Welp, problems ahoy.
Lots of personal shit happening right now, causing me a lot of stress. Worst thing is that when I stress I get panicky and just end up causing myself more stress.
Topping things off it looks like July might not happen. Her roommate has pulled some serious bullshit and decided to move out next month, which leaves her stuck with very few options.
Fuck.
I just want something to work in my favour here.
Lots of personal shit happening right now, causing me a lot of stress. Worst thing is that when I stress I get panicky and just end up causing myself more stress.
Topping things off it looks like July might not happen. Her roommate has pulled some serious bullshit and decided to move out next month, which leaves her stuck with very few options.
Fuck.
I just want something to work in my favour here.
So it looks like i'm going to be hosting the ever lovely SugarCunt for a little while when she comes up in July (as we're currently planning it)
I haven't booked the time yet but am going to get that done tomorrow. Should be sometime from the 4th to the 13th. I am so retardedly excited already. As much as I love going down to see her, I've wanted her to finally meet my friends and family for a while now. She's never been to Canada so i'm gonna make a date for us to hit Toronto together so I can do the tourist shit with her... then again I've never been to the CN Tower either so we'll get to do something together.
I haven't booked the time yet but am going to get that done tomorrow. Should be sometime from the 4th to the 13th. I am so retardedly excited already. As much as I love going down to see her, I've wanted her to finally meet my friends and family for a while now. She's never been to Canada so i'm gonna make a date for us to hit Toronto together so I can do the tourist shit with her... then again I've never been to the CN Tower either so we'll get to do something together.
Worst fucking day today.
To start things off I woke up late, found I had missed some texts from SugarCunt last night when we were talking and I apparently fell asleep like a fucking asshole, broke a glass, was late for work, forgot my wallet and thusly had no money for lunch and smashed my shin into a trailer hitch. Sprinkle some serious asshole customers in there too, and you can see how well things went.
On top of this, i've been having mega internet failure lately, wherein my desktop can't connect to our network. Never had any issues before and nothing changed but both mine and my moms desktops get booted off all the time. As such, i've been stuck with my latpop for internet purposes. It works but i'd rather be using my new computer instead of this one from 07.
I've called our service provider and they went through a bunch of remote testing and found our lines had an issue, they sent a tech out and he was useless. Didn't test the lines or try setting up the second modem he was intentionally sent with to see if that made a difference. Seriously came in, glanced at our modem and goes "well the light is on, so It's working" then checked our network and told us that we put in the wrong network info. That the password/name should be 26 characters long. Even though we were instructed to change it during setup.
Didn't want to hear about our problems, didn't want to hear what the phone support dude said. He was a fat sack of shit. We got called back based on the negative feedback my dad left on the survey. The guy on the phone was again amazing and super helpful. This time they're going to send us a slightly better modem and call us back in a few days to see if it helped the problem out at all.
Otherwise i've been working like a madman and trying to figure out when I can book some more time to see Sugar. If things go well she might actually come up here next time, which is super exciting for me.
Also her birthday is coming up and I really want it to be awesome for her. If you have any ideas on what I can do from a distance, send me a message! I like getting ideas!
To start things off I woke up late, found I had missed some texts from SugarCunt last night when we were talking and I apparently fell asleep like a fucking asshole, broke a glass, was late for work, forgot my wallet and thusly had no money for lunch and smashed my shin into a trailer hitch. Sprinkle some serious asshole customers in there too, and you can see how well things went.
On top of this, i've been having mega internet failure lately, wherein my desktop can't connect to our network. Never had any issues before and nothing changed but both mine and my moms desktops get booted off all the time. As such, i've been stuck with my latpop for internet purposes. It works but i'd rather be using my new computer instead of this one from 07.
I've called our service provider and they went through a bunch of remote testing and found our lines had an issue, they sent a tech out and he was useless. Didn't test the lines or try setting up the second modem he was intentionally sent with to see if that made a difference. Seriously came in, glanced at our modem and goes "well the light is on, so It's working" then checked our network and told us that we put in the wrong network info. That the password/name should be 26 characters long. Even though we were instructed to change it during setup.
Didn't want to hear about our problems, didn't want to hear what the phone support dude said. He was a fat sack of shit. We got called back based on the negative feedback my dad left on the survey. The guy on the phone was again amazing and super helpful. This time they're going to send us a slightly better modem and call us back in a few days to see if it helped the problem out at all.
Otherwise i've been working like a madman and trying to figure out when I can book some more time to see Sugar. If things go well she might actually come up here next time, which is super exciting for me.
Also her birthday is coming up and I really want it to be awesome for her. If you have any ideas on what I can do from a distance, send me a message! I like getting ideas!
