and with eight days left, i get medically discharged, not kicked out
but i can't try to get back in for three months. i'm fucking bummed.
i'm not drinking over it, but i had eight fucking days left. why couldn't
they just leave me be. i would have been fine after i left there, but i
was told you gain like ten pounds there (meaning people going into
there usually haven't been eating due to their substance abuse)
i took it fucking personal, vowed not to gain weight, and ended up
nevermind. i was doing well with treatment but have issues to deal
with before i can go back. kinda wish i was dead.

but....death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
i wish i was still there right now, even though i was counting down
the days till i could come home.