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RADIO
OH.
MY.
GOD.
The internet went down at work yesterday, and I totally freaked out and had an awful day. I couldn't do anything fun! I spent all day doing filing and tidying *sulks*
But I'm back so YAY!
News in the world of Spider? Hmm...
I bought some hair dye yesterday, but I'm not quite sure which colour is going where etc.
You have to wait til it's done to find out =)
Which won't be til Monday I'm afraid! =p
But YAY for hairdye.
Not getting the Pandora cut.
I don't think it'll work so well on a human being.
I will try and find something equally buff though, some kind of asymmetric cut.
ANYWAY.
New pics?
MY.
GOD.
The internet went down at work yesterday, and I totally freaked out and had an awful day. I couldn't do anything fun! I spent all day doing filing and tidying *sulks*
But I'm back so YAY!
News in the world of Spider? Hmm...
I bought some hair dye yesterday, but I'm not quite sure which colour is going where etc.
You have to wait til it's done to find out =)
Which won't be til Monday I'm afraid! =p
But YAY for hairdye.
Not getting the Pandora cut.
I don't think it'll work so well on a human being.
I will try and find something equally buff though, some kind of asymmetric cut.
ANYWAY.
New pics?
I need to stop taking dirty pictures at work, I really do.
It's all Lee's fault. 
In other news, I went to the pub to catch up with a good friend of mine last night but didn't drink! We sat on a big comfy sofa near the fire and drank hot chocolate like old ladies. It was actually quite nice! Though I found out yesterday there's no money in my bank account. Which means I can't get to work, I can't buy food, nothing. Unless my mum bails me out. Sigh.
I'm supposed to be going to a mate's gig on Sunday down in Brighton, but I know my boyfriend is gonna kick up a fuss about it because he's a guy and he's fairly attractive, and apparently that means that I am going to have sex with him. I've known him since before I even met my boyfriend. He has a long-term girlfriend, who I'm fucking friends with. What's the big deal? 
Super mega love
xxxx
Happy Tuesday, guys =)
Tuesdays for me mean counselling.
I don't want to go tonight, but I didn't go last week.
I feel fine, I don't know what to talk about!
Blergh.
Last night was great.
The boys came round, and we all got ridiculously stoned!
I find it easy to get along with guys, but obviously my boyfriend seems to think I fancy them all and flirt with them right under his nose.
I really don't.
I just think it's polite to engage them in conversation instead of speaking only when spoken to.
ANYWAY.
I hurt my knee last night =( I tried to squeeze through a gap between the sofa and someone else's chair, except....there was no gap. At all. I must have imagined it. Because a couple seconds later, I was on the floor in hysterical laughter.
Oh, marijuana.
You do give me some fun times.
Also had a quite interesting chat about whether guys think about what it would be like having a vagina.
I'd quite like to have a penis for a day... do guys feel the same way about our naughty parts?
Guys? Comments please!
New pictures today of me in my leather jacket ^_^ I love my leather jacket. It makes me feel like a rockstar
Tuesdays for me mean counselling.
I don't want to go tonight, but I didn't go last week.
I feel fine, I don't know what to talk about!
Blergh.
Last night was great.
The boys came round, and we all got ridiculously stoned!
I find it easy to get along with guys, but obviously my boyfriend seems to think I fancy them all and flirt with them right under his nose.
I really don't.
I just think it's polite to engage them in conversation instead of speaking only when spoken to.
ANYWAY.
I hurt my knee last night =( I tried to squeeze through a gap between the sofa and someone else's chair, except....there was no gap. At all. I must have imagined it. Because a couple seconds later, I was on the floor in hysterical laughter.
Oh, marijuana.
You do give me some fun times.
Also had a quite interesting chat about whether guys think about what it would be like having a vagina.
I'd quite like to have a penis for a day... do guys feel the same way about our naughty parts?
Guys? Comments please!
