And now the day in review...Not a bad day, made some kick ass sausage and peppers, yum! The beautiful morning gave way to rain, but its a nice rain and the temperature is nice and cool, I shall sleep good tonight, window is wide open.The psycho chick hasnt hit me up since this morning, hooray! Another chick that has been going insane chasing an asshole was given the cop out and the shocking truth tonight, when the guy told her he loves her like blood and doesnt want to ruin what they have. She says, "i was used". I was nice, surprisingly and didn't tell her I told her so..but hey, not my problem, I offered my rebound services. I even said she can fuck me and "accidentally" call him and let him listen in. Im a nice guy. Congratz to Selahh who went pink today, you earned it honey, cheers! Im extremely excited that TnT will be in MR in one week, you will be pink very soon love. Nothing much more to report, no news is good news as they say, and if you remember great space coaster, no gnus is good gnus! My love to all of you, shout out to TnT, Merlowe, Suispud and Sith. Later SG!

Hello there SG, how the hell are ya?? Its a beautiful day here in NJ...sunny and breezy..not too hot, not too cold..absofuckinglutely perfect! Nothing strange has happened yet today, I did receive a text or 2 from the nut in my last blog, but nothing entertaining, she also tried to call me...oh wait..she mentioned her boyfriend may be leaving her and had a sad smiley in the text. But if memory serves me she bitched that she thinks hes screwing someone else and that he never wants to bang her..I don't get it..nor do I really care to quite honestly. I really feel myself pulling away from this shit, again TnT has helped with that as well..she made me realize truths about myself and the situations around me. I do not care enough about these people so why do I put myself out there? I've decided to be a walking mindfuck of sorts. I always found it easy to elude people..and I always enjoyed it. As for my true friends, thanks for helping me shine....My newest friends from here, TnT, Sith and you Mr Suispud1...never hate on yourself homeboy, there are plenty of assholes in the world to hate on, and you are not one of em! So yeah this is a short one, but I will be writing again later, Im fairly certain of that. Enjoy ur day SG, and remember when life gives you lemons...make lemonade cuz hell its summer and lemonade is good, especially if you spike it with your favorite adult beverage..then take the peels and squeeze them at the eyes of the assholes in your world...blind those fuckers

M.

I can not believe how this day has gone..lmao! I mean I started off in a funk, a bad one too, and here I sit laughing over some seriously crazy shit. My mood was definitely lifted by the one and only TnT, I won't post her full name, just scroll down and find her in my comments if u haven't checked her out, you need to..like now, stop reading this and go check out this sinsational future SG. OK, so back to the insanity. This morning I get a text from a random chick from facebook...she got my number off my page and decided to text me saying "you should be my next boyfriend"...I cocked my eyebrow and typed back, we've never even hung out...she says but still your cute. She says brb and I dont hear from her for the rest of the day. About an hour ago or so I get a text from her saying "hey my boyfriend came home tonight but is it cool if we still talk cuz your a cutie" I humor her and reply simply sure, thats fine. Whatever right? About 10 minutes go by and she texts me again.."I wanted to have sex with him but he never wants to do it, do think hes fucking someone else?" I giggle to myself and reply..maybe maybe not..i have no idea.. She then decides to tell me shes incredibly horny and wants dick. Laughter on my part ensues. I simply say Im sorry. Another 10 minutes go by and she comes back with a text saying "I got a question", I say go ahead. 2 minutes later..."HOW BIG ARE YOU?" I nearly choke on my coffee and let out a loud UNFUCKINGBELIEVABLE, YOU GOTTA BE FUCKING KIDDING ME? Sounding straight out of Sopranos. I decide to play the game and tell her, Im not big, my tongue is my weapon of choice. She comes back with, "yeah but like how many inches" I say probably not big enough for you", as I giggle to myself. A couple minutes pass when I get the following text...verbatim "Oh yeah? Its been awhile since donnie last went down below but when he did eat it he drove me nuts. I couldn't wait for him to stick his dick in me fuck i wish i was having sex RIGHT NOW" Again I say Im sorry..I really have no clue what she wants me to say, maybe she wants me to invite her to have a friendly fuck and get to know me session. She replies, "oh but do you still have sex?" This text perplexes me, like what do you mean still??? Before I can respond she texts me with this mindboggler..."I wanna kiss you...zzzzzzzzz". WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN..DID THE BITCH FALL ASLEEP THINKING ABOUT WANTING TO KISS ME??? Really? I haven't heard from her since that one, so maybe she did actually fall asleep. Now this may seem very strange to most of you, however this is my life. I swear I attract either crazies, psychotiks, married women, women in some form of situation that puts a serious strain on any dating possibilites or women that no man would ever consider dating cuz they are just entirely too far over the rainbow. So if my blogs seem a bit disturbed or mad, or I seem a bit frustrated or depressed or even angry at times..remember this tale...truly anything is possible in my life. Big thanks again to TnT and Sith and of course the lovely Merlowe for all the kind words. I wish you all well here at SG..until next time. Cheers!

