Ok so my computer spontaneously rebooted and ate my last attempt at an update due to the heat. I was planning to share my revelations about myself I discovered when I started looking around through an online dating site. My computer however had other ideas. So instead I leave you with pictures of my orchids currently in bloom, and my new custom converse I just got cause they both make me happy.

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Hello again,

So time to be productive and document a chunk of my life again. I've decided that the most efficient way to stay in touch with people and keep up with my emails is to start making some real posts online here and then treating the posts to a chop shop mentality and part em out for various emails to family and friends, as the shit applies to them. Ever efficient and practical huh?

Well life recently has been pretty solid for me. The biggest thing going on in the last while is that I got my roof replaced on my house. Real sexy huh? But its been a biggie hanging over my head since I bought my house 3 years ago. I've been dreading having to deal with it and shell out the bucks I need to get it done proper since I bought the house, but I had bigger fish to fry initially with my windows, since of course my windows were still original windows from 1924 in 80% of my house, and of course the last couple windows around otherwise were still just single panes that worked about as good as my original ones. It was just too damned cold to leave em, but man that made me nervous about my roof, since I knew that needed replacing asap and I stretched it out as far as my original home inspector recommended. But I officially have a great 50 year, steel tile faux slate style roof now in slate gray. Its almost as green as I can get too. Even if the house gets torn down in 30 years or 80 years they'll still recycle the roof. Its not quite as good as aluminum roof would be, but aluminum would have been about 4 grand more (50%) and the coatings on the steel and aluminum are exactly the same, its just the aluminum tiles would have had a much better chance of making it 100 years than my steel ones. But now even if the house get sold in 20 years I wont have to give any allowances for the new buyers to get a new roof. I basically paid twice as much as I could hve for a cheap crappy roof for a roof that'll last 3-5 times as long, look better, be recyclable, and wont contribute to landfill from my old roof being scrapped. Damn good situation and well worth the extra inital costs. I got expensive taste, what can I say?

Otherwise I finally damn near got a date out of my co-worker after months of gentle picking at it and my infectious charm actually doing some mother fucking infecting! ( I'd like to be a little more direct, even as romantically retarded as I am but no being pushy with co workers that's just playing with fire too much ). So I've been asking her to come over and let me cook her dinner for awhile, and she's always basically blown me off, but we've been on good terms and still friendly, just nothing romantic I could bank on, and only a little flirty since I always have big brother watching me at work..... or potentially watching so gotta play extra nice. I've nudged and wanted to take her to my fave little italian place, or at least bring her over and let her try some of their l33t pizza, but denied. I've offered to make her my from scratch buffalo spaghetti with crusty toasted garlic bread..... I've nudged nudged for her to try my thick fluffy buttermilk pancakes made with riccotta cheese and covered with glazed apples and pears..... which got me 'ehhhh *shrug* I just like my pancakes plain'. I've brough her a slice of my chocolate orange cheesecake with glazed strawberries and gotten a 'yeah well it was alright.... but it didnt really need the orange'...... The orange was the POINT woman..... sheesh! nice rich chocolate start (80% pure cocoa content chocolate used) with the sweetness of the strawberries and then when you've about finished the bite you get this nice bright orange flavor for the finish. I mean c'mon! its one of my best dishes!...... So I went and busted out the big guns when I went down to Pike Place a couple weeks ago to go christmas shopping and bought some Truffle Oil! (Along with a couple pounds of really nice salmon I cooked for myself with a nice buttermilk sour cream roasted sosano peppers sauce). I lured her in with one of my most well rounded dishes, my buffalo (bison meat not hot wing spices) stroganoff with fresh mushrooms finished with truffle oil. BAM! Finally I get a positive response outta her and practically had things lined up for her to come over to make grub.... and its the holidays and her friend is about ready to go into labor and she's gotta be there to help her out.... for reasons I didnt go into cause I was both happy she finally started to cave and annoyed I was denied again! But the truffle oil was my turning point and now I just need to work up to doing another truffle dish and I'll be all set...... and yes I made my buffalo stroganoff anyways and it was my best batch ever. The great truffle fragrance got me slobbering mightily and the flavor wasnt real powerfull so I was a little worried with the red meat, but the truffle finish was nice and smooth and and clean earthy goodness. Truffles are kinda the clean mushroom intensified without the dirty earthy aspect, if you havent smelled or tried it before. Soon though! Soon busty-cute-girl from work may be mine! .......