Welp, that part about how I was gonna make sure this was the best visit ever? Yeah, that was a big failure on my part. I have no idea what the fuck my problem was, but I was being a pest and ended up putting myself in the doghouse pretty consistently. I did dumb annoying shit without thinking and only realised my mistakes with hindsight. I have regrets, and I have some hurt feelings that I have to mend.
Despite all that happened however, I still enjoyed my time with her. Having her close is something I can never get tired of. Distance is a hard thing to cope with and it makes things even harder when something happens and I can't be there when i'm needed. The night her grandfather passed away was one of the hardest nights with distance. I was, however, able to be by her side for the funeral. I was glad to at least be able to do that.
After having been with her during my worst, I can only make improvements from here.
During our time together we went to Disney and had a great time, she was super excited to have a picture with Captain Hook. We also made the drive back up to NorCal for the easter weekend with her Mom.
Right now we're starting to decide on the next visit, and discussing the poissibility of having her come up here for a visit which would be super cool for me to finally be able to introduce her to my family and friends.
Pictures will follow soon.
tl;dr
Visit was rough cuz i'm an ass, but I still love being with her.
Despite all that happened however, I still enjoyed my time with her. Having her close is something I can never get tired of. Distance is a hard thing to cope with and it makes things even harder when something happens and I can't be there when i'm needed. The night her grandfather passed away was one of the hardest nights with distance. I was, however, able to be by her side for the funeral. I was glad to at least be able to do that.
After having been with her during my worst, I can only make improvements from here.
During our time together we went to Disney and had a great time, she was super excited to have a picture with Captain Hook. We also made the drive back up to NorCal for the easter weekend with her Mom.
Right now we're starting to decide on the next visit, and discussing the poissibility of having her come up here for a visit which would be super cool for me to finally be able to introduce her to my family and friends.
Pictures will follow soon.
tl;dr
Visit was rough cuz i'm an ass, but I still love being with her.
Okay so I guess it's time for a real update.
Yesterday was pretty significant for me because it marked the official 1 year milestone between myself and the ever beautiful SugarCunt. Of course I have a bad track record of doing things stupid and as such, the day wasn't as nice as it could have been.
On the other hand I get to see her again VERY soon. I leave on Tuesday to see her and get to spend 3 weeks with her. I plan to make this the best stay with her that we've had. I have some ideas in my head and I look forward to using them.
Truth be told, I am in love with her. I just need to find a way to really show her how much since I haven't really been able to do so.
I'm so excited that I feel sick.
Yesterday was pretty significant for me because it marked the official 1 year milestone between myself and the ever beautiful SugarCunt. Of course I have a bad track record of doing things stupid and as such, the day wasn't as nice as it could have been.
On the other hand I get to see her again VERY soon. I leave on Tuesday to see her and get to spend 3 weeks with her. I plan to make this the best stay with her that we've had. I have some ideas in my head and I look forward to using them.
Truth be told, I am in love with her. I just need to find a way to really show her how much since I haven't really been able to do so.
I'm so excited that I feel sick.
One year ago I was rebuilding myself after ending an emotionally abusive relationship.
One year ago I found out that one of the most beautiful women i've ever known had been trying to get my attention, and my jaw hit the floor.
One year ago today I made the best decision I have ever made, and flew out to California to meet someone who would quickly become the love of my life.
March 10th 2011, My life changed for the better. By simply meeting her I had managed to find happiness.
I'm still counting down until I can finally be with her again.
Things are difficult right now for her and I feel like shit because I can't be there to help comfort her. All I want is to be able to stay with her. Always.
I can't stand being apart from her. The only time I feel complete is when she's with me and every time I have to come back to Canada it feels like i'm leaving a bigger and bigger part of myself behind.
I'm spending 3 weeks with her, and I can't wait. She means the world to me and I die every day that i'm not with her.
March 20th cannot come fast enough.
One year ago I found out that one of the most beautiful women i've ever known had been trying to get my attention, and my jaw hit the floor.
One year ago today I made the best decision I have ever made, and flew out to California to meet someone who would quickly become the love of my life.
March 10th 2011, My life changed for the better. By simply meeting her I had managed to find happiness.
I'm still counting down until I can finally be with her again.
Things are difficult right now for her and I feel like shit because I can't be there to help comfort her. All I want is to be able to stay with her. Always.
I can't stand being apart from her. The only time I feel complete is when she's with me and every time I have to come back to Canada it feels like i'm leaving a bigger and bigger part of myself behind.
I'm spending 3 weeks with her, and I can't wait. She means the world to me and I die every day that i'm not with her.
March 20th cannot come fast enough.
