city club in Detroit tonight.

so...if you are around and not at the Fillmore for State Theatre Bizarre (lol) come to the Leland

so...as of last week, we are on a break. i guess it's for the best, cause he needs to figure out his feelings for me. so i am pretty much stuck here, still loving him...not wanting anyone else.

people are trying to date me and...i don't really want to even put myself out there.

he says he still cares for me and that he misses me...so then i have to ask what the problem is?

went out to the club with my friend Sabrina and some of her pals last night. it was fun, but not having his arms to fall into at the end of the night sucked bigtime my electric blanket just isn't good enough!

so i guess i will be waiting for him to come to his senses...we'll see how long that lasts.





Me and Sabrina

so...a question for all the members of sg who pass by my blog:

how do you transform a relationship where he "is thinking about me and cares a lot about me" into one where he actually loves me. because i love him. i just hate to waste my time with someone who will just get tired of me or meet someone who really *sparks* with him.

is there just something that happens...that kindles this deeper love? we have been dating for 7 months. we have probably spent the last 4 weeks of nights together, we get along really well...our physical chemistry is good. i loooove to have sex with him. but there is just something that is holding him from falling in love. i guess it takes time for some people. i don't fucking know. i had a breakdown at work today...just worrying about it and being stressed out at work.

just curious about what some other people think...he is very nice to me and i am a great girlfriend. not sure what is missing...


thanks in advance for your thoughts.

your friend,

L.J.

NOTE: i just accepted over 40 friends on this site. are you one of my new friends? say hi!!

ha ha! things ended up being ok with the boy, i am pretty much in love with him. not that i can tell him that or anything yet. boys...*sigh* i am very happy though, i can only hope that it lasts.

so i stopped by here to check out Vivid's new set. i would advise that you do the same. it's quite sexy, like Vivid herself.

and yeah i modeled for a photographer...









fun times over here!

VIA TEXT:

him: we should talk soon also...kinda figured out what i am thinking about us

me:

dude...some words i never want to hear. i swear to god...those words make me physically ill.

so...i guess we'll see what happens. .....................

bored, lonely and waiting for something to happen...

what kind of life is this anyways

more stuff from the dirty show. these turned out much better, i hope you agree

and that may be all the pictures for now...sg is not posting them correctly.

in case you are reading this, and i am not sure who would even bother anymore...the photos above are of me and Vivid at the Dirty Show last weekend.

not having the internet at home anymore has cut my time on sg down to zero.

but i am still on facebook for 7 hours a day, so holla at me on there if you wanna talk about something.

hey there!

in my new apartment now, planning to have at least one visitor in time for the new year (Ilyaxous ahem) to take some photos of luxurious, fabulous Ferndale, Michigan. in the United States, near Detroit, for anyone that is curious.

still at Wayne. still doing Accounts Payable. still single, and lookin' to party, just like many of the girls out there. just in case you want to click me. go ahead.

or...maybe you are in detroit! catch me three times a week for lunchtime at Lefty's. or normally on the weekends at Gracie's. but it's Gracie's Underground in Ferndale.

this weekend...however, i will be at Santarchy, wearing the outfit pictured below. i am still crafting it now, but it will be awesome once i am finished
















hope you have a happy holiday!



xoxo,

L.

attention everyone!

Friend me on facebook! i am on and off there all day long at work, so help to entertain me with the minutia of your everyday lives. i know my crap is usually pretty entertaining...

also, there are a bunch of Dirty Show 10.5 pictures that i don't feel like resizing and putting up here...if you are interested in that kind of thing, anyways

busy with burlesque stuff, Rocky Horror and Halloween...

for the devil's night show at the blind pig, i will be appearing in several acts wearing a vinyl nurse outfit (which is so unbelieveably awesome and you are just going to have to trust me about that at this point) sedating various people as the acts progress. what can i say, i have lots of experience with syringes and meds. and i have white knee-high vinyl boots. oh yeah...

tomorrow comes soon *yawn*. see you on facebook!