another year where im not invited to the bfs family christmas. they did make another night to have the girlfriends or other family members over, but after 5 years, i cant attend the one at the cottage?
SUCCESS! i am now in possession of a new imac! gratos from my moms workplace. thank you!
christmas gift making is now in full swing. i have to make 4 scarves, a quilt, and try and finish that damn baby link costume. that thing is freaking impossible.
on a side note, i was supposed to make a friend a biggie related cross stitch, and well we had a huge falling out. im definitely in no way stoked. and in fact im pretty bummed. but i just couldnt handle it. im pretty sad. i know i already said that but i cant put enough emphasis on it. i just felt like she was always criticizing me or my way of trying to be supportive, or whatever. i told her something she did hurt my feelings and then felt it necessary to clear the air and basically tell me im not allowed to tell my friend of 8 years something she did to us both. i find her very immature for it. and i wouldnt resent her even if she had done something similar to me. but shes the type to like to keep things private apparently. which includes not really telling even me what the fuck is going on... but i dont know. i know she was going through hard times, and i tried so hard i felt to be there, be nice, be supportive, help, listen, talk, distract. but she just kept pushing me. i dont like being pushed. i dont think anyone does. and i dont think she would like what she did. i wasnt perfect, and i admitted mistakes, apologized, and tried to change the way i did things to make her happy. it apparently was enough. everything i did i did wrong, everything i said was judgement, or psychoanalysis, or unfair, or thoughtless. she even tried to make a scene in a grocery store, and when i said forget it, i was accused of being passive aggressive. i dont know. i was tired of being called out for things. she was the only person i had these types of issues with. t cap it all, i told my boyfriend i snapped when she "needed to clear the air" and he basically said she probably deserved it. i still feel wretched. i dont like being cruel or harsh... i dont like losing people either. i want so badly to reconcile but i feel as though that given how many times weve lashed out recently, its hopeless. i think we do love each other, but i dont think it can work. i dont know. no matter how imperfect or flawed you are, i feel like a real friend wouldnt put you down for mistakes. i was never unintentionally cruel and i told her that. that everytime i tried, i was trying to help... but shes insanely sensitive. i dont know. i want to blame myself, but im good at feeling guilty.
christmas gift making is now in full swing. i have to make 4 scarves, a quilt, and try and finish that damn baby link costume. that thing is freaking impossible.
on a side note, i was supposed to make a friend a biggie related cross stitch, and well we had a huge falling out. im definitely in no way stoked. and in fact im pretty bummed. but i just couldnt handle it. im pretty sad. i know i already said that but i cant put enough emphasis on it. i just felt like she was always criticizing me or my way of trying to be supportive, or whatever. i told her something she did hurt my feelings and then felt it necessary to clear the air and basically tell me im not allowed to tell my friend of 8 years something she did to us both. i find her very immature for it. and i wouldnt resent her even if she had done something similar to me. but shes the type to like to keep things private apparently. which includes not really telling even me what the fuck is going on... but i dont know. i know she was going through hard times, and i tried so hard i felt to be there, be nice, be supportive, help, listen, talk, distract. but she just kept pushing me. i dont like being pushed. i dont think anyone does. and i dont think she would like what she did. i wasnt perfect, and i admitted mistakes, apologized, and tried to change the way i did things to make her happy. it apparently was enough. everything i did i did wrong, everything i said was judgement, or psychoanalysis, or unfair, or thoughtless. she even tried to make a scene in a grocery store, and when i said forget it, i was accused of being passive aggressive. i dont know. i was tired of being called out for things. she was the only person i had these types of issues with. t cap it all, i told my boyfriend i snapped when she "needed to clear the air" and he basically said she probably deserved it. i still feel wretched. i dont like being cruel or harsh... i dont like losing people either. i want so badly to reconcile but i feel as though that given how many times weve lashed out recently, its hopeless. i think we do love each other, but i dont think it can work. i dont know. no matter how imperfect or flawed you are, i feel like a real friend wouldnt put you down for mistakes. i was never unintentionally cruel and i told her that. that everytime i tried, i was trying to help... but shes insanely sensitive. i dont know. i want to blame myself, but im good at feeling guilty.