So otherwise in orchid news I got almost all my orchids repotted a little over a month ago, except for a couple of mine I had blooming or with a new flower spike starting and i couldnt afford to shock them. I put my worm farm to good use during the repotting too. I caved a bit and am pulling away from the pure moss play and moved back to what everyone else uses for orchids: bark with perlite and some charcol. I hate using bark, since bark isnt really harvested in a sustainable way, but cant really argue with what my orchids love and need to grow and be happy perky orchids, so bark they get. I tried to be a bit more green for em, but performance just never really got where I wanted. The my worm farm will help me make up for that a bit though I'm hoping I have a worm composting tower in my back laundry room now that breaks down my organic kitchen scraps and old pizza boxes (which are usually too soiled with food stuffs to be recyclable) and it makes just uber black rich moist compost in record time, a hell of a lot faster than a standard composter that uses only microorganisms to break it down. A worm will eat half its own weight in organic matter every day, so if you produce like 7lbs of organic waste a week, from old lettuce and bread and noodles and carrots etc, you can sustain a 3lb colony of worms in a composter, and since the worms eat the food as within a few days of being presented with it you dont have that decomp smell that'll build up, only a clean earthy smell from the moisture of the compost and the little bit of dirt you put int he composter on purpose (to seed the composter with the micro organisms that the worms need to help break down the foods). So basically I added like 3 or 4 spoon fulls of worm compost on the top of my newly potted orchids to help give the newly shooting roots somethign easier to grab onto when they start digging into the potting mix, and to trickle the really really rich fertalizer through the rest of the potting mix as it leaches down. And without any further adieu here are a couple pictures





Lotsa Love

Well over the past few weeks I've started to embrace a new love....... not really a new love so much as an appreciation and deeping of my feelings for a special someone I've been quite fond of for awhile, but now I think the cat is out of the bag and I can admit my love openly now without any shame or regrets....... I love money. there I said it. That's right money! Make the world go round. Has that slightly stale smell to it, but it smells a little human too from all that handling it gets with the oil from our skin keeping it all happy and green and foldy.... yeah money. Its not really in vogue to admit you love something that's been called the root of all evil. After all even the damned homophobic bigot often say that if you're gay you're just a hedonistic selfish person placing great emphasis on pleasure..... practically admitting they love the cock too and wouldnt blame anyone for wanting to get a piece while dripping with vile hatred that could only be harvested from their own self loathing....... but I digress. If you claim you love money its like admitting you're a slave to work or that you're a snobby money bags who would look down upon those who dont have it. I can see you people glaring at me. Crying out that this is an alternative site and not for uptight preppy white boy pieces of shit out to consume the world. I can hear it already. But i love money anyways and I aint afraid to say it. And its not like that brands me a work-a-holic who would exlude his family for the sake of earning the almighty dollar. I make 16.50 an hour. Hardly snob caliber wages. I admit I do want a BMW..... I wants a BMW really badlly, but BMW are built for drivers to experience the road and drive the hell out of it, with really efficient engines ( their diesels are 300hp and still get 37mpg average milages.... suck on that honda! ) and not something like a luxury car that's there to shelter you and protect you from the world in a swaddling of comfort. What I love is working the path to wealth. Wealth is when your money works for you, not you working for your money. I want my money to be fat and happy and to go and play and frolick with other money, fuck that other money's brains out till its pregnant and they pop out little baby moneys to make a big family, and then start fucking all over again. Its a truly beautiful thing to watch. I mean if you can invest in something like an alternative energy mutual fund that buys stocks in companies producing wind and biomass energies and get returns of 25% a year.... I mean who wouldnt pitch a tent over returns like that? Who would dare call me a greedy corporate douche bag for feeding the machine of industry, in the industries we need to grow and change the most?

