but hair grows riiight.
Before
(in my new vest that i aaaadore)
After
peace.love.coffee.
Before
(in my new vest that i aaaadore)
After
peace.love.coffee.
Hey guys sorry its been so long, my weekend turned into a week. And it was amazing!
We stayed at the Captain Cook Hotel, in a Junior Suite! It was so beautiful!
N omg that king size bed was like sleeping on a cloud!!! It was useful for other things also.
But then again so were the windows that overlooked the entire city!
The first night we went to dinner at the Crows Nest and had the most fantastic wine, to celebrate our engagement! It was called Elespeth One. The second night we hung out with some friends
and went to their party at the hotel. Third night we stayed in and drank our own alcohol and
a day of shopping! Yay! Fourth night we went "bar" hopping even though we only to places that
had amazing food also, like The Glacier Brewhouse! Best Buffalo Wings and beer ever!
And the last day we spent working on paperwork for a job for my man.
The the whole time so awesome and it was incredible to get to spend that much time
just celebrating us and all that our relationship is about. Food, Fun, and lots and lots of sex.
Sorry I didnt take too many pictures...I was too busy enjoying myself!
P.S. I tried a blackberry mojito, strawberry daquiri, like eight kinds of beer the stout being my favorite, washington apple shots, and tons of new wines!!!
We stayed at the Captain Cook Hotel, in a Junior Suite! It was so beautiful!
N omg that king size bed was like sleeping on a cloud!!! It was useful for other things also.
But then again so were the windows that overlooked the entire city!
The first night we went to dinner at the Crows Nest and had the most fantastic wine, to celebrate our engagement! It was called Elespeth One. The second night we hung out with some friends
and went to their party at the hotel. Third night we stayed in and drank our own alcohol and
a day of shopping! Yay! Fourth night we went "bar" hopping even though we only to places that
had amazing food also, like The Glacier Brewhouse! Best Buffalo Wings and beer ever!
And the last day we spent working on paperwork for a job for my man.
The the whole time so awesome and it was incredible to get to spend that much time
just celebrating us and all that our relationship is about. Food, Fun, and lots and lots of sex.
Sorry I didnt take too many pictures...I was too busy enjoying myself!
P.S. I tried a blackberry mojito, strawberry daquiri, like eight kinds of beer the stout being my favorite, washington apple shots, and tons of new wines!!!
Heyyyyy HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!
Today was nice just because... Its been a good week so far!
Work is going greeeeat! Just getting to know my clients
and strangely enough I felt brave this weekend being that I'm
21 and can legally drink now, so I went to a party a friend was having
and ran into my boss and her bf. lol
Buuut I actually think it made things at work a lot easier.
We talked and communicated so much better today!
I think and feel like Im doing a good job, since I am going to school for this.
And it feels kinda natural in a way, along with feeling nice to be practicing
what I read and write about all the time!
Today was V-day so my parents wanted to double date.
So that was fun even though I was seriously the only person who dressed up
lol. WTF I know its a small town but nobody dresses up anymore.
Sad. But I had a good time, a delicious dinner and booked our reservations
for a SUPER RITZY hotel this weekend in the city! I can't wait to go play!!
Oh and my gma who has been battling cancer for a year and a half finally
got the clean bill of health and will be home in two weeks, hopefully with
a place to stay for me and my fiance! Then we can sleep together and get to
help her with her recovery!
Today was nice just because... Its been a good week so far!
Work is going greeeeat! Just getting to know my clients
and strangely enough I felt brave this weekend being that I'm
21 and can legally drink now, so I went to a party a friend was having
and ran into my boss and her bf. lol
Buuut I actually think it made things at work a lot easier.
We talked and communicated so much better today!
I think and feel like Im doing a good job, since I am going to school for this.
And it feels kinda natural in a way, along with feeling nice to be practicing
what I read and write about all the time!
Today was V-day so my parents wanted to double date.
So that was fun even though I was seriously the only person who dressed up
lol. WTF I know its a small town but nobody dresses up anymore.
Sad. But I had a good time, a delicious dinner and booked our reservations
for a SUPER RITZY hotel this weekend in the city! I can't wait to go play!!
Oh and my gma who has been battling cancer for a year and a half finally
got the clean bill of health and will be home in two weeks, hopefully with
a place to stay for me and my fiance! Then we can sleep together and get to
help her with her recovery!
Hey well the job is going well. Training is over and were actually
working with clients now. Its nice to be outta the house for a while.
School starts soon, Im hoping all my financial aid will work out 0.o
Its not looking so good though...
