mother is kicking ass on weight watchers, i not so much. mainly with the drinking. i had drank a lot more since Kai peaced. just depressed and wanted to sleep, plus i eat more when i drink like an idiot. My mother showed me yesterday how to make mock potato salad with cauliflour and it is no points. i LOVE potato salad so this was a win for me.
what else. Sam is a lump. Pnut has a bladder infection and i've no motivation. i can't let that stop me. since i have started back to nights again i tend to sleep more of the day then i want to. i set my alarm but keep re-setting it for a later time. i should cook up some veggies for a snack at work.
basically if i could stay within my point limit and not drink i think i'd do well. i did lose four pounds..but yeah. nothing noticeable.
heaviest i've been in a while, and if i am to carry around said extra weight in texas i feel that my health will become shittier. Kai's bitching about how hot it is, and i am the one that is always warm so...SHIT.
what else. I have the tattoo itch. I went to watch the good, the bad, and the weird and the dvd snapped when i took it out of the case, I WAS LIVID. drunk and livid.
it's a blur...life. And i think about D also. Hmmm
and you? how are you?
what else. Sam is a lump. Pnut has a bladder infection and i've no motivation. i can't let that stop me. since i have started back to nights again i tend to sleep more of the day then i want to. i set my alarm but keep re-setting it for a later time. i should cook up some veggies for a snack at work.
basically if i could stay within my point limit and not drink i think i'd do well. i did lose four pounds..but yeah. nothing noticeable.
heaviest i've been in a while, and if i am to carry around said extra weight in texas i feel that my health will become shittier. Kai's bitching about how hot it is, and i am the one that is always warm so...SHIT.
what else. I have the tattoo itch. I went to watch the good, the bad, and the weird and the dvd snapped when i took it out of the case, I WAS LIVID. drunk and livid.
it's a blur...life. And i think about D also. Hmmm
and you? how are you?
he leaves for Texas next thursday. Not looking forward to that in the least. like totally fucking bummed. It's not permanent but really fucking bogus.
started weight watchers online with my mother. that's way nice. i suck at portions
i have seven points left for the day. if i can stop drinking better i know that will help
what else. just kinda depressed. nothings wrong though. life is ok...just no motivation.
i just want to drink. i want some wine. but...that's not within my range of points now is it? not it is not!
Kevin Hart is on Modern Family. That makes me smile. I just need to buck up.
Finish out rehab and then rot the rest of the summer at the jobby job and head to Texas to be with him.
started weight watchers online with my mother. that's way nice. i suck at portions
i have seven points left for the day. if i can stop drinking better i know that will help
what else. just kinda depressed. nothings wrong though. life is ok...just no motivation.
i just want to drink. i want some wine. but...that's not within my range of points now is it? not it is not!
Kevin Hart is on Modern Family. That makes me smile. I just need to buck up.
Finish out rehab and then rot the rest of the summer at the jobby job and head to Texas to be with him.
i wish i had a quicker way to upload pictures on this heck.
on here since '03 NO DICE.
whatever. it's fine
i was not meant to be naked on the interweb despite so many horrific tries. i appreciate that i finally got the point, though still, there is that stupid dumb ego in me that likes positive-reinforcement-lies
stupid dumb no self esteem. no one else's fault, media, a little, but my own fault for the win
on here since '03 NO DICE.
whatever. it's fine
i was not meant to be naked on the interweb despite so many horrific tries. i appreciate that i finally got the point, though still, there is that stupid dumb ego in me that likes positive-reinforcement-lies
stupid dumb no self esteem. no one else's fault, media, a little, but my own fault for the win
what i wore to Anime Boston. i want to drink right now. still. They say you have like a moment of craving booze for ten seconds. that's how long it lasts .or something
stay at dq
work till rehab
after rehab,
meet Kai in Texas. Grapevine? 20 minutes from Dallas i guess?
chill there for a few months.
Try to figure out my shit, then come back, with or without a Kai.
And i totally wish i could just drive out and visit Dinh for a couple days.
No idea when i'm going to see him. He always going to be one of my best friends.
I want him to be happy. I really don't want to go to Texas as i do not thrive in hot weather and sunshine.
Yikes. oh well. Must lose weight. and try to do it in a healthy manner...mostly
so sleepy
work till rehab
after rehab,
meet Kai in Texas. Grapevine? 20 minutes from Dallas i guess?
chill there for a few months.
Try to figure out my shit, then come back, with or without a Kai.
And i totally wish i could just drive out and visit Dinh for a couple days.
No idea when i'm going to see him. He always going to be one of my best friends.
I want him to be happy. I really don't want to go to Texas as i do not thrive in hot weather and sunshine.
Yikes. oh well. Must lose weight. and try to do it in a healthy manner...mostly
so sleepy
i may be relocating to somwhere in Texas with the fella for a few months
He has to be there for six months to train people and he wants me to come with... hmmmm
He has to be there for six months to train people and he wants me to come with... hmmmm
Last Thursday
Looking forward to Saturday, though i will be meeting the Mr's mother, but also some sort of craft convention in Boston. I feel like seven kinds of fat ass. Looking forward to some partner in crime time when my "p.i.c." and i start going for daily (i assume daily) walks in the mornings. I'm not sure that I'll lose weight but maybe...and i'll be healthy and we'll be sober and healthy together. Good wholesome bonding. Though drunken bonding is always fun with her as well.
Hmm what the shit was a i going to say. She and i after work Sunday are going to go out for Vietnayummies!
And you?