AND I'm doing a good job of trying to make sure my friends try to make their money fat and happy. I'm kicking them in the ass to make sure they start planning for their retirement so when they get old and retire they're not stuck in some shithole retirement home with 3 roomates watching limited cable cause they cant afford to do anything, or go anywhere, or do anything except read library books watch cable and wait to die. I'm proud and happy that I bought my first home at 28 all on my own. I'm not talking about buying a home from a relative for a 10 or 20% discount off the real value of the property.... and I sure as hell aint talking about having my parents give me 30k to make my down payment for me as a 'loan'. I did it all on my own. No one had any say in the deal but me and my real estate agent. I even blew off a cousin who's a real estate agent cause the dudes a little creepy and I didnt want family having anything to do with it. I'm proud at 31 that I've got a little over a year's worth of my salary in my 401k. And even though the stock market went into a correction of 10% my 401k dropped less than 5 and I'm proud I knew what was up, and what I was worth at my peak, and that mine held up better than the market!

Now I'm stuck in a new quandry though. 2008 Diesel BMW 3 series I can run on biodiesel VS buying a second home for rental income. Basically I'm gonna refinance my house in about 6 months and that will let me pull about 40k out in cash.... and 40k in cash would let me either buy a new BMW I can run on guilt free fuel or would almost be enough for a 20% down payment on a new piece of real estate i could then rent out for some money. I gotta say its a hard call. the BMW is a safe bet. Once I lock my new interest rate in I'll only have to pay about $150 a month more than I do right now for my mortgage and I could have a new $40k car free and clear, no car payments. And not only is it a new car. Not only would I have no car payments. Not only is it a 300 hp bad ass piece of mother fucking engineering. It is also a car I could run on biodiesel and never again need to buy oil product to fuel my car. No more global warming polution and buying that new car would cut my carbon footprint in half (assuming you dont count the green energy powering my house, which is a mini cop out in my book still). Buying a house for rental income would be amazing too though. The problem is that you cant charge the full value of the mortgage to your renter. Otherwise no one would bother renting if they could pay as much for a house as an apartment. Even with a 20% down payment, its really hard to break even on a rental property. I'd need closer to a 30% down and then I'd about break even. For the first 5 years or so owning the property you're pretty much losing money on a monthly basis, although the property will probably grow fast enough to more than offset those losses. Even the areas starting to go down in value (which seattle isnt having much trouble) wont last long and after 5 years i'd probably be up 15-20% in the value of the property, but that doesnt help me pay the bills to get me to year 5. After you get some equity up in the the house, and rental rates appreciate enough to gain some ground though after that you're in the money and real estate is far and away the best path to wealth in my book. If you play your cards right so you always break even on your costs for your second properties you can still have your renters build equity in your property for you, and you wont pay a dime in taxes on it because you're not making more than you're spending. If a tenant cant pay for a couple months and things get behind though, that's when it'll get ugly for me since its gonna be really hard to cover that..... but with a steady renter I'll be golden and will make a shitload of money. So that's my newest test of will. Do I take a chance and try to make some crazy money? or do I just play it safe and go for instant gratification and get a crazy ass car that'll help make the world a better place....... Stay tuned to find out!

Well I've been a lazy bastard for long enough so time for a quick post. I'm so behind on emails to friends its not even funny. I feel slightly compelled to post an update of where I'm at now just because. There hasnt been a whole ton of life changing stuff going on, but I've got quite a bit of stuff that's kinda hanging out there in the near future. Things with cute girl from work have been getting warmer but still not anything major happening. mostly due to my lack of assertiveness...... at least I hope mostly cause of that . I've been better at making a steady stream of little moves and being more affectionate. I'm also irritated my BMW plans are starting to fizzle a bit more. I checked interest rates again and its gotten up to 6.75ish for a 30 year although the fed's rates havent gone up from the 5.25 since I checked a few months ago when rates were 6.25ish so banks are obviously starting to turn into collective tight asses on their own. It was already enough of a stretch for me to refinance the house since its blended rate is around 5.7% but if I could get the whole thing locked down to a fixed rate, and free up enough cash to get my roof replaced and get a 2008 diesel bmw I can run on bio diesel instead of fucking petrol it'd be so worth it to me. Its gonna be irritating to no end when the models actually come out and I wont have the cash to do anything about it. Also on the subject of money I need to call up and get my 401k rebalanced but I hate phones so I've been putting it off forever. I need to stop being a wimp.

I also need to get off my ass and edit the batch of pictures from the local AX Fighting MMA show I went to a couple months ago. I got some pretty photos of that, but I've got like 150 pictures that need to be recropped and tweaked a bit before really being ready to post, and again that sounds like a lot of work.

