So this week i said goodbye to 2 friends, in totally different ways, for totally different reasons, with totally different emotions connected to them. One on good terms, the other not.

The only similarity the two instances have with each other is that i wish that i didn't have to say goodbye to either.

Yesterday. SG Philly cookout. T'was a good time. Love to all those that were in attendance.

byes now..

~will

So.....update from the world of mr.trinity

I'm blond (well blondish at least. highlights to be exact.).

I have new holes in my face (two piercings in my lip that is).

I'm listening to the new Queens Of The Stone Age cd, which is sick. Yes, sick. SICK i tell you!!!

I think I'm going to start writing a novel. Try at least. I mean I have a freakin' Master's Degree in creative writing, I should put it to use some time.

I attended Philly Wizard Con this past weekend, which was a cool time. While there I breifly meet the lovely Fractal, who seems like sweet girl. Willow was there as well and she's always good people (and a wonderful saleslady for the record). And love goes out to all the other SG brethern that I ran into at the convention.


For now that is it. Who know's when my next update will be. I'm sporadic like that..

~Trinity (aka William the Bloody)

So I rarely hop on this site anymore. Not that I don't love it anymore...everyone who knows me knows that I rep SG like something hardcore! But I'm still searching for a reason to wake up in the morning. And until i find that, i really have nothing to share with you folks.

However, the point being... Everytime i jump on this site they change shit around. it's just too confusing for me...

Every day I wake up, it feels like pins in my heart.

Hello Suicide World,

It's been quite a while since I've written a journal entry, 4 months to be exact. I figured it was time to let you all know that I'm still alive out here and to reflect on the year that has pass.

Unfortunately, 2006 shall end not much different than it began, with me still searching for something to keep me in the world. Furthermore, I increasingly experience serious bouts of antisocial behavior, which includes weeks/months where I isolate myself from everyone. This entails not talking to anyone for extended periods of time. In my mind I just want to be left alone, and fade away. As a result, I have experienced many emotional ups and downs in the last 12 months.

However crazed I may psychologically be at times, I now look at the year 2006 as one of lessons. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't all bad. My summer for the most part was filled with highlight after highlight: 19 days on the road (which included wildfires in Kansas, UFOs in Arizona, and twisters in Texas), the annual WCU poetry conference (that reassured me that art has healing power), and there were some good times at the fun filled ECC trip.

But once you get too high, there is nowhere else to go but down. The year saw the emergence of several new people into my life, as well as being abandoned by some. I admit where it was my fault, either naive or purposely causing a feud_ But another case I am still unclear of what went wrong. Either way, I know I made choices and hurt people. I regret hurting the feelings of someone I cared about, but I can't take that back and must live with the consequences.

Now maybe I am just complaining to complain. After all, this year nobody died and I still have my health. Maybe I'm just complaining because I've grown weary in my search for that "something to keep me in the world." Maybe it's because I'm a poet and I fell I need to suffer. But I will end my year with a half-frown on my face and not a smile. 2006 was one of lessons, and hopefully in the new year those lessons will pay off.

Well that wraps my year, and I once again doubt if I'll be updating my journal for a while. So for all of you, I wish you the best over the holiday season and into the next.


Truthfully,

William Trinity Espinet III



p.s... Completely changing gears and keeping with tradition, in the past I have shared my favorites of the year list. Here it is once again:

Will Trinity's favorite CDs of 2006
1) Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Show Your Bones
2) Pretty Girls Make Graves - Elan Vital
3) The Roots - Game Theory

Best New Band - The Raconteurs

Best Concert - Yeah Yeah Yeahs @ the troc

Favorite movie '06 - V for Vendetta

Favorite Book published in 2006 - Beth Goldner's The Number We
End Up With

This will probably be my last entry for a while. And for those who know me in the flesh, I doubt you will be seeing me around. It's nothing against you-- you are all beautiful people with beautiful lives.

But I need to take some time off to find my place in the world.

My weekend was entertaining, yet exhausting, and texappeal-filled!!!

So my body is sore and I feel I could drop dead any minute-- thanks to everyone's favorite little Texan giving me an extensive workout of painting her new apartment for most of Saturday & Sunday. Well, partially painting her new apartment since we only got the bedroom fully done and primer on half of the rest. But it's coming along. And it really is a good time. I'm having tons of fun and getting to know all types of fun stuff about her-- as in she is a big Fiona Apple fan and likes dancing to booty-shakin hip hop; so we actually have stuff in common. Anyways, it's a good time and I look forward to helping her finish up her apartment.

In between our painting ventures we attended the Apples 2 Apples event with the wonderful people of SGphilly. Which is always a good time. And I finally got a chance to present XToonGrLx with a gift I had been holding on to for like forever. I love that toongrl! Anyways, much love to all those who attended, and I'm sorry I fell asleep on the floor there at the end--I was tired from painting all day.

And lastly, or actually firstly, I started the weekend by going to see Pulse staring my latest celebrity crush Kristen Bell. And despite having my future wife in the lead role, it was truly a horrible movie. Really... just plain bad.


So, for now... that's my world.

~william trinity

I could tell you all that since the last update my life has been filled with nonstop action and excitement... but that would be a lie.

I did however attend the She-Devils Roller Derby bout this past Sunday, which was full of good things. As in Gadget & The Sadistic Sweethearts earning their first win, and the debut of XToonGrLx and her team the Moxie Maidens. There was also a cute little texan doing a hell of a job as watergirl. And of course the usual suspects were in attendance (you all know who you are, so I'm not listing. Plus I'm just too lazy to do so).

Other than that my time has been spent continuously listening to Thom Yorke's The Eraser cd, and reading plenty of poetry--including Kate Light's new book Gravity's Dream, which is the first book published by my cohorts at the West Chester University Poetry Center.

As you see, I do lead an exciting life (<-- that's sarcasm).

Anyways, for now I'm looking forward to The Final Frontier popping off at The Lesbian Den this coming saturday.


Until next time.
~William the Bloody

Hello, My name is William. At times I can be an immature asshole. It's a character flaw, and I'm working on improving it.