Yup... joined the military again.... mistake? Perhaps. I'm in Germany which is cool though.
Feeling kind of old lately.. not sure if I could hang with the young soldiers and don't have enough rank to hang with the ones my age. Ah well... too late know. Have to live with my decision.

God I need to update my photos... perhaps later.. after my "Old man nap".

I was on my way to work today and started thinking about how negative I always am. Everything I think about, everything I do seems to be negative. How does one pull themselves out of this? Is it "Normal"? I mean, I like a lot of things, I get excited and have fun etc.. but I'm just so negative about so much... It's really hard to explain.

If you read some of my previous entries from over the years, you can see what I mean.

It's so cold up here. I just want this winter to be over with. I want the snow to melt so I can bitch and complain about how hot it is.

Happy Spring!



At least I have this Sunshine! Alexis Guinevere.

Day one of not smoking:

I need everyone's support who reads this.. although, I think that only October reads this.

I'm quiting smoking today. I've only been out of bed for a little over an hour, so I'm not feeling anything yet.
I'm not taking any 'stop smoking aids'.. just quitting.
I have nicotine stains on my fingers, I get heartburn when I smoke, it now controls a lot of things that I do.
As of this writing, I weigh 127 lbs.

On Sunday, (my birthday) I jumped in the middle of my kids fighting and slammed my ribs into the table.
The doctor says they aren't broken, but I'm in SERIOUS pain!
It's really bad when I sneeze and sleeping isn't really fun either. So, they gave me a big bottle of motrin and said that's all they can do.

I really hate when I get off late on Fridays. I worked from 7am-6pm last night and it just ruined my Friday night. by the time I went home and had dinner, it was already 7:30 and my brain was mush by that point.

Will my car ever be finished?
I hate relying on people to take me to work, take me to lunch, take me to the store.. it sucks!

My car has over $3500 worth of damage so far. It's not going to be finished for over 3 weeks, his insurance won't pay for it. I have to pay the deductible out of my wallet, and they won't give me money for a rental car.

I'm still trying to figure out what I did wrong. I was in my house watching TV while someone elses car caught fire and fried mine... yet I have to pay?

It's Wednesday and I'm still recovering from the weekend... age sucks!

Anyways, I invited a friend of mine over to stay the night with me and the wife. We played a couple of board games, got to drinking and ended up playing strip poker. The wife won. We sat naked on the couch. Me inbetween two good looking girls. I was in heaven.

When talk came up about a threesome, the wife was interested in messing around with her, but said I couldn't do anything... WHAT? What's the deal with that?... well, nothing happened with anybody and I ended up going to bed horny as hell.. where did I go wrong?