Some kind soul reactivated my account so I am back 
Thank you stranger...standby for a major update in the world of me...
Thank you stranger...standby for a major update in the world of me...
My dad just had quadrupole bypass heart surgery and he is doing well.
The night before was hard because he called me on the phone, told me he loved me and to take care of my Mom if anything should happen to him. Having your father say goodbye to you "just in case" is not easy.
After that I only wanted to talk to one person and she didn't answer her phone.
The last half of this year has really sucked for me, fuck 2006, I am so ready for '07.
On a good note, I am going back to Seattle for the holidays, see my dad and family, good friends, and get out of LA for a week. Then I am driving back down to LA in a U-haul with some furniture my Uncle left me after he passed away. I honestly think an 1,100 mile drive is the best thing for me now. I need some time alone.
The night before was hard because he called me on the phone, told me he loved me and to take care of my Mom if anything should happen to him. Having your father say goodbye to you "just in case" is not easy.
After that I only wanted to talk to one person and she didn't answer her phone.
The last half of this year has really sucked for me, fuck 2006, I am so ready for '07.
On a good note, I am going back to Seattle for the holidays, see my dad and family, good friends, and get out of LA for a week. Then I am driving back down to LA in a U-haul with some furniture my Uncle left me after he passed away. I honestly think an 1,100 mile drive is the best thing for me now. I need some time alone.
The film has been going well, 21 days done so far, only 3 more to go. Long days, bad food, hard work, but what else is new. I have lost 17 pounds in the last 3 weeks, that shows how hard I have been working.
As far as my non-work life, things have been better. I just moved into a new apartment in North Hollywood because my roommate owed a lot of money in back rent and we got kicked out. Yay. On the good side, I do like my new place and I am looking forward to living alone again.
The past few months have taught me something about myself. I am way too understanding and calm when people do something bad to me. I have recently had people fuck with my love life, financial well being, living situation and friendships and I just seem to sit back and take it. Someone on the film commented to me how I always seem so calm and relaxed when the DP is yelling at me for no reason at all except his own stupidity.
I have decided to stand up for myself more. I need to stop being so fucking understanding towards other people and start speaking my mind. And from now on, if someone does something bad to me, they are going to hear about, I am tired of being the calm one. I have feelings too.
As far as my non-work life, things have been better. I just moved into a new apartment in North Hollywood because my roommate owed a lot of money in back rent and we got kicked out. Yay. On the good side, I do like my new place and I am looking forward to living alone again.
The past few months have taught me something about myself. I am way too understanding and calm when people do something bad to me. I have recently had people fuck with my love life, financial well being, living situation and friendships and I just seem to sit back and take it. Someone on the film commented to me how I always seem so calm and relaxed when the DP is yelling at me for no reason at all except his own stupidity.
I have decided to stand up for myself more. I need to stop being so fucking understanding towards other people and start speaking my mind. And from now on, if someone does something bad to me, they are going to hear about, I am tired of being the calm one. I have feelings too.
I just got a job as the dolly grip on a 24 day feature with Lance Henriksen, Edward Furlong, and some girl who is on the cover of Playboy.
Budget: $1,000,000+
24 days...12 locations...
My current happiness level...
Budget: $1,000,000+
24 days...12 locations...
My current happiness level...
INT. BEDROOM - NIGHT
Fade into our protagonist vikprez laying on his bed typing away on his white iMac laptop computer. His cat circles the room meowing franticly for her long awaited dinner. Suddenly his cell phone rings.
vikprez - Hello?
Leslie - Hey there, I know I told you after our date a couple days ago I didn't feel that connection I was looking for, but I'm tipsy and horny and I do think you are cute.
vikprez - Ok?
Leslie - Wanna come over?
vikprez - Yes please.
Leslie - Sweet! Here are directions to my place.
vikprez carefully writes down the directions on the only scrap piece of paper he can find with a pen that is struggling to produce ink.
Leslie - See you soon.
vikprez hangs up his cell phone. Camera circles room as vikprez does the booty call shuffle while he exits his bedroom.