New pictures today of me in my leather jacket ^_^ I love my leather jacket. It makes me feel like a rockstar
In other news!
I wanna get my hair cut like Pandora from Guitar Hero (2), you know, short on one side, long on the other?
Like zis:
I need to find a picture of a real human being I can take to the hairdressers with me, or I know they'll fuck it up and I'll look like an idiot. Grrrr.
Anyway.
Happy Tuesday to you all!
Talk to me =)
*Drinks tea*
xxxx
Happy Monday everyone!
Wow. Weekends are long without SG. I hope you all missed me!!
I took some more pictures this weekend, I thought I'd show you all what I really look like, no makeup or anything.
This is the most vulnerable I've ever felt...
Eeeek!
Wow. Weekends are long without SG. I hope you all missed me!!
I took some more pictures this weekend, I thought I'd show you all what I really look like, no makeup or anything.
This is the most vulnerable I've ever felt...
Eeeek!
Go have a look and tell me what you think.
I made a couple of videos this weekend, but I can't seem to upload them...
They were .3gp files and I converted them to .avi with some freeware but they won't load, it keeps telling me to upload a valid video 
Someone help so I can share my NBC panties?
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!
I thought I'd treat you to some random pics since my videos won't upload *pouts*
Here's me drunk with smudged eyeliner and being a leopard last weekend (yes, a leopard because I'm wearing leopard print...)
The girl on my right is gorgeous, right?
And here's some of my past hair colours! I don't know what to do with my hair at the moment *sobs*
Raawrrr leave me some love, it's lonely at work *pouty pouty*
xxx
I GOT THE JOB!!! =) =) =)
For anyone that didn't know about the job I interviewed for, I'll be working at Royal Surrey hospital as a healthcare assistant in the cancer outpatients department. Which basically means I'll be doing nursey stuff.
And before anyone asks, no that is not me in the picture, yes, I do have an Ann Summers nurse's uniform, and no, I don't have any pictures of me in it
Seriously though, I'm so pleased I got the job I was worried I wouldn't get it cuz everyone else I saw that was interviewing for the position was at least 10 years older than me. But I got it so YAY! My job interview record is still unbeaten - I've never interviewed for a job and failed to get the job. *Deflates her head* I'm so happy though! I get to help people, to do something worthwhile, to put my skills and time to good use!
In other news, Alex took me on the London Eye last night, which I'm sure could have been uber romantic if it wasn't my fear of being high up above large areas of water. He was a bit mad at me. But then we went to Chez Gerard, a fancy French restaurant near the Royal Festival Hall, and it was amazing. Their beef medallions were the tasiest beef I have ever tasted in my life. The beef was cooked to perfection, and literally fell apart in my mouth. It was in this delicious brown sauce, topped with some creamy sauce. I have no idea what the sauce was, but it was delicious. If it was possible to have a mouth orgasm, I would have had a multiple one.
IT WAS THAT GOOD.
Still, it wasn't particularly romantic or exciting. It's just another day. The restaurant was nice, but it was nothing special. I can't help feeling like the spark between us is fading away.
PLUS
It was 'too late' to have sex, and he was 'too tired'. Next time you want anything, mister, I'm gonna use that excuse and shove it up your bum. But it's okay. I can take care of myself. And a certain someone made sure of that this morning.... And last night... And yesterday afternoon...
So how was everyone's Valen-poo Day?
Oh yeah, I forgot, I came home to a flooded kitchen last night. Some twats upstairs had a huge leak, and soaked our kitchen. We're lucky the electrics didn't go crazy. There was washing drying on the bloody airing horse, and now all my dry clothes are soaked and covered in water that's filtered through the ceiling = pissed.
Super mega love
xxx
P.S. No new pictures today, sorry! Go comment my other ones
For anyone that didn't know about the job I interviewed for, I'll be working at Royal Surrey hospital as a healthcare assistant in the cancer outpatients department. Which basically means I'll be doing nursey stuff.
