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Wilona OYEHBBY

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FEBRUARY 27, 2008 @ 01:39 AM


Short blog post today, I'm afraid.

Just over 2 years and 2 months.
And it's over.
For the moment, at least.



I'm back at my mum's for the meantime.
I feel like complete and utter shit.

I'm back at work, trying to put on my bravest face.
Trying not to let things get to me.

The stupid bus drives past the place where we first met.
So I was in tears on the bus this morning.

He wanted me to give up SG, he wanted me to stop talking to some of my friends, he wanted control and I wouldn't let him have it.
He says I broke his heart.
He says he wants to die.

I feel so terrible frown
I'm not a bad person, I'm really not.

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Xerxes

Xerxes

South Africa
June 2005

FEB 27, 2008 02:24 AM

*hugs* Hang in there, sweetie! I hope you feel better soon.

tallica4891

tallica4891

United Kingdom
January 2006

FEB 27, 2008 04:22 AM

im really sorry, theres never anything that can be said to make it better, i know it problay dont seem like it but i do know what your going through, it never seems like it but things will get better, altho im still waiting frown

on a diff subject just read ur post about you and your life, very kool and intresting, your a very kool person.

hope your ok xXxXxXxXx

ps, love your guitar smile

DeadBodyParade

DeadBodyParade

North York, ON
January 2008

FEB 27, 2008 04:37 AM

Sorry to hear you're so down.
It's one of the shittiest feelings people experience, and really tough to get past, especially after such a long relationship.
It's really great that you won't let him impose control over you; a lot of people don't have the strength of character to tell people they're not allowed to do that. That can never make you a bad person, and don't let anyone make you feel like is does.
If I could reach through my screen and give you a big hug, I would.

orangeAsaurusRex

orangeAsaurusRex

York, ON
January 2005

FEB 27, 2008 05:37 AM

Sorry to hear it hun... but to be honest... you didn't see that happy.
Your a beautiful girl and I'm sure you'll find someone new in no time.

JustPlainDoomed

JustPlainDoomed

Hillsboro, OR
September 2007

FEB 27, 2008 06:15 AM

Needless to say, we people (men) suck. Heartless, stupid, inconsiderate things. It won't take too long for him to turn around and wish he hadn't done what he's done. The question that's now up to you, love, is what you want and what decision you make when he tries to get you back.

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I saw that! Got ya smiling, foxy bird.

Buckyverano

Buckyverano

USA
March 2007

FEB 27, 2008 06:16 AM

Awww.. im sorry beautiful frown breaking up is never an easy thing. But your right you don't need another father you need a friend that understands that your still young and you wanna just have fun, but then again every relationship requires some form of sacrifice. Just be strong, talk to him as difficult as it may be and see if there is anything worth salvaging. I wish you all the best. -BuckyV kiss

badrobot

badrobot

United Kingdom
March 2004

FEB 27, 2008 06:25 AM

Don't beat yourself up; he made the demands - he can't complain if you didn't give in to them.

puff

puff

United Kingdom
February 2003

FEB 27, 2008 06:25 AM

you're not a bad persoan at all, infact you're a lovely person ... et phobia aside.

you'll get through it and find someone who doesnt need to control you and wants you just the way you are

xx

Revolutionary

Revolutionary

Las Vegas, NV
December 2002

FEB 27, 2008 07:10 AM

Your definitely not a bad person love. The people that try and control are the bad ones.

Chin up. Good things to come <3

Pawn2King4

Pawn2King4

Indianapolis, IN
October 2007

FEB 27, 2008 07:32 AM

You did nothing wrong. No one should tell you who you can be friends with and how to run your life. He may have been the coolest guy ever, but he had a jealousy and control problem. Believe me, it would have only gotten worse.

Keep your chin up. We're here for you kiss kiss

Padre

Padre

Tolleson, AZ
March 2007

FEB 27, 2008 07:46 AM

I know that you had strong feelings for him and thats great... It was obvious cuz you let him attempt an manipulating you and order you around... So I'm sure he's hurt but come on even you told me he was that way... Maybe with this time he'll realised he fucked up and try and change... Either way I know this is a shitty time so if you're not on for much i'll understand

chaoslex

chaoslex

Halifax, NS
March 2006

FEB 27, 2008 07:47 AM

You are not a bad person. Your wonderful. Most of us been where you are at now including me. It will get better.

BuckyLittleWing

BuckyLittleWing

Murrieta, CA
September 2005

FEB 27, 2008 09:31 AM

things like these, have a way of working themselves out...I can only imagine the amount of hurt you're feeling

but in time, youll be ok.

and who knows maybe he'll realize what he's missing.

Tragique

Tragique

SUICIDEGIRL

Tunisia

FEB 27, 2008 09:49 AM

hunny, there was only half a sentance on my set frown please leave the comment again though as we need the suppost and i'm interested in what you think! Thanks for helping us out, i'm afraid we wont get many comments now that its almost been pushed off the first page frown
xxx

Zerstoer

Zerstoer

Tualatin, OR
April 2004

FEB 27, 2008 10:30 AM

yea, don't let it get to you, in the long run it'll be better for you anyway.

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