FADE OUT
INT. CAR - NIGHT
vikprez speeds up the 5-North when suddenly his cell phone beeps. He anxiously reaches for his phone to reveal a text message. "Sorry, going to bed, maybe some other time."
vikprez calmly lights a cigarette, turns on the radio and leans back to enjoy the ride back home to his cat, still waiting for dinner.
FADE OUT
In other new, a boyhood dream came true for me today and will continue tomorrow. I am working on an episode of Star Trek...HOLY FUCK! There is a new online series featuring actors from the original series being produced right now.
For those of you who don't know, I was the 12 year old geek dressed as a Klingon for Halloween and various Star Trek conventions that you used to make fun off. Tomorrow I will meet George Takai (Sulu) and Grace Lee Whitney(Yeoman Rand)
Holy hell...I am happy right now! Except for another failed dating experience that is.
Fade into our protagonist vikprez laying on his bed typing away on his white iMac laptop computer. His cat circles the room meowing franticly for her long awaited dinner. Suddenly his cell phone rings.
vikprez - Hello?
Leslie - Hey there, I know I told you after our date a couple days ago I didn't feel that connection I was looking for, but I'm tipsy and horny and I do think you are cute.
vikprez - Ok?
Leslie - Wanna come over?
vikprez - Yes please.
Leslie - Sweet! Here are directions to my place.
vikprez carefully writes down the directions on the only scrap piece of paper he can find with a pen that is struggling to produce ink.
Leslie - See you soon.
vikprez hangs up his cell phone. Camera circles room as vikprez does the booty call shuffle while he exits his bedroom.
FADE OUT
INT. CAR - NIGHT
vikprez speeds up the 5-North when suddenly his cell phone beeps. He anxiously reaches for his phone to reveal a text message. "Sorry, going to bed, maybe some other time."
vikprez calmly lights a cigarette, turns on the radio and leans back to enjoy the ride back home to his cat, still waiting for dinner.
FADE OUT
In other new, a boyhood dream came true for me today and will continue tomorrow. I am working on an episode of Star Trek...HOLY FUCK! There is a new online series featuring actors from the original series being produced right now.
For those of you who don't know, I was the 12 year old geek dressed as a Klingon for Halloween and various Star Trek conventions that you used to make fun off. Tomorrow I will meet George Takai (Sulu) and Grace Lee Whitney(Yeoman Rand)
Holy hell...I am happy right now! Except for another failed dating experience that is.
One of the best days of my life was September 22, 1993. I was 11 years old and my mom bought me and her tickets to go to a Seattle Mariners baseball game in the Kingdome. We intentional bought these tickets because it was a game against the Texas Rangers and Nolan Ryan, one of the best pitchers in baseball history was scheduled to be the starting pitcher for the Rangers. Before the season had begun, Nolan Ryan announced his plan to retire at the end of the season. The was supposed to be his last game ever pitching in Seattle.
Our tickets were right above the Texas Rangers bullpen and about 30 minutes before the game, Nolan Ryan left his dugout and started walking towards the bullpen to warm up. As soon as he exited, nearly 41,000 people gave him a standing ovation. He tipped his cap towards the crowd before he started to warm-up, and after his first pitch, the crowd erupted again.
As he left the bullpen to return to the dugout, he recieved his second standing ovation.
The Rangers were up in the top of the first inning and I don't remember what happened because I was anxiously awaiting to see Ryan pitch against my favorite and home town team.
In the bottom of the first inning, Ryan exited his dugout to walk to the mound and he recieved his 3rd standing ovation. Even though he was "the enemy", everyone in Seattle was there to see his final game in our town. He began to pitch, the Mariners got 2 hits, then Ryan walked the next 4 batters walking in 2 runs. The bases were loaded with no outs when Dann Howitt hit a grand slam off Nolan Ryan. The score was now 6-0 in the first inning.
