So yeah I realised that I had creepy fanatism hysterics very often. I mean it's quite crazy.
The most ridiculous phase I went by when I was younger was when I was reading Dance written by Anne-Marie Pol. I went totally crazy about classical dance and wanted to become a prima ballerina. It went on for something like a year…
The craziest and the longest one has been about Harry Potter, and it's not totally finished. When I was 12 I thought Hogwarts had forgotten to send me a letter… I did so many things about HP, I joined so many websites and role-play forums…
Later I realized that I was a total Slytherin. So my mother knitted a slithering kit with a scarf, mittens and leggings.
Lately, my boyfriend offered me a genuine wand sculpted especially for me with the appropriate size etc. It is soooo beautiful, and with that there was a letter from Hogwarts, and papers with all the charms from HP listed.
The most oversized but most realistic one: I was obsessed about mangas. I wanted so much to become a mangaka. Actually I had been learning japanese for three years when I read my first manga, and eventually I've studied japanese for 7 years. I enquired about mangaka schools, I drew very much to become better and be accepted in the european manga school, I practiced my japanese, and even won a world contest: 40 young people (16-20) were chosen all around the world to go a Japan for three weeks, all expenses paid…That trip was awesomely AWESOME!! I learned so many things, met so many people… And I was still on my mangaka plan until beginning 2010. But then I realized with art preschool that I could find my own style and make it grown on the world! xD Haha
The one that looks the most like me:
The Mord-Siths, from Terry Goodkind's book "Legend of the Seeker".
I've LOVED these characters. Especially Berdine and Raina who were lesbian Mord'Sith.
Mord-Sith are the Lord Rahl's personal body guards. Captured as young girls, they are trained using the most brutal methods. Taught to show no mercy, no pity, no hesitation, Mord-Sith are renowned throughout the three territories and beyond.
-The First Breaking : The child is first tortured until her spirit breaks. Tortured to the point of obedience so strong that she will obey any order her master/mistress gives without question or hesitation. This part of the training is designed to strip her of her sense of self and her personal desires. -The Second Breaking : During the second phase of her training, the child is forced to watch as her teacher slowly tortures her mother to death. This part of the training is designed to strip her of her compassion. -The Third Breaking : During the final, and arguably most difficult, phase of her training, the child is given the weapon that was used on her and her mother, the Agiel, and is forced to slowly torture her own father to death. This part of the training is designed to strip her of her fear of hurting another, to make her enjoy giving pain. Once her training is completed, the new Mord-Sith is taken before Lord Rahl and he instills in her the most powerful ability she has, the power to capture and control any magic that is used against her.
- Her weapon: the Agiel: a red leather rod only about a foot long and roughly an inch in diameter, the Agiel looks harmless enough. But it's appearance is quite deceptive. When placed against the skin, the Agiel will raise blisters and causes excruciating pain. Pressed a bit harder and it will draw blood. A bit harder and the Agiel will break bones. While it's main purpose is simply to bring pain, the Agiel can be used to kill. If the Agiel is placed over the heart and twisted it will cause instant death to the Mord-Sith's victim. The Agiel doesn't only bring pain to the Mord-Sith's victims. It also hurts the Mord-Sith who wields it. Once someone is trained with an Agiel they can never again touch it without feeling it's sting. Since Mord-Sith often carry the same Agiel used to train them, they can never touch it without feeling it's effects.
Mord-Siths almost always wear skin tight leather that covers them from neck to toe. The leather they wear has three different colors, each one meaning something different.
I WOULD'VE LOVED to have their costume D=
Now other stuffs I've been fanatic about:
Ayesha, the legend of the Cyan People: OMG. This is still the BEST BOOK EVER. It's written by ANGE. The characters, the story, the psychologic dimension, and the sentimental dimension, how horror feels so real and so beautiful though, how the whole thing portrays a world so similar to ours making us compare many things and realize horrible and awesome stuffs about life, friendship, love… Arekh's my favorite character EVER.
