I'm really depressed now... this whole week has been just one big clusterfuck of shit i dont want to deal with.
with yesterday being the 6 month mark from when my (now ex) girlfirend having the miscarrige of my baby girl, and then me haveing to work way too hard last night, and then today i found out that my grandmother passed away... how the hell am i supposed to deal with this right now...

So i have decided to get a haircut, and im getting my ears pierced... and maybe even my tongue pierced as well... not sure of a good hairstyle though... i want something that is shor emo/rocker.... any ideas?

today is the day that i begin following my dreams of being a scriptwriter/actor/director/voice talent. im so excited that i finally have a solid idea for both a tv series and a few movies. im going to get really serious about working out to gain/maintain better muscle tone. im gonna lose a little bit of weight. and im already writing some more ideas for stuff... also working on writing music for the whole production... however i do have to rest up since i work all night long... so gonna catch a couple of z's and write down any dreams that i might remember in case of good ideas... im so excited!

So i now have a scar under my left eye... it was all unintentional, although i have always wondered what i would look like with a scar...

the story is mainly because i had a beautiful young woman over at my place... we have only known eachother for a few hours, but we just started talking and ended up at my place, i honestly have no idea how. things started getting intimate and then one thing led to another... afterwards she told me she loved me and i kinda freaked out. i told her that she was going way too fast and that i thought maybe she should leave. she got really pissed and grabbed my boxcutter. she started yelling and then cut me under the eye... luckily my eye wasnt damaged, but now i have this cut on my face. but i disarmed her, and grabbed her. i dragged her to the front door and then i made her walk home... i was pretty pissed off and a little scared for my life... glad thats over with... and i have calmed down a little since then... how would you guys/girls reacted in this situation?

so i decided that i really want to start filming me and my buddy playing video games together and post them on youtube... the stuff that happens has us laughing our asses off and it sucks because everybody else is missing it... I WANT TO SHARE MY LAUGHTER WITH THE WORLD!

and on a side note... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bt56yjY9qOw this is relevant to my interests

just got moved into my new trailer (temporarily) utill i can afford something better... gonna go watch the new evil dead movie with a bunch of friends, and hopefully with this amazingly beautiful young woman that i have known for a few years... maybe even get to be more than friends if all works out. YEAH im so excited!

i just realized that i gota go to work today oh well... at least im making some money. however i really dont feel like stocking tampons all night again... i kinda hate being the only person they can trust in that department... i dont mind the sex supplies or the vitamins, or even the countless amounts of band-aids... it just the tampons and the adult diapers that i cant stand... just because i can never find the spot to put them in...and i really didnt know that there were THAT many different brands and types... and then my bitchy manager decided to yell at me on my first day because i dont know where any of the products go...

its not my fault i never shop at walmart. i only know where the food is... on the other side of the fucking store... thats IT!

anybody know of any good songs i could listen to to cheer me up a little bit?

so yeah... new evil dead movie that i really want to see... really cute girl i used to flirt with in high school/good chance of maybe going out with her, and the only 2 games i am really all that excited about this year are splinter cell blacklist and assassin's cree 4 black flag..... oh well, goodnight friends.

YAY ITS MY FRIDAY! i hope it is a light night so i dont overdo it like i did last night. i got 3 days off and ireally dont want to spend them int the hospital :/

however i am so glad to have such amazing friends. they are there for me when i need them, and they know i got their backs covered. gonna hopefully get to chill with a friend i havent seen in a couple years <3

HAPPY EASTER EVERYBODY!

Hope you are all having a fantastic day. I'm gonna go get myself some chocolate, and maybe even some cheesecake. YUM!