He attempted one more pitch to the next batter, but the previous pitch caused Ryan to tear a ligiment in his shoulder. Even after tearing a ligiment, his final pitch was 98 miles per hour. The trainers for the Texas Rangers came out and took him out of the game. As he walked slowly to the dugout, again, he received another standing ovation, his 4th. The entire Kingdome crowd continued to cheer for him as the relief pitcher warmed up. Just as the game was about the resume, Nolan Ryan exited the dogout, held his hat up towards the crowd as a thank you, and turned a circle looking around the entire opposing stadium clapping for him.
He never played a professional game of baseball again. I was lucky enough to see Nolan Ryan's final game and I will never forget that day watching baseball with my Mom and 41,000 other people.
Our tickets were right above the Texas Rangers bullpen and about 30 minutes before the game, Nolan Ryan left his dugout and started walking towards the bullpen to warm up. As soon as he exited, nearly 41,000 people gave him a standing ovation. He tipped his cap towards the crowd before he started to warm-up, and after his first pitch, the crowd erupted again.
As he left the bullpen to return to the dugout, he recieved his second standing ovation.
The Rangers were up in the top of the first inning and I don't remember what happened because I was anxiously awaiting to see Ryan pitch against my favorite and home town team.
In the bottom of the first inning, Ryan exited his dugout to walk to the mound and he recieved his 3rd standing ovation. Even though he was "the enemy", everyone in Seattle was there to see his final game in our town. He began to pitch, the Mariners got 2 hits, then Ryan walked the next 4 batters walking in 2 runs. The bases were loaded with no outs when Dann Howitt hit a grand slam off Nolan Ryan. The score was now 6-0 in the first inning.
He attempted one more pitch to the next batter, but the previous pitch caused Ryan to tear a ligiment in his shoulder. Even after tearing a ligiment, his final pitch was 98 miles per hour. The trainers for the Texas Rangers came out and took him out of the game. As he walked slowly to the dugout, again, he received another standing ovation, his 4th. The entire Kingdome crowd continued to cheer for him as the relief pitcher warmed up. Just as the game was about the resume, Nolan Ryan exited the dogout, held his hat up towards the crowd as a thank you, and turned a circle looking around the entire opposing stadium clapping for him.
He never played a professional game of baseball again. I was lucky enough to see Nolan Ryan's final game and I will never forget that day watching baseball with my Mom and 41,000 other people.
FYI...alcohol, pot and muscle relaxers do not cure depression, but it does give you a nice buzz.
Lately I have had no appetite. I mean none. I haven't really eaten anything for several days.
I am going to a movie premeire on Tuesday for a film I worked on as the Transportation Coordinator.
Tomorrow I am going to a play kickball and I am going to a gun range with my neighbor. I have never fired a real gun before and am looking forward to it. He has been wanting me to go with him for awhile so it should be fun.
My financial situation is looking good...I have 2 opportunities coming up which could make life alot easier, at least easier on the wallet. I just need to make sure one of the opportunities is totally legal. I mean, it's legal, at least on the state level...
It's very hard to get your mind off a girl when you meet 2 girls with the same name within two days, especially since one of them was wearing an SG hoodie.
Lately I have had no appetite. I mean none. I haven't really eaten anything for several days.
I am going to a movie premeire on Tuesday for a film I worked on as the Transportation Coordinator.
Tomorrow I am going to a play kickball and I am going to a gun range with my neighbor. I have never fired a real gun before and am looking forward to it. He has been wanting me to go with him for awhile so it should be fun.
My financial situation is looking good...I have 2 opportunities coming up which could make life alot easier, at least easier on the wallet. I just need to make sure one of the opportunities is totally legal. I mean, it's legal, at least on the state level...
It's very hard to get your mind off a girl when you meet 2 girls with the same name within two days, especially since one of them was wearing an SG hoodie.
Fuck
why does this hurt so much.
I have so much I could say to her but don't really see the point, it's not going to make her change her mind.
That whole "some things are worth fighting for" is great in theory
I now have one regret though, and that does suck. Not something I did, but something I should have done.
Enough of that, going to try and move on.