Muse: When I went to see Muse Resistance Tour last year, in Paris Arena, I went totally mad about them especially about Matthew Bellamy. I was ALWAYS talking about them, putting up a MUSE ban on my Facebook wall etc. I still love them of course but I've slowed down on that. I think I'm going to fall back in that hysteric when I see their coming DVD. O_O'
The Runaways: When I saw the movie directed by Floria Sigismondi, I was overexcited. I had never heard about the Runaways, and only knew Joan Jett for "I love rock n' roll" and "Bad Reputation" but I didn't even know her face or anything else. So I started hating my parents for having not made me listen to them and talked to me about them. I've become a BIG fan of Floria Sigismondi, of Joan Jett and of Kristen Stewart of course who portrays her character so perfectly.
And now the Suicidegirls:It's my very recent fanatic hysteric and it could be just a phase, except if I keep it going.
I don't know if you feel the same about it but I happen to feel really bad when I see myself not very well dressed/ with untidied hair and no make up in a mirror. I mean, it really makes me feel sick... Am I the only one?
So when that happens I usually take some time to prepare myself, and then take pictures of myself. ^^ So I've just posted a "just for fun" album of me getting naked. ^^
Anyway. I'm trying to work but I just CAN'T. I'm so distracted... I can't stop thinking about the photoshoot I'll be doing next week (normally), I'm soooo agog to do it.
It's only my second day on SG.com and I've already 30 friends!! I'm so happy that so many of you have already added me as a friend or accepted my friend request! I can't wait to know more about you all!!!
Hey, did you know that when japanese people see weird-clothed girls who speak japanese they can't help but take pictures of them ? Yeah that happened to me a few days ago, when I was dressed up like that:
I was writing some nice japanese message on a nihon flag in a festival =D
The japanese chick: "Kyaaaah ! you write japanese ! So you speak japanese don't you? Sugoooooi !! Your clothes look like you've bought them in Harajuku ! Really! It's so kawaiii!"
Me: ". . .They ARE from Harajuku. . ."
The japanese chick: "Ah? Hontou?? Sou, sou desu ne! Can we take a picture of you? "
Yeah… =D I love japanese people. And speaking japanese. I lost it a little though. e_eAnyway, what haven't I told you about…?
My Tastes:
Things I like: art stuffs, drawing, painting, animation, watching movies, writing stories, sexy beautiful girls and sometimes sexy beautiful guys, eating chocolate, listening to music, playing music (I play flute and I used to sing in a band but we split up, too bad!!!), learning many different languages, drinking absinth and talking with funny and interesting people, having parties, my friends from my class, japanese culture, watching anime series (Samurai Champloo! Death Note! Ouran High School Host Club!!!..They're my favorites), reading interesting novels, generous and altruist people, piercing and tattoos, having a messed up life…
People I love: David Fincher, Joan Jett, Christopher Nolan, Richard Williams, Baz Luhrmann, Stanley Kubrick, Ronny Yu, Terry Gilliam, Heath Ledger, Allen Coulter, Floria Sigismondi, Robert Pattinson, Glen Keane, Kristen Stewart, Nicole Kidman, Brad Pitt, Darren Aronofsky, Hayao Miyazaki, Zhang Ziyi, Michel Arias, Philippe Leclerc (my animation teacher (who's also directed the movies The Rain Children and Princess of the Sun)), Carter Burwell, Cecile Corbel, Leonid Afremov, Ulorin Vex, The Wriggles, Les Fatals Picards.
Things I hate: my worst enemy: Autodesk Maya program!!! (that f*cking program hates me too I think…. T_T') , racists, homophobes, stupid people (etc ya know), sheeps, hangovers, close-minded people, stupid religious interdictions, tomatoes, milk, rammstein's singer, clinging and oafish people, people who're obsessed with money, spoiled children, routine, scums and superficial bimbos….