My new schedule at work is gonna be coming out in a couple weeks and I'm not looking forward to it. If I get my first 2 choices that means I'm gonna need to start getting up a couple hours earlier, and if I get one of the latter shifts that means I'm gonna be missing a ton of EQ raids and there's a strong chance I'll need to quit the guild I'm in. Which is both sad and slightly optimistic for me since there's some guild politics I dont care for too much and would be nice to get away from that, but there's a lot of people I'd really miss.

In happy news though, and leaving on a high note, one of my orchids started blooming a couple days ago and its a darn cute one too if i do say so myself. Flowers are about 3 inches across for scale.

Ahhhh how the time creeps along. I've been a slacker bastard about updating. I just switched off the urge to chronical my life's little meanderings and just go gaming and try to do some reading and all that other jazz..... Ok well some of that other jazz was me being more enthusiastic about trying to spend some time with cute-busty-girl from work Naomi, but after a couple months of getting more comfortable around each other and chatting away through messenger and having lunch together at work, I actually decide that yeah I'm very attracted to her and really just need to man up and ask her out. Normally I wouldnt really pursue someone from work very aggressive..... well I never pursue anyone aggressively... I'm lucky if I have anyone pay enough attention to me for me to get friendly and go from there with it.... but especialy at work if I get involved with someone from work and it goes south then 20, 30, 40 hours of your week is spent with that same person who thinks you're a tool at best, and maybe a total dick by the time things are finished and damnit, I cant stand freaking drama at work so I just let it all build up till I know damn well any risks are worth it to me. And I do think she is worth the risks. We got to spend a little time together outside of work before, and I've met her kid that's actually a really good kid (always a good sign, since if the kid was a mess or a jerk that should send off screaming red neon lights of warning). I think the main thing was since I took a few months to really try much to call her and spend time with her she wrote me off as being interested in her and now she has to figure out what to do with me now that I'm still trying to get more personal with her. She mentioned she was bi earlier too, which is always a fun sign, but I know I cant compete against a nice pair of boobs. If she's started seeing someone new since we met up (and I'm pretty sure she was interested in me at that time) and its just a guy I'm feeling pretty good about how well I could compete if she's willing to let me have a chance. I tried giving her a call part way through her enforced vacation (she had to take a vacation while her parents who do her childcare went on a vacation) to see if she wanted to do something, and got a no answer the first time, and 2nd attempt the next day I just wound up leaving a message to try to set something up for saturday and never did get a call back and by the time I was talking to her at work again it was a bit more distant (and never mentioned my call) so I dont think I've been totally shut out yet, but not exactly a super encouraging development. She's usually very strong though and isnt too shy about telling people if she wants em to go away or what she thinks so we'll see. I was really looking forward to starting a relationship again too so gotta chill that out and reorganize. It was kinda weird getting my hopes up though since its been so long since I've been in a relationship I was still trying to figure out when I'd really be able to spend time with her on our schedules and what that would be like again....... Anyways, enough of my wanna-be love life. Onto bigger fare!

So after an apparently much improved interview, where I really didnt give them any more information than when they had rejected me a couple months ago for the job but apparently projected and presented myself a lot better, I got myself a new jobbie job . I'm now basically the help desk for the repair team I was working for previously. This job should work out a lot better for me. It'll let me stretch out my skills a lot more to cover everything and anything that pops up through the day and will let me interact with the more advanced departments that take care of bigger or crazier problems. And I wont need to work directly with customers more than prolly 10% of the day, instead of the 98% of the day I was doing before so I should be able to relax a bit more through the job. I got a token 3% raise outta it so I dont really call it a true promotion, but the work is actually a nice step up from where I was at in the food chain in my old position so its kinda a mixed promotion I suppose. Since I'm moving up a ways though it will open opportunities to move up to higher positions in the company though in pretty big ways after I've had a couple years of exp though so will be nice for that. The new schedule I'm on will also get me home in time to raid in EQ everyday (except for when I go to train of course) but I'll prolly miss our first hit or so due to the stupid amounts of traffic that turn a 15 minute drive into 45 mins. I'm gonna be taking a small pay cut here since I'm working an earlier shift i"m actually sacrificing the extra $1.50 an hour I was making working a shift that goes past 8pm, but between the 3% raise and my 4.5% annual raise I got that's kicking in around the same time its almost an even wash of it. So keeping all my evenings off and raiding and training and being home in time for UFC fights made up for the less money I'll be making vs what the later shift would have been.

