Ahh, new month, new post. Doing the stuck in between life thing. Still trying to figure it all out. I am just so damn smitten for the guy I last talked about. We shall call him Q just to protect identity. lol! But I think I am crazy about Q!! Grrr. It drives me nuts but he makes me so giddy. and the sex is amazing hehe ... ugg, my life is crazy!

Have had a crazy past few months. Won a radio station contest to be a spokes model with 9 other girls. Its alll fun and stuff. The D.J. from the station wants me. So I acted on it. He is really cool and different. I like him a lot. Well i did stuff with him and his lady friend a few times. He is a real womanizer though, so i am nervous about that of course. and then there is my husband. i love him.
My life is so crazy I don't have a clue what to do anymore. I have changed and I want to change. I cannot be the same girl i used to be and i am recognizing this. I am scared to death!! I have few options. and I need my license to do anything at all. Im freakin out and am so lost!

OMG I can't believe I have been gone for so long... Well My husband and I have decided to sort of open our relationship a bit. We are both allowed to sleep with other women!!! I love him so much! It's all so funny actually... He really has come around to being supportive of my sexuality and inevitably his own. I have never been so happy!

I finally get to fuck a woman!
A woman gets to fuck me!
Total awesomeness peoples!!!

Now to just find a woman.... I have tried the Craig's List thing and it has proven me apparently very stupid. I found out I have been duped 3 times in 3 yrs by someone claiming to be named Linda... Linda is prob. some 54 yr old dude in Boise, Idaho jacking off to my nudes as we speak... ewe.... SO MAD!

Well, now I don't know If I should trust anyone anymore... Life is crazy... I really like women with little boobs... who are spunky and cute like Alice on The L Word.... you could be a Shane too, but not too butch...
I like me a femme!!
Anyway, So in love with my life right now...

Bye my beautiful, sexy, friends!

Hey all its a new day and a start to a new me. I am trying to be more responsible for myself. I need to save money and start taking care of myself better.

Well, Happy Independence Day Everyone!

So I have made the decision NOT to become an SG. I do not want to be under contract with anyone. I want to be able to be free to do my own projects. I still love the site and all of my friends here but I am gonna do this for me. I also don't want to even try to compete with like 15000 other girls. I am sure there is someone who wants this more than I do and will cherish it.

I just don't think as SG's that I am very accepted by you either. I feel that if I were to become an SG that I would just be one of 1000, lost in the sea of very sexy girls. I have always been an outsider here since my return and that has disappointed me tremendously. And getting banned from the Bisexual Women group for absolutely no reason REALLY HURT too.
No pity for me please because life goes on.
I am happy and have some fun stuff hopefully coming up in the future. I just need to grow.

No strings attached!
Love yall

Woo, Hello ladies and Gents, and Everyone in between. I am in such a crazy mood as I write this. A good mood if U must know! I have been doing some soul searching and trying to decide what to do with my life career wise. I think I might become a nurse. I am not fully sure though, as I don't like the idea of having to stick needles in people. I love all the science stuff though and I think i might be alright at it. Who knows, right. I just have to get past not liking people.

In other news, I have other wacky things going on in the depths of my brain that are too big to mention in the here and now because its all new to me. No I am not losing it, though it feels like I might. The consequences of the sitch. are rather dicey. I am working toward my own independence as a person . I guess marriage has brought that out in me. I want my license. I want to catch my bills up and start being more of an adult. I am settling into my sexuality more.

I am becoming who I am supposed to be.

Now lets see if I make it out of this alive....

Until next time... Love ya bunches.

Hello all its been too long. Trying to get pics on of my hair, but apparently, they r too big.. Things are alright. Anyway... So how is life guys? Anybody do anything interesting lately?

I am sporting the blond/ pink look on my hair for now. I actually kinda like it. I am gonna go hit my new punching bag today out in the garage. Then maybe hit the treadmill for a bit. I got a new Kittie on Thursday. Her name is Pipsqueak. She is just so tiny and cute. She is also identical to my cat Bear that I already have. It would prob. b better if I actually had pic but I don't have a cam yet. They are both black with white on their chests. Black cats r the best!

Anyway... off to njoy the nice weather outside its actually 55 degrees out!

Love ya'll!

Holy crap it is raining bitches for me this month! 2010 Is FAN-Freakin-Tastic!!! WOOO HOO!


Got my money, pics coming sooon!!!! Hopefully with a new tat on my shoulder!