aaand cue my urge to bake!

xmas dinner round 2 this evening. last night was at the bfs, and tonight at my moms. not sure if im seeing my dad? anywho. last night was meh. i was pretty not in the mood, and given recent events i'm not particularly festive lately. pretty sad.

positively, ive been skiing. and collecting fun items.

like this. 5$ at work.

xmas drums

skis

snow


this hilarious thing is a circle bed with faux fur and speakers...

what happens when it snows and their zombies?

gluh, zombie snowflakes!


so im a genius. hahaha and i was at work today and we were discussing the zombie snowflakes and shit because we put up a tree and decorated it with accessories, and then i made this. there's already a template that exists, but i decided to freehand it since the preexisting one seems hard to cut out.

im reknitting the burgundy scarf again. one disaster after another. sigh. whatever i hope it looks good and i dont run out of yarn..........


edit... i ran out of yarn. i want to rip out my hair. i want to be done with this shit and stop making mistakes. raaaah

camembert is life. it's even better in a turkey sammich with spinach and dijon. knitting up a storm, finished the grey scarf, two lace scarves sewn, and then i have to knit two more, both of which i had to restart.

also this is funny.

bleh.

waaaaaaahhhhhhh! it's gonna be a long day! i think i totally have a hang over, and i told my bf! i can't stay out late, i gotta work a full day and if we went out with those friends, i'm gonna be naughty! bluuuggghhhhh lol.

wahhhh bed! it looks all cozy like it's waiting for me! bahaha. i totally forgot i stashed my bfs xmas gift under my pillow, so it was pretty funny when i woke up and found it. hope i didn't damage it!

my store is having a huge 50% off everything all weekend sale. our prices are already pretty low, for example, nifty obey sweater; 10$. that's 90% savings. sometimes i love my job.



silly obey. putting silly things on their things.


zzzzzzzzzzzz someone come make me a smoothie.

so i've been away, partly out of town, partly away from life. i've had a few rough days lately, because, well the 3 month old kitten we had rescued and been fostering has passed away. she was due to move to her new home on friday, and was to be operated the afternoon before heading to her new forever home. sadly she had an allergic reaction to ketamine, began vomiting, where then the liquids ended up in her lungs. she was having much difficulty breathing, and my mom said she spent several hours holding the poor thing in her arms, before she had to go home and decide to end her life. the past few days have been emotional, and it's been a bit confusing. i've lost many pets in my life, having always had some, but never has any animal had such an impact on me. i feel so sad, so angry, so devastated. she was like my little baby, someone i fed every day since she was too feeble to even support herself. she was intelligent, and loving. seeing her pictures in my phone, or on instagram, or anywhere is really hard. i held her friday morning, rubbed her belly and told her i wish she didn't have to leave, and told myself everything would be fine because she was supposed to come back for some cat sitting at the end of december while her new family was on a trip. i never expected this, and the event is such a flurry of emotions. i can't tell if i should be pissed at my vet for never testing her. i can't tell if i wasted my time, or if i should'nt have let her go. there;s absolutely, on top of it, nothing anyone can say to console me. i've experienced death in my immediately family, and i'm well aware of how out of my control life events are. it still doesn't change the fact that i spent three months, nursing a baby to health with my mom, for nothing. of course i wish things were different. and i feel absolutely terrible for her new family who was so so so very excited to get her, who had bought her toys, and things. it's so tragic. and feeling this way makes me feel like such an anomaly. like it's stupid to be so sad about a kitty. but i don't want people to think that. and maybe i'm overreacting. pets are pets, and people who love their pets know what it's about. i've fostered many animals, but i never ever expected this. i still don't believe this. and i almost wonder if the emotions are just the surmounting stress i've been under these past months just exploding over the levy.

positively...my thursday began my ski season, and sunday followed suit. i spent saturday, sunday, and monday up north at my bf's cottage. sat night with his family, sunday to ourselves. the weather was perfect sunday.














too bad it rained all day. i'm sure it's not quite as beautiful up there now.

damn! one of my favorite brands it shutting down. they were a small west coast run clothing company that made ski/snowboard films. their clothing was always solid. design wise and quality alike. i still have a hoodie from 4 years ago that's in moderately amazing shape. they were stupid comfy, and soft, and cute. and im super super bummed to see it come to an end. i hate when small businesses don't flourish, and so many brands exist that suck major balls.

check em out and pick up something nice before it's all gone. i'd be too stoked on this hoodie, not that i need another one.


voleurz

check out the vid too.

but skiing tomorrow.

also, herringbone stitch;

finished finally my friends humping deer hat. good riddance. i made the stupid error of wanting to unstitch it from the bottom because i had made it too long. that turned into a disaster, and i had to end up sewing up the end because i couldnt manage to do things properly. whatever. it's done and i'll shave some fee off the price.





clearly also tinkering with my new computers camera. i dont know why its so blurry but whatever. nor how to turn off the flash. smeh.

so i began the burgundy herringbone scarf for my friend. its much tougher than it should be, i think my issues are primarly tension. as well, ive put down the grey scarf i was making for her as well. i think i want to burn it. i managed to mess up the pattern. its not noticable at all, but i just keep confusing myself so ill try to accomplish something else. i sincerely hope i manage to finish at least one this week. this herringbone one is making me nervous. i was happy it was larger gauge needles, which generally means less time to create, but it may not be the case.

anyhow. lucky everyone who has the blessing of mumford and sons touring in their city.

pardon me for complaining a lot. hahah... but im tired of getting phone calls about things that happened a month ago.

i guess i have to go hunting for things, even though im really broke! yay christmas. but i have to make three scarves for a friend for her xmas gifts, so the faster i knit, the more money i have. problem is i ran out of a color so today im going to have to go find more. i generally bought at zellers because they had a nice selection, but theyre all closing, so most of the yarn sections are pretty empty. hopefully i can find what i need today and finish the scarf today. times pressing as well. i want to finish them well before xmas. not to mention that i still need to get on that baby link costume. its just driving me a little crazy since the pattern seems more complicated than it needs to be.

i have to find my bf a bday present. its next week, and i totally made a mess of my finances recently so i failed completely at actually getting him what i wanted. hopefully i just learn from it all and gain the skills appropriate to become a master at saving and buying in advance! i wanted to get him a funny shirt from old navy. i never generally shop there so i missed it, and i dont work in a mall or downtown so i never go into many stores other than my own lately...which is probably a good thing considering malls can be dangerous for me. anyways, the shirt is hilarious, and i saw it because my boss actually wore it to work! and everyone loved it. now the bf is kind of country, so deers and log cabins and such on a shirt is appropriate.


i originally wanted to get him a bangin knife because he wants one, and get it engraved but i dont have money for that. and i figured i could go low on his present since i planned to get him something big for xmas.

also, this is now in my possession, and i have no idea how im going to get by not wearing it everyday through winter


to add to my productivity for this afternoon, i learned how to knit a herringbone stitch, it's lovely. i'll post pics when i get started. also, i cooked quite a bit! i made turkey meatball soup with veggies and quinao, and pumpkin, cranberry, chocolate chip muffins.




im debating making the shirt finally for my bf. ill have to fabric hunt