And before anyone asks, no that is not me in the picture, yes, I do have an Ann Summers nurse's uniform, and no, I don't have any pictures of me in it
Seriously though, I'm so pleased I got the job
I was worried I wouldn't get it cuz everyone else I saw that was interviewing for the position was at least 10 years older than me. But I got it so YAY! My job interview record is still unbeaten - I've never interviewed for a job and failed to get the job. *Deflates her head* I'm so happy though! I get to help people, to do something worthwhile, to put my skills and time to good use!In other news, Alex took me on the London Eye last night, which I'm sure could have been uber romantic if it wasn't my fear of being high up above large areas of water. He was a bit mad at me. But then we went to Chez Gerard, a fancy French restaurant near the Royal Festival Hall, and it was amazing. Their beef medallions were the tasiest beef I have ever tasted in my life. The beef was cooked to perfection, and literally fell apart in my mouth. It was in this delicious brown sauce, topped with some creamy sauce. I have no idea what the sauce was, but it was delicious. If it was possible to have a mouth orgasm, I would have had a multiple one.
IT WAS THAT GOOD.
Still, it wasn't particularly romantic or exciting. It's just another day. The restaurant was nice, but it was nothing special. I can't help feeling like the spark between us is fading away.
PLUS
It was 'too late' to have sex, and he was 'too tired'. Next time you want anything, mister, I'm gonna use that excuse and shove it up your bum. But it's okay. I can take care of myself. And a certain someone made sure of that this morning.... And last night... And yesterday afternoon...
So how was everyone's Valen-poo Day?
Oh yeah, I forgot, I came home to a flooded kitchen last night. Some twats upstairs had a huge leak, and soaked our kitchen. We're lucky the electrics didn't go crazy. There was washing drying on the bloody airing horse, and now all my dry clothes are soaked and covered in water that's filtered through the ceiling = pissed.
Super mega love
xxx
P.S. No new pictures today, sorry! Go comment my other ones
IT'S THE RAT BLOG PEOPLE!!! =)
So yesterday was the day we decided to get them out of their new cage and see if they wanted to play. We decided to get one out at a time, so Alex got his out first (I think he's just calling it Ratty, by the way). After about 2 minutes of having him out, he had wriggled out of Alex's grip and into the sofa. After taking all the cushions off and deciding that Ratty was in fact inside the sofa, Alex got pissed off and said "Let's just leave it in there, it's probably dead already. I don't even want the stupid rat. These rats are crap. I thought they'd be better. I don't want mine anymore, you can have them both."
This, quite rightly, made me very VERY mad. Rats are animals, not toys. It's in their nature to burrow into things and run around exploring. I couldn't believe he was suggesting leaving the poor thing in the sofa to slowly waste away. We argued a lot over poor Ratty. It took me about half an hour, but I cut open the bottom of the sofa and managed to get him out eventually.
I'm still so fucking mad at him for wanting to abandon the poor rat. Can you tell I'm stil fuming?!
So after that episode I took their cage into the bedroom away from his craziness and later I got mine out to play with. I spent pretty much all night with them out and trying to get them used to me and their new environment. I'm really upset though - I know I shouldn't have got them from a crappy pet store but I didn't want them to have to stay there any more. They've both got diarrhea, and Burton is very sneezy. I'm not too worried about their poop, because it's probably down to a poor diet in the pet store, or just because they've had a change in diet the last 2 days, but I'm worried about the sneezing.
Burton is also a lot slower than Ratty, and less active. I don't know whether Ratty is just overly hyper or poor Burtie is sick, but I'll definitely have to keep an eye on them.
Anyway, here they are:
(Burton on top and Ratty on the bottom with slightly darker fur)
And here's Burtie cleaning himself =)
I wasn't able to get them to sit still long enough while they were out for a picture with me, sorry! ^_^
Anyway, once I had Ratty out and he'd worn himself out with all the running, he calmed down and curled up in my lap. I then called Alex in and showed him how best to handle him. After he saw how cute he was and after I tried to explain that you can't expect an animal to behave just because you tell it to, he apologised for being a dickhead and decided he liked Ratty again.