I also got back from a live MMA fight tonight one of our local schools put on. It was a pretty packed fight card, with 14 non title fights and 2 title fights, including 1 girl vs girl kickboxing match that was brutally beatiful. About 6 of the fights were really good close fights, about 4ish fights were over really quickly or really lopsided, and the rest were respectable fights but one fighter or the other showed enough sloppy technique I couldnt help be critical of it. The really cool thing about tonight though, aside from the girls finally taking some respect and getting a fight for themselves finally, was Matt Hume one of the Pride Fighting producers was here to take the heavy weight title winner and let him know that they're taking him and the champions of 4 other organizations in the Northwest and having them fight in a little 4 man tournament, and then the winner of that one goes to fight the winners of 3 other 4 organization tournaments to Hawaii for a pro fight there and the winner of that one gets to go fight on a real Pride Fighting fight card. For anyone not in the know, Pride and UFC are the 2 biggest fighting organizations in the world for MMA and to have an opportunity like that etched in stone for you, from a local amateur fighting title is pretty amazing to see and a real validation of the training and work and just the caliber of fighters overall the schools here are putting out. LOL unfortunately the heavyweight title winner is only 250 cause he's still about 30 lbs over his prime weight... but holy hell did that guy have monstrous knockout power. He just blew that guy down in one shot once he got his opening.

I've prolly let my mind wander enough as is so hopefully this update will make up a smidge for my previous abscence.

Well I've been somewhat slacking on updating for awhile so I figured I'd just start talking and see what comes out.

I had one really cool image that came outta cat napping today at work on my lunchbreak. I had this image of a crocodile and all his individual scales were just kinda inflating and deflating randomly across his body, like they were bubble gum bubbles being blown out and back. It was a really trippy image to strike me in the middle of only being barely half asleep on the work couch. But I liked it

Christmas was petty laid back over all, but mostly it was just inconvenient for me. A large part was just me going through the motions for it and not really taking much joy outta things. Although it did give me a good excuse to spend time with Naomi from work while we went Christmas shopping down at pike place. Wound up going down with her almost 3 year old son though, so that put me in uncle sean mode and didnt get any flirting done, but it was good to spend time with her. Its kinda limiting being at work talking to her though since I cant really flirt, and have to be proper and its kinda putting a bit of a damper on the start of things. I'm attracted to her but I always seem to wind up being repressed around her cause of it. I think some time alone would do wonders, but its still early and hard to tell. I also dont wanna go dive into something thatll turn ugly with a co worker I'll run into a lot whether I want to or not. I also need to weigh the fact that I'm just a big pussy and need to man up and make a move sometime soon too, so *shrug* we'll see. She's got more confidence and core strength than most people i know so that makes things easier since I dont have to dick around as much... lol but if I want to actually dick around with some stuff it seems a bit sillier... but I'm a silly bastard too so thats not all bad.

We're supposed to be getting a big ass snow storm tonight with big gusty winds so well see how things turn out. I am not looking forward to going into work though tomorrow. I'm expecting ugliness.

On the plus side though finally the freaking Daily Show is back on after a 2 week break. I had no idea how badly I missed them till monday rolled around and I kept twitching waiting for it to start playing at 11 and praying they werent making it a 3 week break. The great pleasures of life returned to balance.

Ok time to go get some food and settle in for the night.

I may have had the wierdest dinner I've ever had.