Black Friday weekend sale in my etsy shop! 25% off all items! until sunday evening! go get something cozy!
use code :BLKDAY
jalouseclothing
use code :BLKDAY
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Miracles happen when the hoodie you've been lusting for that you can't find anywhere that you would pay full price for ends up in your store, only one, in your size, for 30$ on a day that didnt quite start out so well.
here we go! this is what i spent my evening doing last night. the thigh was particularly tender! i conked out last night as soon as i got into bed too.
here's an idea of what's to come.
here's a silly purchase i made
here's an idea of what's to come.
here's a silly purchase i made
I'm gonna be broke tomorrow and there will be pictures to prove why coming up soon enough 
I made pumpkin bread, some with chocolate chip and some without. The bread without is much more delicious. None the less, I'm giving some away! I accidentally made enough for three loaves!
so so amount of stuff going on. today was relatively productive for once as a day off. i managed to post up a lot of goodies onto my etsy which are now up for sale.
the leggings and cowl being personal favs. wishing i had extra fabric for myself.
so good news, i managed to find all my pics from cali and etc on itunes. as well as my music, so im pretty much happy about that. bad news is, my newer photos have been erased. id like to have time to find those, but i suspect since i had many issues initially plugging it in and something to do with a pairing record missing, i probably wont get those back. and im pretty upset i lost a lot of good pics from a trip up north shooting, and other things.
foster kitten is doing great. hes still got gunky eyes but hes big and strong, loves to frolick and etc. normal kitten stuff.
my best friend is coming to town this weekend, sadly i only get to see her today for a metro ride. boring. i wish she could take time to spend with me instead of rushing to her family, but i suppose i havent made much effort to see her either, however, my schedule is a little more demanding since i cant take every weekend off to do things, and im never just in her city visiting people. oh well.
my boyfriend is off to gunter to hunt. :/ still on the fence about all that. whatever, he does his lumberjack shit. i just want him to come home so we can cuddle. seems like hes never around... though he was for about two weeks. its still tough. he basically missed our anniversary month, and then we missed the lanterns exhibit at the botanical gardens because of hurricane sandy skankface. well, at least i got laid, watched the walking dead, and frankenweenie. lets throw in popcorn for good measure.
fingers crossed that im getting my owl tat next week. fuck everything else, seriously. im due.
our ginger cat has diabetes, and hes been at the vets for two days now running tests because we cant manage to get his blood levels lower than 20. seems hes becoming intolerant or something to the insulin. the vets are concerned. within good reason of course. i hope this doesnt have a sad ending. hes coming home tonight and they final got a urine sample from him.
i went to the orage sample sale, wanted everything of course. picked up a lole dress, some scarves for skiing, and a new tuque.
baby link costume still in the making. wishing i had thought about sewing instead of knitting it. it"s driving me nuts, and i hate the pattern. it seems complicated for zero reason. i almost want to make a baby pyjama because i feel like it would be more useful. im just concerned as to where i can find the proper fabric.
one thing i really love about where i work is how amazing the sky always looks. were fortunate not to be surrounded by massive buildings.
so that's what was on my newer pics that went awol. thanks iphone.
ok i think i need a fucking shower.
the leggings and cowl being personal favs. wishing i had extra fabric for myself.
so good news, i managed to find all my pics from cali and etc on itunes. as well as my music, so im pretty much happy about that. bad news is, my newer photos have been erased. id like to have time to find those, but i suspect since i had many issues initially plugging it in and something to do with a pairing record missing, i probably wont get those back. and im pretty upset i lost a lot of good pics from a trip up north shooting, and other things.
foster kitten is doing great. hes still got gunky eyes but hes big and strong, loves to frolick and etc. normal kitten stuff.
my best friend is coming to town this weekend, sadly i only get to see her today for a metro ride. boring. i wish she could take time to spend with me instead of rushing to her family, but i suppose i havent made much effort to see her either, however, my schedule is a little more demanding since i cant take every weekend off to do things, and im never just in her city visiting people. oh well.
my boyfriend is off to gunter to hunt. :/ still on the fence about all that. whatever, he does his lumberjack shit. i just want him to come home so we can cuddle. seems like hes never around... though he was for about two weeks. its still tough. he basically missed our anniversary month, and then we missed the lanterns exhibit at the botanical gardens because of hurricane sandy skankface. well, at least i got laid, watched the walking dead, and frankenweenie. lets throw in popcorn for good measure.
fingers crossed that im getting my owl tat next week. fuck everything else, seriously. im due.
our ginger cat has diabetes, and hes been at the vets for two days now running tests because we cant manage to get his blood levels lower than 20. seems hes becoming intolerant or something to the insulin. the vets are concerned. within good reason of course. i hope this doesnt have a sad ending. hes coming home tonight and they final got a urine sample from him.
i went to the orage sample sale, wanted everything of course. picked up a lole dress, some scarves for skiing, and a new tuque.
baby link costume still in the making. wishing i had thought about sewing instead of knitting it. it"s driving me nuts, and i hate the pattern. it seems complicated for zero reason. i almost want to make a baby pyjama because i feel like it would be more useful. im just concerned as to where i can find the proper fabric.
one thing i really love about where i work is how amazing the sky always looks. were fortunate not to be surrounded by massive buildings.
so that's what was on my newer pics that went awol. thanks iphone.
ok i think i need a fucking shower.