What a fucking drama over nothing, right?
Anyway.
Yesterday I also got a couple of cute leopard print bows delivered from eBay =)
(As you can see, I am still refusing to take my new pashmina off!)
And can I just say...
Adalae and Bully's new set STILL has me flustered from yesterday.
I don't dare look at it again today because I was so ridiculously horny yesterday that I thought I was gonna explode
So yesterday was the day we decided to get them out of their new cage and see if they wanted to play. We decided to get one out at a time, so Alex got his out first (I think he's just calling it Ratty, by the way). After about 2 minutes of having him out, he had wriggled out of Alex's grip and into the sofa. After taking all the cushions off and deciding that Ratty was in fact inside the sofa, Alex got pissed off and said "Let's just leave it in there, it's probably dead already. I don't even want the stupid rat. These rats are crap. I thought they'd be better. I don't want mine anymore, you can have them both."
This, quite rightly, made me very VERY mad. Rats are animals, not toys. It's in their nature to burrow into things and run around exploring. I couldn't believe he was suggesting leaving the poor thing in the sofa to slowly waste away. We argued a lot over poor Ratty. It took me about half an hour, but I cut open the bottom of the sofa and managed to get him out eventually.
I'm still so fucking mad at him for wanting to abandon the poor rat. Can you tell I'm stil fuming?!
So after that episode I took their cage into the bedroom away from his craziness and later I got mine out to play with. I spent pretty much all night with them out and trying to get them used to me and their new environment. I'm really upset though - I know I shouldn't have got them from a crappy pet store but I didn't want them to have to stay there any more. They've both got diarrhea, and Burton is very sneezy. I'm not too worried about their poop, because it's probably down to a poor diet in the pet store, or just because they've had a change in diet the last 2 days, but I'm worried about the sneezing.
Burton is also a lot slower than Ratty, and less active. I don't know whether Ratty is just overly hyper or poor Burtie is sick, but I'll definitely have to keep an eye on them.
Anyway, here they are:
(Burton on top and Ratty on the bottom with slightly darker fur)
And here's Burtie cleaning himself =)
I wasn't able to get them to sit still long enough while they were out for a picture with me, sorry! ^_^
Anyway, once I had Ratty out and he'd worn himself out with all the running, he calmed down and curled up in my lap. I then called Alex in and showed him how best to handle him. After he saw how cute he was and after I tried to explain that you can't expect an animal to behave just because you tell it to, he apologised for being a dickhead and decided he liked Ratty again.
What a fucking drama over nothing, right?
Anyway.
Yesterday I also got a couple of cute leopard print bows delivered from eBay =)
(As you can see, I am still refusing to take my new pashmina off!)
And can I just say...
Adalae and Bully's new set STILL has me flustered from yesterday.
I don't dare look at it again today because I was so ridiculously horny yesterday that I thought I was gonna explode
RAWR!
I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS
We got two brothers, white and black (or dark grey, I dunno) hooded ratties.
They're ever so cute.
I named mine Burton, after the great Tim.
Or Burtie, for short =)
I think mine is the older brother, when they were exploring their new cage and stuff, mine seemed to be taking the lead, with Alex's one following Burtie's lead =)
We haven't forced them out of the cage yet, we want them to get used to their new home and let them be for a bit, it must have been very stressful for them to be taken away from their other brothers and rehomed.
We're going to see if they want to come out and play tonight, so hopefully I'll have a picture of my ickle baby by tomorrow! =) =)
Very very happy with my ratties =)
(Can you tell by all the smiley faces?!?!)
I bought some new underwear from Peacocks, as I said yesterday. For £15, I got 4 pairs of pants and 2 bras - BARGAIN CITY MATE!!!
I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS I GOT RATS
We got two brothers, white and black (or dark grey, I dunno) hooded ratties.
