So I've been seriously thinking about it and the situation that I'm in. I'm going to join the Air Force. Reasons are definite pay, retirement, see the world (again), benefits, education.

I've been told by people not to join but I figure why not what could happen I crash my plane into the ground and die, oh no.

So I've filled out my stuff waiting for a recruiter to contact me so I can take the officer training test so I can go into the Air Force Academy(the only way I'll fucking join). Possibly this week if not called in the next few days actually go up to the recruiter area and talk to them in person.

~Michael

Oddly enough I am still alive. Woo me!

Being without a job sucks a lot!!!!(Steady source of income anyways)

Will ADD photos into the pics area soon. You all can judge my work soon yay! (Nervous laughter)

~Voided Silhouette

Update on my life in as little as possible.

1. Got kicked out of my old place.
2. Living at New Place with friends who care.
3. Got Fired from GameStop.
4. Erika is pissed off at me, not talking to me(Hasn't for two weeks.)
5. Camera Died on Me.
6. Quit Smoking Cigarettes.
7. Found a new Bar in Orlando Called Roll Bar(Great Soft and Grand Openings!)

So that's what I've been up to in a nutshell for the past who knows how long. Pretty much in chronological order.

~Michael

Whoa just woke up from last night's shindig at my friend Kikendall's. Lots of fun playing drunken rock band and jumping off of roof tops to the ground.I hope everyone had a fun and great 4th of July, I sure had a lot of fun and now I have to go back to work, ugh.

I will be transferring a lot of the photos I have on my myspace and flickr account over to the photo section here to share with some of you all who do not have a myspace account or flickr account to view the pictures.

Time to go heat up some food and get to work.

~Michael

So I'm hanging out with Erika again for better or worse. It's cool I can actually sit there next to her and not feel anything, numbness yay! Do I care for her, I do, do I love her, I do am I in love with her, probably not but I don't know.

I'm getting the feeling that some people don't want me to see her, because they say it'll hurt me again, eventually. I await that to happen, honestly now I don't care how much someone can hurt me. I'm just okay with everything now that I'm just here.

I've been neglecting a friend now again, sucks to be her. I mean I didn't do it on purpose, just I'm not a good friend as it turns out. Possibly due to my insomnia which is having emotional and personal effects on me. I read some articles on Fatal Sporadic Insomnia and Fatal Familia Insomnia, which I hope to god I don't have. The disease is related to the protein Prion which controls the Thalamus which controls sleep. The youngest recorded case is 30 years of age, but more commonly found in someone 40-60 years of age. Basically its rare and it kills. The body stops functioning and dementia sets in, in about 3 years the person dies from the disease (Possibly due to complications of motor functions and brain activity failing.) There is no cure.

I'm pretty sure I've just got a regular form of insomnia, but who knows. We'll all know in a few years when if I completely crazy and die. I think though basically I have a regular form of Insomnia because of Celiac disease, which in turn is caused by stress, emotional stress, physical stress, etc. And it changed my diet, thus causing insomnia. Odd that I get on disease and I get two, it's a two for one deal with me!

Okay but back to what this post was originally about. So I figured, I have very very few friends I hang out with, and Erika was cool to hang out with. So I chose to not lose another friend because I'm dumb, jealous and have emo tendancies. I look at it this way, I get hurt again my own god damned fault, but that's if I try to pursue something with her again, which I am not. Now anyways, until something clicks in my head and I try again. Which it won't.

Blah I'm going onto another topic now. So work is getting ridiculously stressful and I am wanting to get out so much more. I've become a douche to some customers and it doesn't matter. I'm waiting for the call from corporate about a complaint against me. Which will be fun!

So now I'm going around to various stores I want to work at and apply for management positions. Hopefully someone will hire me into management and I can get away from GameStop.

Lost the will to write now. Peace.

~Michael

Bwuh I never keep up with this thing here. So lets see new things, finally got a laptop a few weeks ago. Lost a few friends in my personal life because I ended up working way too much and tried to balance work and my photography more so than who I spent time with.

Missed some beach trips with a few great friends. Turned 21 At Midnight(WHOOO!)

Work slowed down finally, but too little too late for me to patch things up with some people.






The plan for my upcoming birthday as planned by my good friends Nate and Nicci are as follows.