To try and get my mind off things, I went for a drive and drove past a film set with one of these.... It was so bright 90,000 watts, 15 individual 6,000 watt lighting fixture each remotely operated from the base of the truck. That made me smile.
Since I have been getting more and more into listening to my music, I rediscovered a CD from some friends band back in high school and the lyrics seem to fit my mood very well.
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You and I,
we were meant to be
Is that something your eyes can't even see
That your drifting from my memories,
memories,
memories
Why do you give your love away?
All I ask is for another day,
You and I,
we were meant to be,
meant to be,
meant to be
Now I wonder why we go to this
And I'm thinking it's that is love and it's sad to kiss
I want to be your man so I can hold you and squeeze you,
And now I heard your voice and I know that I need you,
I say these words and I know that you hear it,
You talk about pain and you know that I feel it,
You push me away but I know that you see me,
I tell you I love you, I hope you believe me
How's that for pathetic?
I have so much I could say to her but don't really see the point, it's not going to make her change her mind.
That whole "some things are worth fighting for" is great in theory
I now have one regret though, and that does suck. Not something I did, but something I should have done.
Enough of that, going to try and move on.
To try and get my mind off things, I went for a drive and drove past a film set with one of these.... It was so bright 90,000 watts, 15 individual 6,000 watt lighting fixture each remotely operated from the base of the truck. That made me smile.
Since I have been getting more and more into listening to my music, I rediscovered a CD from some friends band back in high school and the lyrics seem to fit my mood very well.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
You and I,
we were meant to be
Is that something your eyes can't even see
That your drifting from my memories,
memories,
memories
Why do you give your love away?
All I ask is for another day,
You and I,
we were meant to be,
meant to be,
meant to be
Now I wonder why we go to this
And I'm thinking it's that is love and it's sad to kiss
I want to be your man so I can hold you and squeeze you,
And now I heard your voice and I know that I need you,
I say these words and I know that you hear it,
You talk about pain and you know that I feel it,
You push me away but I know that you see me,
I tell you I love you, I hope you believe me
How's that for pathetic?
So much on my mind, no one to talk to.
I guess it's true that some things are too good to be true.
Since my birthday, I have really been thinking about my life and what I am doing...changes I want to make...I have become oddly more creative, writing and enjoying music more.
I want a motorcycle since I just got my motorcycle license and I want to bring my car down to LA to begin restoring it, I need something in my life to focus on. I'm pathetic and really have no hobbies anymore...work, sleep, look for work, sleep, and all over again. I used to be a really good trumpet player, made models, worked on cars, and now I don't.
I eat too many hamburgers and watch too much TV.
It's time for a change of sorts I think.
Sitting...stoned...trying not to cry...
I guess it's true that some things are too good to be true.
Since my birthday, I have really been thinking about my life and what I am doing...changes I want to make...I have become oddly more creative, writing and enjoying music more.
I want a motorcycle since I just got my motorcycle license and I want to bring my car down to LA to begin restoring it, I need something in my life to focus on. I'm pathetic and really have no hobbies anymore...work, sleep, look for work, sleep, and all over again. I used to be a really good trumpet player, made models, worked on cars, and now I don't.
I eat too many hamburgers and watch too much TV.
It's time for a change of sorts I think.
Sitting...stoned...trying not to cry...
This week I worked as an electrician on "General Hospital" and "So You Think You Can Dance." I worked the stage wrap out for "So You Think You Can Dance" pulling up almost 3 miles of 4/O power cable which is nicknamed "Horse Cock"....it's long, thick and black. About the size of your forearm, my arms are still sore from wrapping all the cable.
I got hit on the head from a falling light on the set on General Hospital and nearly had a 20 foot long piece of steel grid pipe fall on me when they were lowering the lighting truss...sometimes I forget how dangerous this job can be.
At least I got paid well...very well.
I got hit on the head from a falling light on the set on General Hospital and nearly had a 20 foot long piece of steel grid pipe fall on me when they were lowering the lighting truss...sometimes I forget how dangerous this job can be.
At least I got paid well...very well.
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