I miss having my own life, n having stuff to do.
This small town just isn't my style...
N man I miss being able to have lazy naked sundays....
Poem that is a WORK IN PROGRESS
Really its not so grand... theres just some feelings
so raw...they never seem to be captured in the present moment.
My tangible self listlessly floats
To the heavens and beyond
Creating a vast and endless space
Between the matter that is myself
And all that has gone wrong
My head is staid by the steadfast
Beating of your heart’s song
I am only anchored to this earth
By a single entangled crimson throng
One end is tied to your smallest finger
The other to mine I know
Your arms are around me tight
Protecting me from the darkest shadow
Yet with the fall of a single footstep
The emotion will arise
One from my childhood that
Constantly greets me with equal surprise
A fear so deep and limitless
Its black rings swallow me from within
Sucking away my sense of accomplishment
And leaving me with little oxygen
And as my last thoughts crumble
From the corners of my mind
As I fall to the fathomless depths
I am reminded one more time
That this is the sensation
When a soul stifles a soul
Capturing it forever in the realm of their control
Their negative energy flows from within
Buried and crawling beneath their very skin
But Your love expanded and imploded
That nebula penetrated the essence of who I am
And I shall scatter its stars over the entire earth
To proclaim and demand that you recognize
All that I am worth
working with clients now. Its nice to be outta the house for a while.
School starts soon, Im hoping all my financial aid will work out 0.o
Its not looking so good though...
I miss having my own life, n having stuff to do.
This small town just isn't my style...
N man I miss being able to have lazy naked sundays....
Poem that is a WORK IN PROGRESS
Really its not so grand... theres just some feelings
so raw...they never seem to be captured in the present moment.
My tangible self listlessly floats
To the heavens and beyond
Creating a vast and endless space
Between the matter that is myself
And all that has gone wrong
My head is staid by the steadfast
Beating of your heart’s song
I am only anchored to this earth
By a single entangled crimson throng
One end is tied to your smallest finger
The other to mine I know
Your arms are around me tight
Protecting me from the darkest shadow
Yet with the fall of a single footstep
The emotion will arise
One from my childhood that
Constantly greets me with equal surprise
A fear so deep and limitless
Its black rings swallow me from within
Sucking away my sense of accomplishment
And leaving me with little oxygen
And as my last thoughts crumble
From the corners of my mind
As I fall to the fathomless depths
I am reminded one more time
That this is the sensation
When a soul stifles a soul
Capturing it forever in the realm of their control
Their negative energy flows from within
Buried and crawling beneath their very skin
But Your love expanded and imploded
That nebula penetrated the essence of who I am
And I shall scatter its stars over the entire earth
To proclaim and demand that you recognize
All that I am worth
Started my job today...spent two hours filling out paper work lol.
But It seems like its gonna be pretty good. Im going to be a "LifeSkills Aid"
Which also means like mentoring little kids on practical life issues while
secretly trying to get them to change their behavior.
Im pretty excited...any reason to get out of the house excites me...
but driving to work at -50 isn't so fun. I pray my semi-unreliable car
has a change of heart and decides to love me...
Parent issues are ugggh still there but my lovely bf talked to my mother and she
seems to have listened to him a little bit. We still quarrel but thats a mom and daughter relationship
for you. And my grandmother who has been battling cancer just found out
that it may not be cancer that still remains on her lung but scar tissue! So that
is really good exciting and super happy news! And She may be coming home
this month so I could live with her and help her out more too. Which would let me
worry alot less about her while she is in Seattle.
I miss you all... N want to post TONS of naked pics constantly
but its hard to find alone time to randomly take pics of myself....
lucky for you....
And with my first paycheck Im going to the city to blow some money, celebrate my bday, and get my tattoo! YAY!
But It seems like its gonna be pretty good. Im going to be a "LifeSkills Aid"
Which also means like mentoring little kids on practical life issues while
secretly trying to get them to change their behavior.
Im pretty excited...any reason to get out of the house excites me...
but driving to work at -50 isn't so fun. I pray my semi-unreliable car
has a change of heart and decides to love me...
Parent issues are ugggh still there but my lovely bf talked to my mother and she
seems to have listened to him a little bit. We still quarrel but thats a mom and daughter relationship
for you. And my grandmother who has been battling cancer just found out
that it may not be cancer that still remains on her lung but scar tissue! So that
is really good exciting and super happy news! And She may be coming home
this month so I could live with her and help her out more too. Which would let me
worry alot less about her while she is in Seattle.