Sunday Bar Hopping on my 21st with Nate and a few friends. Right around oh say 6 maybe 7 we'll be hitting downtown Orlando's bars until whenever.
Monday around oh say 10:30-11:00 we're heading to a beach(yet to be confirmed which one) and coming back before 4:30-5:00. So anyone who has those weird night shifts that start around then are more than welcome to come along. (This is the people under 21 mostly to celebrate me since the night before is bar hopping night.)
Tuesday is still in the air and that is the last day of my vacation/birthday bash. I will most likely be broke and tired from the previous two days. I'm venturing that I will most likely be playing video games at this point in time and try to recover my liver for work the next following day.
Any questions give me a call or text. I want to see a few people on these days so any of the days listed above you want to see me, by all means contact me. I will be free for most of them. (Except Monday, obviously not going to be in town.)
I will be contacting a few people that I want to see before then to see if you can come par take in the festivities. Keep your schedules free people, you may be getting a surprise invite from your friendly neighborhood gamer emo.(That's right I said it, gotta problem with it? Wanna fight about it?)

I am out. This is it for a post. Kind of boring and not too interesting. I couldn't think of anything to write.


~Michael

Am I in the wrong about this???


You chump. If I see another emo status update but you continue to refuse the party invitation, I will call down the wrath of whatever Asian God it is you fear. It's just not a party without you getting drunk .. and then lost in our yard.

Seriously though. It's been forever. And if you respond with anything other than 'shit man what was I thinking of course I'll be there' I'll cut you.

Resume emo shit.

From Rob W.

Yeah, sure I'm not the one who decided to stop talking to me. I call you guys and no one answers, I guess living over here means its too far to hang out, and too much of a hassle to talk to.

I'm also pretty sure saying 'taking a step off this ledge and doesn't care what happens next.' isn't considered emo, more of a philosophical proposition of taking a chance and not caring if things go bad. Life is about taking a chance and not worrying about the outcomes, that's a way of saying that.

I'm pretty sure you guys haven't missed me that much, if at all as well. None of you (i.e. Padraic, Timmer, Yourself or Nikki) have bothered to so much as say hi or offer to hang out once in a while. It's become an annoyance to drive over there just to sit around in a house and not know what the fuck everyone has been up to. Video games are great, but fuck man, you guys only live to play them there's more to life than that.

When you guys grow up then let's try to bother talking again, because right now you guys have been acting like little kids who don't give a rats ass about anyone but yourselves. I'm over spending my energy to make time for you guys, when you obviously don't care.

When you think about what I've written you'll probably scoff and try to retaliate with some witty remark of some sort. Go ahead, I'd like to see your answers on why you've all abandoned this side of town, sure Ocoee sucks, but you still had friends here. You still had a good friend here, keyword being had.

When you're all ready to talk it over and decide to grow up and be mature let me know and we'll see what happens.

My response.

~Voided Silhouette

Blegh. I haven't written in here for a while, damned work is keeping me busy. Stupid GameStop holiday hours.

Past couple days though has really been the only time I have had to actually check out some sets here and see who is new and how the photographers are. Speaking of photography, that's been one department I have been slacking off a bit in, also doesn't help that my camera is being borrowed for some stupid "I just want to take pretty-ful pictures for the hell of it" reason.

No one as far as I can tell around me is getting Christmas presents on time, but hey retail people always get the gifts to give after when we have the time and the money to actually spend going out to find gifts. My excuse really is I'm at work way too much to actually go to another store to find stuff.

Well here's to another few months without an update on anything.

~Michael

My job is on the line because of some fuckers. This ships sinking and I'm slowly starting to feel the water rise above my head. Andy and I are the captains who are trying to keep this ship afloat.

This whole damned week is shitty and so is this fucking month coming up. We've got way too much on our hands and someone is going to take the dive. I feel I'm taking one, I feel I'm going to get a demotion because of some fucker.

I'm now currently looking for another "management" job just in case I am shit canned because of my incompetent crew. They just look at this as another "job" and I look at this a career now that I started to make it my life and make something of myself. I finally started to prove myself to the world and now others are trying to bring me down, and they're doing a damn good job at making me hate people.

This is really making me depressed.

I randomly thought about my future, what I wanted to do. I want my own store, I want to make the money I want to be happy, somewhat as far as a manager of a GameStop could ever be. Random thoughts of wanting to settle down have popped up in my head every so often, it makes me wonder why? Maybe I want to have something solidified in my life and something that is a constant. I want what my parents had when they were in love and I don't want it to last like everyone I know around me. Divorce is an easy way out and an ugly word.