So I've been in a real rut lately, feeling down, throwing pity parties and doing the self-loathing thing. That being said I think I will try to spin this and make it worthwhile. I made mention to a friend last night that some of the worst albums have the best cover art and not to be fooled. Sure, its only another wording for don't judge a book by its cover, and sadly the masses seem to still do this. Especially when it comes to dating. We all need some form of physical attraction to someone, but I feel it has become all too important.Ive met beautiful women who after getting to know became quite ugly. Ive seen people who would fit the stereotype of ugly and they have transformed into something of sheer beauty. Everyday I hear about how wonderful I am, yet here I am, alone, no significant other. I don't feel Im ugly, however I do carry a little more weight than I should. Perhaps its not my loos that prevent me from finding happiness but I know it contributes to some extent. The real thing holding me back is probably the fact that Im actually a nice person who gives too much of a shit. I know many women who go for the "bad boys" cuz they feel they can somehow save this person from their demons. Ive seen it all too many times..great women with nothing shy of assholes. When they finally give up on one, they move to the next, the next being another asshole with the same "save me" qualities. Stop trying to be heroes...its not gonna work. Is this a plea for someone to take a chance on me, the nice guy, well yeah slightly. But its more about wanting happiness and passing up on the obvious. Its never the kill, its the thrill of the chase, and I get that. But then why complain about it not going well? I don't know, my mind is racing now cuz this topic kills me. I felt maybe venting would help, I was wrong. More to come...Later SG

Humidity, I hate you. Its a moist one outside today which makes me a bit cranky, however Im not as cranky as I would be because the heat factor isn't really there. Woke up with yet another headache...goddamned booze! Ive definitely drank my share this weekend...love the beer, love the whiskey..its a love affair I tell ya! Spoke to a newly great friend this morning, was way cool to hear her voice. You know who you are, thanks for calling and saying hi! Making some orange stuffed peppers for dinner tonight..I love to cook, its a work in progress. Its funny, I really wouldnt mind being a housewife..thats is a househusband, that is the one who stays home while my woman goes out to work..however, I don't have a woman..so this ruins the plan. My coffee has never tasted better. Ever notice potato chip crumbs taste 10 times better than the potato chips...I am now going to smash my bags b4 I open em. I don't have much to say but my mind never stops, I kinda picture mind looking like the old Qbert video game board..and my thought process would be Qbert himself hopping from cube to cube, idea to idea, with the occasional monster appearing. I love my mind but hate it just the same. I find myself feeling lonely lately...I hate this. Sometimes I love being single, but I love having someone to cuddle up with. The sex would be a great addition to my life as well, its been too long. I hate going out and seeing couples when I feel this way..I tend to get bitter and kinda hope to see em all happy holding hands and sipping right into a busy highway and get flattened by a truck, but I digress...I never wish harm on anyone. This doesnt stop the film in my head showing me it actually happening..I usually giggle and go about my business. Sweet insanity, gotta love it. Much love SG..talk soon!