People I hate: Eric Zemmour, Nicolas Sarkozy, Marine Lepen, G.W. Bush, Paris Hilton, my 3D modeling teacher, most clerical people….
My plans:
I want this tattoo (on my back!!!):
I want to become a movie director, and be able to hire hot girls and guys like them you know:
Eva Green
Kristen Stewart
Nicole Kidman
Rachel Hurd-Wood
Tom Felton
(they're my current crushes ><' )
I want my own cinema studio!!
I want to become an SG!!!!!
(Now you can see what I've been doing in semiology classes this morning, haha)
A few triptych-pics of me that I've posted on my "alter deviantart":
Well I just didn't have enough money before but I just got some and managed to update my account!! I'm so happy. So well introductions. Well I'm Xiyan, new member of the website, even if I've been surfing on SG for about a month now.
Where I'm from? I'm French, and I'm an art student in Toulouse (To looooose!) ! I saw that there were something like 37 SGs in France, and I got all excited about it! I would so love to meet you girls! ^^
Actually I've only been living in France for nearly two years now. Before that I'd been living all my life in New Caledonia. . . Like THIS ya know:
I miss it SO MUCH!!! But yeah, there aren't any art school in NC. I was quite excited about living in France because yeah, living in the same soooo very small island for 18years is really enough and I wanted to see other stuffs, live differently. . .But now I can't wait to go back for the summer holidays. . .
Ehm, what I do in everyday life? Well I learn how to make the movies that most of you love to go and watch in cinema ! I'm learning 3D and animation! But actually I prefer 2D animation, which I'd love to be able to do next year, if I'm accepted in THAT school, (it's called the Gobelins)
You guys can have a look at my deviantart gallery here. =D
Three months ago there was some guy on deviantart who asked me to make a collaboration with him. I had to send him a nude photo so that he could repaint me on photoshop:
Quite great isn't it?
And well for him I had shot a few different pics of me to send him. Finally when I decided to try and be part of the SGs I created a new gallery on deviantart in which I posted those photographs:
How did I know the SG? Well the story's kinda fun. . . The guy I've been flirting with for about 6months now sent me the link to make me go horny ('cause I love hot girls ya know…) and when I surfed on the site I just realized it was so artistic and so close to my way of thinking that I told him "I'm gonna become one." He was so surprised!
Actually people are often very surprised to see how decadent and depraved I can be… which seems very weird to me because I never tried to hide it or anything!
People are also surprised to know that I'm algerian, they're like "really? You don't look arabic at all" but yeah it's just because I don't dress up like a scum. -___-' Algerian gothpunks are quite rare. xD
Actually now I'm a bit stressed, I did everything I could to make it become true, and I have shootings planed, but I'm really not so sure of myself right now....
How I became what I am? (Ya know that completely out of mind and depraved chick I am.xD)
Well. . . I don't really know when I stopped being prudish, but I've always been a freak, the Highschool (year 6 to 9) I went to was like hell to me. I was listening to Linkin Park, Limp Bizkit and Sum 41 back then and people around me were just. . .so useless, lacked so much culture. Then when I graduated to "Lycee" (year 10 to 12) it all became better and better. I met friends with whom I could be myself, listened to My Chemical Romance, Tatu and Billy Talent, and discovered I so fucking liked girls (and boys)! xD My mum didn't quite accept it as easily.
I've been fascinated by erotic photography for about 5 years now. It was when I saw UlorinVex's gallery (who was Slide Suicide) that I started being interested. And now I'm in a fucking great school called ESMA (check the movies here, most movies don't have any talks in them so you don't have to be french to understand...^^), and I'm with awesome people who're totally open-minded, and I listen to Arctic Monkeys and K's Choice. =D And I've got my lip pierced two years ago and my nipple pierced two days ago. =3
Well yeah that was the first part of my introduction ^^' Hope to find cool people on the site. =)
<3 Xiyan