I miss you all... N want to post TONS of naked pics constantly
but its hard to find alone time to randomly take pics of myself....
lucky for you....
And with my first paycheck Im going to the city to blow some money, celebrate my bday, and get my tattoo! YAY!
Hey So I got alot on my chest today... N surprise surprise Imma vent to ya'll.
So yeah first off before I say anything, My Birth Control is fucked up, so I'm a little over the top with all things emotional. Secondly, If I don't get sex soon Imma freak out N tie my fiance to my bed, lock the door, N not give a fuck who hears... Thirdly I really hate living here.
Right now I'm living with my parents, and while Its not an arrangement I like, I kinda chose it. My parents and I have a very complicated relationship, namely my dad is a pastor and has no concept of reality outside this small town. My parents are very black and white on things and if something enters their small world that they don't agree with they choose to deny its facts and argue with everyone based on the fallacy of ignorance. They choose not to accept any concepts of rationality or reasoning, and deny all things that challenge their beliefs. Which makes it very difficult for me, because I'm an open-minded person, I love to hear about other peoples beliefs, and points of view on any subject. I believe that by listening and analyzing all standpoints you are better able to have a coherent and complex view of the world and numerous subjects. I chose to live here because my parents and I are so different, I wanted to fix our relationship before I literally leave the Nation and travel the world. I wanted them to know me...
But I also came here to try and show them the world from my perspective. To show them a new view of life and how much better it can be. Not because your making more money or you have better stuff but because you choose to look at life with love and passion. But being here has sucked away my love and passion for life, and I feel like because I'm not accept in my own "home" and environment that I'm loosing that part of me I loved, and becoming the depressed child that didn't know who she was. They don't agree with anything that comprises my personality, I cant discuss any of the topics I love or am passionate about, I have no space because they think I'm gonna fuck my fiance any chance I get... So how do I maintain the me I love and live peaceably with the people who disagree with all that I am?
^^On a plush side my eye is getting better -.^ My little sister told me the other day, oh your eye is purple too bad its not pink, pink is a way better color. lol
So yeah first off before I say anything, My Birth Control is fucked up, so I'm a little over the top with all things emotional. Secondly, If I don't get sex soon Imma freak out N tie my fiance to my bed, lock the door, N not give a fuck who hears... Thirdly I really hate living here.
Right now I'm living with my parents, and while Its not an arrangement I like, I kinda chose it. My parents and I have a very complicated relationship, namely my dad is a pastor and has no concept of reality outside this small town. My parents are very black and white on things and if something enters their small world that they don't agree with they choose to deny its facts and argue with everyone based on the fallacy of ignorance. They choose not to accept any concepts of rationality or reasoning, and deny all things that challenge their beliefs. Which makes it very difficult for me, because I'm an open-minded person, I love to hear about other peoples beliefs, and points of view on any subject. I believe that by listening and analyzing all standpoints you are better able to have a coherent and complex view of the world and numerous subjects. I chose to live here because my parents and I are so different, I wanted to fix our relationship before I literally leave the Nation and travel the world. I wanted them to know me...
But I also came here to try and show them the world from my perspective. To show them a new view of life and how much better it can be. Not because your making more money or you have better stuff but because you choose to look at life with love and passion. But being here has sucked away my love and passion for life, and I feel like because I'm not accept in my own "home" and environment that I'm loosing that part of me I loved, and becoming the depressed child that didn't know who she was. They don't agree with anything that comprises my personality, I cant discuss any of the topics I love or am passionate about, I have no space because they think I'm gonna fuck my fiance any chance I get... So how do I maintain the me I love and live peaceably with the people who disagree with all that I am?
^^On a plush side my eye is getting better -.^ My little sister told me the other day, oh your eye is purple too bad its not pink, pink is a way better color. lol
Dude! So for my 21st bday
I got in a snowmachine accident! Laaaame
N I smashed my face on the snow/ river we were riding across
So yeah now I have two swollen eyes and Im thinking they are both
gonna turn black lol. But yeah at least I didnt break my nose!
So here are some pics before the accident!
And after I smashed my face up...
But Cant wait to post some more pics soon of my beautiful face soon! lol
peace.love.coffee
I got in a snowmachine accident! Laaaame
N I smashed my face on the snow/ river we were riding across
So yeah now I have two swollen eyes and Im thinking they are both
gonna turn black lol. But yeah at least I didnt break my nose!
So here are some pics before the accident!
And after I smashed my face up...
But Cant wait to post some more pics soon of my beautiful face soon! lol
peace.love.coffee