They're ever so cute.
I named mine Burton, after the great Tim.
Or Burtie, for short =)
I think mine is the older brother, when they were exploring their new cage and stuff, mine seemed to be taking the lead, with Alex's one following Burtie's lead =)
We haven't forced them out of the cage yet, we want them to get used to their new home and let them be for a bit, it must have been very stressful for them to be taken away from their other brothers and rehomed.
We're going to see if they want to come out and play tonight, so hopefully I'll have a picture of my ickle baby by tomorrow! =) =)
Very very happy with my ratties =)
(Can you tell by all the smiley faces?!?!)
I bought some new underwear from Peacocks, as I said yesterday. For £15, I got 4 pairs of pants and 2 bras - BARGAIN CITY MATE!!!
Chat chat chat chat chat =)
Good mood today!
xxxx
I return!
How was everyone's weekend?
Mine was pretty good.
I was meant to have a practice shoot but it got cancelled =(
But there's always next time!
I bought some nice things from Peacocks this weekend, I got some nice underwear and a zebra print top and a leopard print pashmina which is now my favourite thing ever =) =)
I also won some zebra print shoes off eBay, YESS!
As you can tell, I'm a bit of a zebra print fiend.
It's just so purdy!
I also went out for a few drinks last night with a friend of mine, without my boyfriend (I know, amazing, right?).
That was nice, even if I didn't stay long.
I realised last night how ridiculously long my tongue is...
I posed in a picture with my tongue out, and I can't begin to explain how horrified I was when I saw the picture.
It has a life of its own.
It's crazy.
I'll take a picture sometime =p
Things are pretty good at the moment, I'm really starting to take a step back from things and take time out from myself, which is helping very much.
I was remembering how much I used to love the pet rat I had as a kid, and I decided that I'd like another. I want my own baby though, so we're gonna get two =) So Alex and I went to Pets at Home, and got all excited....
But they didn't have any rats =(
Which was a sad moment.
We'll have to wait a couple of weeks.
I'd love a blue rat.
They are adorable!
RUBBISH!!!!
Anyway....
Hugs for everyone =)
P.S. I don't like my hair. HELP! Arg.
How was everyone's weekend?
Mine was pretty good.
I was meant to have a practice shoot but it got cancelled =(
But there's always next time!
I bought some nice things from Peacocks this weekend, I got some nice underwear and a zebra print top and a leopard print pashmina which is now my favourite thing ever =) =)
I also won some zebra print shoes off eBay, YESS!
As you can tell, I'm a bit of a zebra print fiend.
It's just so purdy!
I also went out for a few drinks last night with a friend of mine, without my boyfriend (I know, amazing, right?).
That was nice, even if I didn't stay long.
I realised last night how ridiculously long my tongue is...
I posed in a picture with my tongue out, and I can't begin to explain how horrified I was when I saw the picture.
It has a life of its own.
It's crazy.
I'll take a picture sometime =p
Things are pretty good at the moment, I'm really starting to take a step back from things and take time out from myself, which is helping very much.
I was remembering how much I used to love the pet rat I had as a kid, and I decided that I'd like another. I want my own baby though, so we're gonna get two =) So Alex and I went to Pets at Home, and got all excited....
But they didn't have any rats =(
Which was a sad moment.
We'll have to wait a couple of weeks.
I'd love a blue rat.
They are adorable!
RUBBISH!!!!
Anyway....
Hugs for everyone =)
P.S. I don't like my hair. HELP! Arg.
I told him I refuse to let him dictate my life.
I understand that he's not happy about the whole SG thing, but I am and I need him to support me.
And if he doesn't support me, I don't want any grief from him either.
I figure if he's right for me, he'll get over the worries and the jealousy and support me.
If not, I'm not scared to be alone anymore.
Of course I'd miss him, but I know that I won't be on my own.
I have friends, and I'm not a terrible person.
On another note...
