Aaaargh, where do I begin?! I had THE MOST redICULOUS week ever. My stepdad physically assaulted my mother and I, smashed my phone when I tried to call 911, I had the lowest paycheck ever to take off because of everything going on, and FUCKIN FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! Talk about traumatizing!!!!!!!! I need to get some of this aggression out, I want to have a new shoot, and I'm looking for a car, phew!!!!!!!!!!!!!This shit is CRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm starting to feel really down about the photographer situation. I hope something good is coming my way, cuz dammit ive been a good girl and karma needs to recognize that!!!!!

InkMasters was awesome!!!! We had a blast!! I convinced my girlfriend to get her first tattoo, and it turned out quite lovely. I saw my first suspension show, it was actually put on by my friend's company, and it was cool to see what they did. I saw a bunch of people I knew, and my friend's band did a terrific job. Then I was off to my favorite bar for another friend's birthday, then back home for my stepsister's!! Busy busy weekend, and so so much fun!! How was everyone else's?!? <3

INK MASTERS SATURDAY !!

My friend's band, From Guts to Glory,will be playing at 8pm, and I am pleased to say I will be attending!! Pre-game date with some girlfriends, some Rumple, and something green ;-D

Things I must accomplish by the next 2 years or less:
-Become a Suicide Girl
- Become Inked Suicide Girl of the Year
- Take a few classes in pastry design
- Get my promotion to baker, at all costs!!
- Purchase a car..I don't give a SHIT if it's a hoopty, I just need it to work, have air conditioning, and a cd player
- Conquer the world

This my 2nd time to fuck in a little over 8 months.. The last time was with my adorable hot friend (she's my love!) and her boyfriend, and we had a phenomenal time. They're both so sexy, it's so awesome playing with them. The thing is, if iI had a boyfriend would I be secure enough to do that..however you can tell they love each other so fucking much,and it makes me so that I refuse to date anyone that treats me improperly, it's one of the only healthy relationships I've witnessed. I think that deserves some thought. Okay, so this guy I boned tonoght, it's always so explosive and incredible when we fuck, in a good way. And he is such a nerd with glasses, but he works so his body is scrumptious, but I think he is soooo cute. Probably 3 years agoe I met him when he worked at my favorite bar, and he flirted with me!! Unfortunately, I wa freshly single, and young and dumb me told him I'd rather angirlfriend. Granted, I did just want to be with girls as friends with benefits, but I date men. I dont know what that makes me lol!! And we had such good times hanging out together, I really like him. I wish I had first met him at this age, so I could have another chance. We click so well sexually, too, and i never even fucked him until I turned down his offer , can I please have a do over? The purpose of this blog was intended to be about getting laid. Really well

PS: Does anyone in the Houston area know of a good photographer that wants to help me lose the hopeful and become SG? Because this guy is trying to charge me $200, and I can't afford that...not unless I became SG of the day!!

I don't belong ANYWHERE
I have NOBODY to hold me
Everything's so wrong
So now what the fuck do I do?

Will you please kill me quickly
SHOOT me in the face
because I'm so tired
of this heartBREAK



Not my best but deal with it

They refused my pleas to let me die
Six times Still i'm alive
My existence it was a mistake
i wasn't meant for this world

My insides rotten
i'm fading away
i wake up, disappointed i survived
i die slowly, in agony For the sake of life
Relief?
Only the Kiss of a Knife

Guys can suck my big fucking black cock!! Ill explain why l8er <3, Me