God damn it. Today was an extremely unproductive day. I slept till late in the afternoon, sat around doing nothing all day. I couldn't bring myself to even look at my paper today. I wanted to at least add a page or two, but I just couldn't do it. I was lying down when suddenly this appeared...

Not sure exactly what he was after. Maybe just checking to see if I was still alive, while debating whether or not to start eating me.

On top of the extreme writer's block, I felt sick all day. It started last night after my nice stress induced breakdown. I feel a bit better, though I'm still so damned tired.

I wanted to get out. This hermitage of mine is slowly killing me. But 1. I have nowhere to go and 2. I still don't have a working car. I tried going out with my parents, they usually spend the weekend out shopping, but today they went out just to one store for a tv stand, so I got out for all of 5 minutes.

I desperately need a social life. As long as my day is so unproductive, I might as well have friends or a girlfriend to spend time with. It would have helped. Too bad my only friend was busy with his boyfriend today.

This was one of those days that I tell myself I'm just going to ignore all of my texts tomorrow, but I'm so damn lonely if anyone does bother to text me I'll quickly toss my pride to the side and see what they want. So damned pathetic.

I need a change in my life. But I just can't seem to get anything to happen even a little bit different. Everything in my life is falling apart ans all I can do is sit back and watch. Or maybe sit back and start talking to myself while even the cat starts to judge me.

Can't just once, just one damn thing go right in my life? Is that too much to ask?