I went to Corpus Christi Aug. 1st and had work done on a tattoo at Forever Art Tattoo. Larisa is a beautiful artist. While there I met a girl I was already familiar with, got to know her in more detail, fell in love and planned a life together. One night without sleep led to two. A case of Corona and nudity on a dirty beach seemed like the proper way to begin a life together. The next day reality set in and not a word has been spoken since.
I try to wash it away, but on my part everything said came from sincerity. She said too much, and now says nothing. In an attempt to not focus on it, I began to work none stop. 15 hours a day, I am currently on 35 days without a break. I sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, clean my filthy ass, and then go to sleep. I remember now why I quit drinking. Replacing one self abusive behaviorwith another is not making things better. I am loosing touch. Visions of things that aren't there appear by the end of each night, and recently I have discovered I can now taste colors. Odd part is, since I am color blind, they all taste the same.
I try to wash it away, but on my part everything said came from sincerity. She said too much, and now says nothing. In an attempt to not focus on it, I began to work none stop. 15 hours a day, I am currently on 35 days without a break. I sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, clean my filthy ass, and then go to sleep. I remember now why I quit drinking. Replacing one self abusive behaviorwith another is not making things better. I am loosing touch. Visions of things that aren't there appear by the end of each night, and recently I have discovered I can now taste colors. Odd part is, since I am color blind, they all taste the same.
This is an empty effort sign of change.
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I feel I may never see
A poem as lovely as
A Baby Jesus Butt Plug
--EDIT--
I feel I may never see
A poem as lovely as
A Baby Jesus Butt Plug
Johnny Mackey led a hard life, smoked too much, and had sex with animals. In 1977 we moved in next door to his one bedroom house. The ragged structure described as his home was torn down with little effort after his death. With its destruction, set free were the years of moral transgressions it contained.
I was five at the time. He entertained me by giving me the freedom to do as I pleased. With no rules I felt grown up. I entertained him by allowing him to take pictures of me naked, most often urinating in empty cans that once held house paint.
1977 was also the year Star Wars was released. I have no connection of the two, other than the memory of both, and the knowledge that they occurred during that year.
I have been arrested twice in my life. When being arrested, a great deal of depression often takes place. Afterwards I was pleased that despite my unhappy state of mind, I managed to smile for my mug shots.
When I was five I had no idea what was happening. All I knew was someone was taking my picture. I can only assume I smiled during those photos also.
I was five at the time. He entertained me by giving me the freedom to do as I pleased. With no rules I felt grown up. I entertained him by allowing him to take pictures of me naked, most often urinating in empty cans that once held house paint.
1977 was also the year Star Wars was released. I have no connection of the two, other than the memory of both, and the knowledge that they occurred during that year.
I have been arrested twice in my life. When being arrested, a great deal of depression often takes place. Afterwards I was pleased that despite my unhappy state of mind, I managed to smile for my mug shots.
When I was five I had no idea what was happening. All I knew was someone was taking my picture. I can only assume I smiled during those photos also.
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