I don't know what to do with my hair =(
It's a pile of shit at the moment (I had to take my extensions out cuz they were looking like absolute shite)
Any ideas?
I was thinking of shoving a chunk of black under the fringe maybe.
This is me doing fuck all at work!
Oooooh.
And.
This makes me happy.
I want to dance around on golf courses with Zac Efron =)
No more blogging til Monday, how will I cope?!?!
Much love
xxxx
Spider
I understand that he's not happy about the whole SG thing, but I am and I need him to support me.
And if he doesn't support me, I don't want any grief from him either.
I figure if he's right for me, he'll get over the worries and the jealousy and support me.
If not, I'm not scared to be alone anymore.
Of course I'd miss him, but I know that I won't be on my own.
I have friends, and I'm not a terrible person.
On another note...
I don't know what to do with my hair =(
It's a pile of shit at the moment (I had to take my extensions out cuz they were looking like absolute shite)
Any ideas?
I was thinking of shoving a chunk of black under the fringe maybe.
This is me doing fuck all at work!
Oooooh.
And.
This makes me happy.
I want to dance around on golf courses with Zac Efron =)
No more blogging til Monday, how will I cope?!?!
Much love
xxxx
Spider
Jeez.
I'm so sick of arguing.
Today he pretty much said that I had to pick SG, or him.
I know he's not comfortable with me shooting my first set, but he needs to get over it.
Surely if he cared enough about my happiness he would support me in it?
Am I just being selfish, guys?
Am I am terrible girlfriend?
I just need to make a life for myself outside of the relationship, I need to grow as a person, I need to take risks and challenges in order to discover who I really am, something that's really important right now in my life.
And it doesn't make sense to me to let someone else tell me what I can and can't do.
So I stood my ground, told him he couldn't change my mind, and spend pretty much all crying my eyes out at work and arguing over MSN.
I just want things to work out.
Sigh.
Here's a picture of me a few days ago being vaguely happy.
I'm so sick of arguing.
Today he pretty much said that I had to pick SG, or him.
I know he's not comfortable with me shooting my first set, but he needs to get over it.
Surely if he cared enough about my happiness he would support me in it?
Am I just being selfish, guys?
Am I am terrible girlfriend?
I just need to make a life for myself outside of the relationship, I need to grow as a person, I need to take risks and challenges in order to discover who I really am, something that's really important right now in my life.
And it doesn't make sense to me to let someone else tell me what I can and can't do.
So I stood my ground, told him he couldn't change my mind, and spend pretty much all crying my eyes out at work and arguing over MSN.
I just want things to work out.
Sigh.
Here's a picture of me a few days ago being vaguely happy.
Yes, I do realise that I am blogging excessively, but I'm afraid I can't help it.
I don't like my job.
I am therefore here every day, all day.
I'm a lot more calm today, and I'm going to the gym later to work away some of the stress.
Hooray for endorphins!
The hospital I had an interview at wrote to my boss today for my reference, which is a good sign =)
The idiots put the date of my interview on the reference request though, so I got in trouble for lying to my boss about where I was that morning.
Damn.
Plans for mt first set are coming along, hopefully I'll get something shot soon, fingers crossed everybody! =)
On another note...
Who wants to see me being an obsessive Tim Burton maniac on E!...?
Did you spot me and my slit throat? =)
Much love
xxxx
Spider
I don't like my job.
I am therefore here every day, all day.
I'm a lot more calm today, and I'm going to the gym later to work away some of the stress.
Hooray for endorphins!
The hospital I had an interview at wrote to my boss today for my reference, which is a good sign =)
The idiots put the date of my interview on the reference request though, so I got in trouble for lying to my boss about where I was that morning.
Damn.
Plans for mt first set are coming along, hopefully I'll get something shot soon, fingers crossed everybody! =)
On another note...
Who wants to see me being an obsessive Tim Burton maniac on E!...?
Did you spot me and my slit throat? =)
Much love
xxxx
Spider
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