Main course: Medium-large bowl of Total Raisin Bran

Dessert: 1/4 of a homemade cheesecake with glazed strawberries

Now I aint talking a small little sliver of fucking cheesecake. Ohhhh no. I'm talking literally 1/4 of the whole fucking cheesecake in one shot. Overall though in 5 days I have eaten the entire cheesecake on my own with no help at all. The worst part though isnt just that the cheesecake had 1lb of cream cheese and a whole pint of sour cream and a full stick of melted butter as part of the grahm cracker crust..... which alone would be pretty bad..... Ohhhhh no. The truly evil part of the cheesecake was that on at least 3 of these 5 nights of cheesecake gluttony that I wanted seconds. As you can tell from wiping out the whole thing in 5 days I tore through the bitch, and each of my individual slices was like 1/6 of the freaking cake at a go. I was by no means cheating myself slicin that shit up for me. I think I may have found my skinny man kryptonite. My skinniness is in danger of being plumped up. I may turn into the cliche'd old 30 something single guy with long freakishly creepy long hair spending all day watching porn and eating crappy food till my ateries clog and I die of a rusty nail heart attack alone in my house with the cops finding me a week after the fact. All because of the ultimate cheesecake recepie. This recepie is a danger to man kind and should be destroyed.... but like Monty Pythons 'world's funniest joke' it can not simply be ignored. Once you see it and taste it you may be hooked. Just one little sliver will be alright. Ohhhh I can share this with my friends and just think how I shall be loved for sharing this great cheesecake love. Then you stop pushing to share. You just briefly mention you have cheesecake at your house and that it should be tried to be believed. I had a cute girl at work with spectacular boobs all excited to come try out my homemade cheesecake..... and she never came .... and the extra cheesecake consoled me well. My cheesecake may be the answer to my not being able to attract girls, but I may destroy them by bringing them close to me..... and I shall have to learn to share these evil wicked delights.

Well in general I think I have to say lately I've been going off on a large scale porno binge. After about a year or so of a fast I guess I've just had all my porn urges bottled up a bit too much. After all most of the porn I previously had access to was pretty crappy low end cheap whorey crap and I was getting tired of having to filter through tons of it to find anything that could at least pretend to be real sex (without being average to fat looking people trying to post their home videos). I had SG for all the real women I could want who were fierce and strong and made average 'normal' girls a bit paler, and made brain dead fake boobed whores look like a space alien's science project gone wrong. Besides that I've had Jason living here around that time so without any real guarantee's of privacy around either my computer and certainly not around the TV it wasnt really anything I could have enjoyed properly anyways. A couple months into my fast I actually deleted out all my saved pics that werent SGs, and about 1/2 of my cheap crappy movies off my computer (which is where almost all the porn resides, unless you count erotic novels and such I have stashed on diff bookshelves in the house). Jason though is about ready to move out in a couple months and I realized how much I missed having my house to myself (and once he moves out I'll realize how much I miss his extra $350 a month) and found a good site that lets me download porn in hd and high res formats with good speeds that actually cap out my cable modem in full capacity (16 meg speeds with bursts higher). Soon I had all I could shake my stick at, and even though I still had about half of it crap I fed to the recycle bin I now again have an obscene amount of porn. Even with half of it copyright protected so I cant watch it without my active subscription I'm prolly gonna need to cancel in the next couple months cause It'll take me that long to sort through everything I've got.... and then on top of that I found the SG Hentai user group and after seeing a couple of my fave girls Al and Vanesa sing its praises it was like all the cheap dirty bizare ultra kink things in that became fair game to appreciate again and I threw up bids of like $250 on ebay to buy hentai collections. Most of my previous stuff was from Waaaaaaay back in the day when I had a VCR and was about 50/50 recorded vs purchased stuff but I've only got my Cool Devices now on DVD so need to restock the collection. Luckily I lost out on the Ebay bidding...... ohhh shit, I just forgot I needed to go shopping on EBay for my mom's christmas present....... well fuck it, when I finish up here I'll go be productive again..... but yeah I lost out on the bidding, but I found a netflix style site that lets me rent a shit ton of anime including Hentai so my inner perv is going to be run dry in the near future.... and when my inner perv is satisfied I'll still have regular anime to get caught up on. LOL I need a girlfriend. So we'll see how things go with all this stuff.

If you made it past my reborn porn fetish here are some pictures from the Ax Fighting #14 fights I went to yesterday. A lot of really good local fights. 15 fights total, and all but about 3 of them were good entertaining matches. I took over 250 photos total, but deleted out about 50 to 75 of them for being blurry, since it was dark except for the stage lights and it was slightly backlit, and the fighters were obviously trying to move as fast as they could to whip the crap outta each other. Here's a half dozen or so of my fave ones of the fight, plus my fave 3 shot series I got ( all my shots were done in 3 shot burst mode since it was an action event ) which shows one of the fighters Eddie flipping the guy over in a roll.



This was the knockout punch mid motion. You can already see the white guy's knees buckling from the impact.

I am sugar coated nipples of joy.