I don't know it seems I'm just a sucker for romantics. I have never considered hanging out and seeing concerts or going to dinner for the hell of it a date with my ex's I've had. I've always wanted to do the romantic themed things I've idealized from movies. I want a life similar to the movies I've seen John Cusack in. Maybe I am a sucker for romantics, head in the clouds living in a fantastical world and trying to live in the real world at the same time. Don Quixote, possibly deluded my imaginings of a chivalrous life and that of a grandeur that would be a modern "knight-errant". I constantly think I was born in the wrong era, born too far in the future or too far in the past. I was not meant to be here with these thoughts, not in this time line where it seems chivalry and a code of honor have become fables and things people do not aspire to achieve or do. Maybe I'm just a crazy hopeless romantic.

I have Tuesday off, my only real day off next week I think too. Will probably spend that day working on the yard and then possibly if I get a chance play some Halo 3 online for the first time since I got it. All I know is I've never asked for much from this job, and now I'm starting to get burned out because of my 50+ hrs of servitude, and I only get paid for 40 of them. I'll be at the store next week for 50+ Hrs trying to clean up the mess and get this ship stable. I feel Andy and I will be in the worst moods for the next few weeks. If we manage to get the store back into shape we'll be less stressed and we'll be back on top like we used to be.

I've rambled enough. this probably makes no sense to any but myself, I usually write straight from thought and never proof read, I feel this is how I should write all the time. Straight from the mind and heart, it shows the real me. I hide behind the facade of who I've become, I've created a false image through deceitful stories and mannerisms. Trust me when I say I'm truthful in these writings, that's all I can ever say. When I write, I tell it all how it's supposed to be or was meant to be.

~Michael

The following is not a list of rules. They're suggestions to encourage guys to be gentlemen. Take 'em or leave 'em.


0. There are always exceptions to this list. The foundational exception is when you actually talk to the her and she says something different than what is included within this list. These suggestions don't provide you with the holy grail of dating or offer you the Ten Commandments for the Ladies Man, they're simply a push in the right direction for being a gentleman.

1. Open doors when possible - whether it be to a building or the passenger car door. the classic example that's stood the test of time.

2. When in a place of worship (or other places that have aisles and pews), if a man is at the end of the pew, when exiting he should stand in the aisle and let all the females go before him. (This seems odd to some people, yet normal for others. If you don't get it, don't worry about it, okay?)

3. A man should tolerate the occasional chick flick, musical, opera, or ballet - whatever her preference is - *without* complaining about it! (Because the guy may just like it.)

4. Play one of the songs that would make any woman weep like the little girl she once was (but in a good way). A brief list includes, but certainly isn't limited, to:
"You & Me" by Lifehouse
Anything by Frank Sinatra
Any rendition of "Everything I Do, I Do it for You"
"Collide" by Howie Day
"Out Of My League" by Steven Speaks
And MOST IMPORTANTLY "Question" by the Old 97's (if you propose to a girl with this song, she is putty in your hands).
("Putty in your hands" is not meant to promote "using women" in any way. This group does not encourage guys to be polite in order to get her into bed.)

5. Talk! The strong & silent bit goes from intriguing to boring quite fast.

6. Find out what her favorite flower is and buy them for her randomly (regardless of the situation you might be in). A simple yet profound truth: a single rose says more than dozens of anything else. (I encourage the women to not allow a guy to "prove himself worthy" through gifts and flowers and such. Trust is a precious thing and it should take a good chunk of time before he gains it back in your heart.)

7. If you miss her, or love her, TELL HER! Even your friends like to hear it every now & again.

8. Re-enact Zales commercials (the ice is nice but certainly not mandatory).

9. Remember: the best gifts you can give are usually free of cost.

10. Leave a note (or send a message) just to say "hi".

11. Ask her questions about herself.

12. Dress nice every once & a while. Any girl likes to see her brother/friend/boyfriend/etc. in a well-ironed button-up with some nice slacks.

13. PRIDE & PREJUDICE ...that's all I have to say about that (I mean, that should speak for itself). (It's even more impressive if he has read the book.)

14. Tolerate small children as best you can. Meaning, put up with the things that can get annoying. They're children, after all. Show them love and care, teach them how to become a better man than you. (You were once extremely irritating. Get over the obnoxious kids and enjoy getting down to their level - not "for her", but for the good of yourself and others.)

15. Learn to dance! There is nothing sexier than a man who can dance really well. If God did not bless you with the grace of Fred Astaire, at least put forth the effort, it will be greatly appreciated. Always slow dance (even if it's just like you danced in middle school). Also, men, sing to a lady. Even if you're terrible, suck it up! They love to listen to it and will not care what you sound like. It's the thought that counts on this one. Unless you're just downright terrible, nothing sexy about that. Haha, thanks, Jade!

