Member: Wilona

Wilona is looking forward to seeing her boys again! :)

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JUNE 26, 2008 @ 11:23 AM

Hey.

Thanks for all the comments and messages, I'm slowly working my way through them at the moment now I'm feeling like my head's screwed on a (little) bit better...

I'm not killing myself.
But only because of my mum's reaction.
I couldn't do that to my family.
No matter how bad I think my life is, it wouln't be anywhere near as awful as my family's life if I killed myself.
I need to stop being so selfish.

i'm still feeling pretty shitty...
I'm trying my best, and i think the anti-depressants are starting to take effect, which is great...
But no amount of pills can heal a broken heart frown

I want him back so bad, but I messed up real bad and there's nothing I can do to fix it.
I love him so much and I just can't stop thinking about him.
We both hurt each other real bad, and I just want to put it all in the past and try again.
Start over, brand new, go back to the beginning, dating, cuddling, fooling around.
It breaks my heart that he won't take me back.
He says he still loves me and misses me but because of what I did he can't look at me the same way anymore.
I wish I'd never cheated on him, I wish I could turn back time.
It just seemed like the right thing to do at the time, I wanted to hurt him like he hurt me, I wanted to prove a point.
Maybe he just needs time to forgive and forget... Or maybe this is it.
I don't want this to be it.
I love him so much frown
And now I'm crying again.
Great.
Sigh.

Anyway...

I thought I'd try and stop being so depressing and give you a blog you actually wanted to read... But I kinda failed that, didn't I? Ergh. So anyway, here are some new pictures for y'all.

My 'Groupie' pants my mum thought were amusing so bought for me!



And this is what I look like without make-up....Yurghhh!!!



And cuz I know how much you guys love awful drunk pictures of me....Lol...



You guys rock.
Thank you for everything.

Wil
xx

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Frankus_Suicide

Frankus_Suicide

Tolleson, AZ
March 2007

JUN 26, 2008 11:43 AM

well you're back with us thats all we care about
maybe one day he will forgive you, i cant stop you from living in the past and wishing you can go back in time
just have to keep moving forward smile

tallica4891

tallica4891

United Kingdom
January 2006

JUN 26, 2008 01:50 PM

ALWAYS here for you xx

Zerstoer

Zerstoer

Tualatin, OR
April 2004

JUN 26, 2008 03:07 PM

You're the greatest. <3

Josephadam01

Josephadam01

Appleton, WI
May 2003

JUN 26, 2008 03:50 PM

Hope you start to feel better real soon... Sometimes someone just needs space to realize how much they need someone... sometimes its just over... whatever happens never doubt that people love you...

AesirR

AesirR

United Kingdom
January 2007

JUN 26, 2008 03:57 PM

You always look great my dear. Hope things keep getting that little bit better each time. As to the man I can't comment on that, I don't like the idea of cheating on people but know I would end up forgiving them because I'm that sort of person. Hope you can find some resolution there one way or another.

mildots

mildots

Stuart, FL
September 2007

JUN 26, 2008 04:19 PM

Glad your starting to feel a little better.....

df

df

United Kingdom
February 2003

JUN 26, 2008 08:56 PM

x you know where i am if u need to talk

ABE83

ABE83

I'm lost
January 2008

JUN 26, 2008 09:29 PM

Im glad to hear your starting to feel better, and you look hot with or without makeup. I woulde'nt mind wakeing up next to you.

fatkidlovescake

fatkidlovescake

Worcester, MA
July 2007

JUN 26, 2008 11:59 PM

turn that frown upside down!

frown --------> smile

df

df

United Kingdom
February 2003

JUN 27, 2008 12:36 AM

i'm only back to delete the damn account ... grrrr SG

Hypersage

Hypersage

United Kingdom
July 2007

JUN 27, 2008 03:19 AM

I'm glad that you've decided to stay with us.

I just want to say (speaking from personal experience on both counts) cheating and a broken heart can be gotten over, no matter how hard it seems. Suicide in your family, can't.

There are a lot of people here for you^^^.

BeeStealer

BeeStealer

United Kingdom
August 2006

JUN 27, 2008 03:52 AM

Sweet...! Well done chuck. If there were points, you'd get loads, lol. I love the pants, I want boxers with little guitars on now! You are as beautiful as ever it would seem while both pissed and 'paint naked', that's two more things you can add to the CV biggrin ... x

Del

Del

United Kingdom
January 2006

JUN 27, 2008 05:57 AM

fucking awesome photos. looking good!

glad you have a better out look on things. its good your on your way to sorting things out.

badRonald

badRonald

Montreal, QC
September 2004

JUN 28, 2008 06:52 AM

Stay positive luv.

longjump

longjump

United Kingdom
April 2008

JUL 03, 2008 01:27 PM

been there famly member did take hs own life ur right ur life is not worth it sumone so beautiful shud not leav the world but make it a better place!!

ur gorgus and seem loverly!!

plz head up love xx

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