while looking for things to do to keep my mind busy, I found photos I long thought I'd lost...
they were of an ex-g/f, during a time when I wanted to delve into photography - I'd honestly forgotten what she'd looked like! (wow)
but, even though it dredged up some memoria it nonetheless did a couple things :
1) reminded me that I actually had at least a little bit of talent back in the day - the photos don't look too bad for being taken with a 1$ throwaway camera and, remembering that all but a couple of the photos were meticulously posed, I'm actually impressed with my younger self
2) it spurned a poem as well as driving me to typing up some random poems written in the past few months...
so - here's some my "poetica" that you can either ignore completely or read, if you so wish to...
( note: I never claimed to have any talent! )
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poetica :
Some Part Of Me
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
it was she
who once wanted all I had to give
it was she
who had promised me never again
but it was I
who forgave without blinking an eye
and it was I
who should've known but still wondered why
and it was so long ago
those worst days of my life
knowing I'll never know
and I no longer care why
but amidst all that pain
the deceit and the lies
I lost some part of me
when we last...
said goodbye
3:35p, d329y11
thom Wolfox sR Rhose
20113291535
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poetica : Beggar's Will
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
do what you will, just don't leave
I've forgotten so much already
I can't bear to let another go
say what you will, but please stay
I know I haven't much to offer
and I fear I may have become too old
for my heart to break much further
the glass in my veins akin to murder
too far gone to attract another
why have I lived if just to suffer
oh... please don't go
I'm aware inside it's snowing
and I know that there's better
but please at least stay...
until I fade.
9:20p, d314y11
thom Wolfox sR Rhose
20113142120
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poetica : FYP
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
Not saying you should
not saying it's right
for some (of) us it happens
(too) much of the time
fuck your perfection
I ain't one o'those kind
you say I don't belong
and I say - you're right
now get outta my way
hells, get outta my life
more of my kind than yours
and more willing to fight
while you blend right in
we stand out and shine
you can have your perfection
for tomorrow is mine ...
8:57p, d289y11
thom Wolfox sR Rhose
20112892057
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poetica : Octobre's First
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
even if I could understand it
what would I do, feed it?
seasoned with faux intentions
marinated in masqued delight
so rude of me to interject
when it is myself that's speaking
neither of Burroughs nor cummings
I am as apart as I am intact
a seasonal scented serenade
a reasonable reach of marinade
from fallen glass to tainted filigree
'neath fedora and leather I feast
her skin was pale in its pleasantry
and tasted of sweet amber and sweat
N:17, d274y11
thom Wolfox sR Rhose
20112741217
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poetica : if Offered...
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
if the dead offered flowers
would you smile?
pull up a chair
sit and talk for awhile?
if the dead offered words
would you hear?
take a step back
stand and swallow your fear?
if the dead offered their hand
would you dance?
hear tales of the future
while you bury your past?
5:44p, d254y11
thom Wolfox sR Rhose
20112541744
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poetica : Lost In The Winds
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
When the gods themselves
have turned their face away
when all that you believed
is just another page
in that book of life
that's been closed too long
and all you know that's right
is now considered wrong
in that immortal tree
from which hangs the world
you can't remember when
the dreams had last unfurled
the wisdom that remained
lost in the winds like dust
the gods turned away
as you'd known they must...
4:25p, d218y11
thom Wolfox sR Rhose
20112181625
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poetica : Helpful One
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
I am the helpful one
the servant that serves
not because he deserves
or has earned the right to
but because he can
and lives to do so
happy when others smile
strong when others need
it is all he knows
it is all he does
his way is to support yours
always others before himself
proud in his subservience
carrying the world only in moments
I am the helpful one...
10:21p, d186y11
thom Wolfox sR Rhose
20111862221
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- thom / Wolfox