16. Kiss her on the forehead.

17. When she's sick, stay up with her. If you can cook (which is *always* a plus), make her some soup. If you can't cook, there's Campbell's soup at hand for you.

18. Pretend to throw her in the pool (or fountain/pond). If you really do throw her in, you'd better jump in yourself. **NOTE** There are some women who just hate this apparently, so you had better do two things: 1) Never allow your buddies be a part of it if you're unsure of how she feels about getting thrown in and 2) You had better know how she feels about it!

19. Hold her hand while you talk, drive, or just for the heck of it (it's the small things that win you big points).

20. LOOK IN HER EYES, NOT AT HER CHEST!!!!!

21. Stupid jokes = awkwardly adorable moments.

22. Tickle her, tease her, let her tease you back without getting all bent out of shape about it.

23. Don't call her hot, or pretty, or cute; call her beautiful, because that's what she is. (I don't think cute is that bad, but definitely stay away from "hot" [it's so overused and superficial] and step "pretty" up to beautiful or gorgeous or stunning or captivating or...)

24. Offer her your jacket/sweatshirt. (Note: you may not see that particular item of clothing for a while, if ever again).

25. Don't be too proud to apologize.

26. It's not stalking to watch her sleep if you fall asleep watching a movie. It is stalking to watch her sleep if you're standing outside her window with night vision goggles.

27. When she feels at her worst, tell her she looks her best.

28. If you're trying to get more than friendship out of the relationship, take it slow and never rush her.

29. Just because you're a guy doesn't mean you are completely incapable of calling when you say you will, it just means you are highly incapable of it. There are few acceptable answers to, "Why didn't you call?", & being male is not one of them.

30. Don't check out other girls in front of your female friends/sisters/mother, unless you are sincere when you later ask them if you think she could introduce the two of you for more reasons than you "want to get some".

31. Guys - always offer to pay for the date. No matter how expensive it gets, especially if YOU asked HER on the date. [if she is willing to pay now and again, don't let your "man pride" get in the way of her wanting to give back to you. she should understand money can be tight - especially when you're always buying]

32. Always do everything in your power to keep her as happy as you can. And cheer her up in any way possible. [if she isn't always happy - and i've never met a girl who is - don't be afraid of her and don't be stupid and always, unquestioningly, blame it on PMS. be there WITH her when times are tough and she wants you there.]

33. When walking on the sidewalk, always walk on the outside near traffic. (So everyone has a different opinion for how this started. For some, it's because of the human waste that was getting thrown out the windows when this was happening a century ago. The woman walked under the overhangings extending from the buildings with the guy in the open to take the mess if need be. Others say it's from the guy's scabbard/sword being on his left with the woman walking on the right. As for today, it's the traffic and puddles and what-not. Whatever it is. It's just a courtesy thing, if it seems necessary.)

34. At least do everything in your power to keep cursing to a minimum while around her. If you can, cut it out period while around her, or cut it out of your vocabulary. Women don't want to hear it, guys don't care about it, adults don't want to hear it, it doesn't impress employers, and you sure won't want your children or someone else's to hear it!

35. Sometimes you have to take the initiative. Don't always wait for her to come to you, because if that's how it always is, you're going to lose her.

36. If any lady is walking alone to her car in a dark parking lot/garage, or is carrying a heavy load, always offer to help walk her to her destination and carry things, if not the entire load. **This may work a lot better and come off non-stalkerish if you at least know the girl you're trying to help. Haha thanks to a LOT of people on this revision.**

37. If a woman says no, let that be her final answer with maybe one question of confirmation after her first answer. Do not pressure or force her in any way after that. Don't make her give in to something she doesn't want to do.

38. Always be honest with her. No woman wants or likes a dishonest man. If you can't be honest with her, she can't trust you, and shows you don't trust her enough to be honest. Trust, honesty and integrity are just as an integral part of a relationship and just as important as love.

39. A man should always genuinely listen to women; no matter how bored or busy the man is. Actively listening to the woman will keep him from pain (and bring the man and woman closer together). This works best, of course, when both the man and the woman actively and equally engage in conversation (this includes listening). For the ladies reading this, please talk - always talk - especially if you are having problems with the relationship and to also avoid making bigger problems.


Found this in a facebook group I joined. I agree to these, I am the guy who does all this.

~Voided Silhouette