hmmm well i finished the sweatshirt that was too small for me
on second count, i think perhaps i should have used black fabric...but since i used halloween i think i made it a little less...well sexy
a day and a half here left.
still not sure about that friend. but...fuck it.
i have many hours of dog cuddling left. well mainly the one i'm not allergic to.
i guess if we were on good terms said friend would want to hang out before. but i'm not leaving forever.
oh well.
on second count, i think perhaps i should have used black fabric...but since i used halloween i think i made it a little less...well sexy
a day and a half here left.
still not sure about that friend. but...fuck it.
i have many hours of dog cuddling left. well mainly the one i'm not allergic to.
i guess if we were on good terms said friend would want to hang out before. but i'm not leaving forever.
oh well.
hmm fatty. booze within the past few weeks plus pms.
perhaps i will edit and put up the yee going away (for a fucking month and a half) picks from friday.
i still want to get the steam vacuum fixed and now my a/c is busted. the fan is being all loud as fuck!
i'm trying to snap out of depression mode as that is not helping me sort through and pack.
i've got fuck for hours this week and it would seem a friend and i are not on the best of terms. whatever. maybe i will make some friends in texas that want to be friends with me not just on their terms, but on my too. Tee hee.
had it out in a semi-healthy yet text ridden way. i think everything has been laid out on the table but i am still going to be extra careful about what i talk to her about.
i really hope this texas "thing" works because i am not too convinced that i can do the whole long distance relationship thing.
he seemed far more romantic when we first were together. that's how it goes right? right? sure. love is my motivator, sadly it does not pay my bills though.
perhaps i will edit and put up the yee going away (for a fucking month and a half) picks from friday.
i still want to get the steam vacuum fixed and now my a/c is busted. the fan is being all loud as fuck!
i'm trying to snap out of depression mode as that is not helping me sort through and pack.
i've got fuck for hours this week and it would seem a friend and i are not on the best of terms. whatever. maybe i will make some friends in texas that want to be friends with me not just on their terms, but on my too. Tee hee.
had it out in a semi-healthy yet text ridden way. i think everything has been laid out on the table but i am still going to be extra careful about what i talk to her about.
i really hope this texas "thing" works because i am not too convinced that i can do the whole long distance relationship thing.
he seemed far more romantic when we first were together. that's how it goes right? right? sure. love is my motivator, sadly it does not pay my bills though.
looking forward to self appointed going away party
pleased that i got up a wee bit before eight in the am.
must stay productive.
i used the elliptical for a very brief amount of time yesterday and will do it again today
i just want to stay at a thinner weight than before i went away. i tried on a shirt that was a gift for me
well i tried it on a few months ago when he got it for me, shit, had to wedge it on me.
so i was going to give it to good will or sell it or something but i tried it on again and it fit
but i like to drink. but i try to eat healthy and definitely don't drink as often but when i do i can lose control so easily because i can just drink and drink and the little voice in my noodle that should tell me to stop seems to be a mute. And that is why i should not drink.
But Friday, with a group of my friends that will be coming out, i will drink. But i will try so hard not to go over board so i can remember my going away party. Hey Wuggly, you'd remember it better if you didn't drink at all. I can try.
How are you?
pleased that i got up a wee bit before eight in the am.
must stay productive.
i used the elliptical for a very brief amount of time yesterday and will do it again today
i just want to stay at a thinner weight than before i went away. i tried on a shirt that was a gift for me
well i tried it on a few months ago when he got it for me, shit, had to wedge it on me.
so i was going to give it to good will or sell it or something but i tried it on again and it fit
but i like to drink. but i try to eat healthy and definitely don't drink as often but when i do i can lose control so easily because i can just drink and drink and the little voice in my noodle that should tell me to stop seems to be a mute. And that is why i should not drink.
But Friday, with a group of my friends that will be coming out, i will drink. But i will try so hard not to go over board so i can remember my going away party. Hey Wuggly, you'd remember it better if you didn't drink at all. I can try.
How are you?
one more day till rehab.
so sleepy. so angry.
well not so angry. just want to cuddle the sam
after rehab i move to texas.
what is someone dies? i don't want my dogs or dad to perish.
sleepy and fat. definitely larger than the first time in rehab. no good.
got yelled at for buying cleaning product from door to door solicitor. i know my dad hates this place and has no desire to clean it, that means it is up to me.
i do not
no thank you. just want to make people happy. just want to not be such a fat fuck. and those are harsh words as i can be and have been worse. just in a stupid dumb mood. my bad.
hope you all are well.
so sleepy. so angry.
well not so angry. just want to cuddle the sam
after rehab i move to texas.
what is someone dies? i don't want my dogs or dad to perish.
sleepy and fat. definitely larger than the first time in rehab. no good.
got yelled at for buying cleaning product from door to door solicitor. i know my dad hates this place and has no desire to clean it, that means it is up to me.
i do not
no thank you. just want to make people happy. just want to not be such a fat fuck. and those are harsh words as i can be and have been worse. just in a stupid dumb mood. my bad.
hope you all are well.