Hey there. I was planning on blogging a bit earlier but I had a tremendous pounding in my head brought on by my alcohol infused debauchery of last night. Getting home is a bit of a blur, but alas I made it and woke up guarded by the familiar walls of my bedroom, surrounded by pussy, that is my cats. As I sat up I couldnt help but notice my head was riding over speed bumps as I sat completely still...this wasnt gonna work. I went for some coffee and came back home, opened a jar of tomato sauce and took a big gulp..tomatoes work wonders for hangovers, plus theyre a love of mine.24 ounces of coffee later and I was still feeling the thunderstorm in my head..2 advils and a nap later, here I am, feeling fucking lovely. Cooked off some pasta to finish the sauce I left behind and ate like it was my first meal in weeks. Last night was very spontaneous, I was feeling a bit in a rut and kind of on the anti-social side. I decided to go out to the local dive and grab a beer. So many times I go down there for a beer and it never ends up that way. Many beers in and playing some darts, I started to feel mighty euphoric. I was floating and the dart board seemed to be swaying. I paused for a moment and said to my buddy Tony...did I smoke pot outside? Apparently someone passed me a joint and I too a hit without much thought, normally I do not smoke the pot...when Im obliterated, I guess I do. I know I did some shots as well. I remember as I was leaving, there was this tiny chick who definitely consumed far too much, sloppy drunks, can't stand em. Standing outside having a smoke with everyone saying our goodbyes, this girl decides to run inside..her friend, being a bit more in tune doesn't think its a good idea. She runs after the little chick and WHAM! The corner of the door kisses the corner of her eyebrow which immediately begins to bleed...I feel bad however I find myself turning away to hide my laughter. Man, Im a dick at times..I take a look back to make sure shes ok, she has now started crying and saying she wants to go home...I sigh and shrug. What happened after that Im not too sure, but Im guessing I came home at that point. Good times. I wish you all well and hope you all have a kick ass day. Much Love SG, much love indeed.

Here I am again, thoughts running rampant in what is supposed to be my mind. I am slightly aggravated and yet slightly amused. I was informed today by a friend that I made a man "curious" about me. I was doing my thing on that other site, the book of faces as I call it, and apparently I upset him by "poking" his girlfriend. Really? I don't know maybe Im the stupid one here, but it seems a bit ridiculous to be "curious" about a guy who is "poking". I suppose its the same thing as when I used to get bitched at by people who claimed I was yelling cuz I typed in all caps. This is not yelling..its typing, in caps...really, its harmless. So yeah..poking...never thought much of it..I mean I know the girl, not extremely well...but I thought it was just something to do on the site. I was also informed that this same guy finds it to be disrespectful to call his girl "beautiful" or anything to that tone..apparently its considered hitting on her..I don't know, seems people have too much stress as it is, why add such harmless shit. I ended up messaging the dude to let him know I have no ill intentions with his woman and im not disrespecting him..tho I feel kind of toolish for doing so, I mean, apologizing for "poking"..really??? I suppose I'll end up deleting the chick, I really don't need the drama, especially if its over something so silly, I can only imagine what would occur if I said hi to her. More to come...

Its always so hard to begin these things, I suppose that's my downfall with blogs. Ive tried countless times to keep one, but every time I choke on words as they try to make their way to my fingers. I usually have something good to say, it just never seems to come out right. This is a problem I've had for a long time. I say things and I know what I mean, but the other person doesn't and I end up sounding like an asshole and inadvertently offending someone. Such is life, honestly I get a kick out of offending people. Not so much friends, but people in general. I find myself growing more and more disgusted with this country I live in, being the USA for those of you abroad. I feel we've become such a pussy country since 911...it gets worse every damn day. Kids are being brought up to be so paranoid, its quite sad, more so maddening! So that there was a test..did I offend anyone? I hope not, cuz that was nothing. That wasnt said to offend, its how I feel, I never say anything, well usually say anything just to offend. So, here I am, back at SG, its been a great many years since Ive been here and Im pleased with the changes, tho structurally its quite the same. A very good friend is a hopeful and asked me to come hang out, so here I am. Its starting, I feel the blockage building up and my thoughts becoming jumbled as they try so desperately to get out of my fingertips...whats the deal with this crap? Why is it no matter how long I quit smoking for, the little bastards end up back in my life? Oh yeah, Im slightly ADD..so I jump around a lot...you'll get used to it, i did. I suppose I should try to tell more about who I am..or how I am..or where I am...or what I am...but I can't tell you why I am. I feel as thought I'll leave this for next time...this was an ice breaker..welcome to my world, thanks for stopping in.