Digging my way back to Suicidegirls.
Thinking of a change, even with my name, I think Vide0dr0me has run his course.
See you soon.
Thinking of a change, even with my name, I think Vide0dr0me has run his course.
See you soon.
I know I'm very late to the show but goddamn
Game Of Thrones is an amazing show, I am sucked into it, I wanna read the books, hang the poster of the world on my wall and get a Stark family crest tattoo!
Nothing new has been going on besides getting my ass kicked at work and wishing I could find another job elsewhere.
I have a 10 day vacation in October. I am thinking of a road trip, If there any SG's or members that live in the midwest that would to hang out from October 13-20 let me know, I love meeting new people!
The ever lovely Tovi has a new set out.
Into The Wild
I'm not going to lie I'd envy anybody wants to get to hang out with this amazing girl on a daily basis, and NOT just because she has huge boobs. lol She's just a real sweetheart and rare kind indeed.
I have fallen in love with this band, Electric Six they are so catchy and goofy.
They are coming my way in November, I might just have to check them out.
I am still single but it doesn't bother me really, just focusing on me and I won't settle for anyone sub-par. I am 25 and I'm not longer into silly love games, I want the real thing or nothing at all. So yes, Ladies I am free.
I am still trying to write again but I have terrible writer's block. It sucks.
I need to break out of this funk and live my life again and not go through this boring cycle.
See you space cowboy.
Game Of Thrones is an amazing show, I am sucked into it, I wanna read the books, hang the poster of the world on my wall and get a Stark family crest tattoo!
Nothing new has been going on besides getting my ass kicked at work and wishing I could find another job elsewhere.
I have a 10 day vacation in October. I am thinking of a road trip, If there any SG's or members that live in the midwest that would to hang out from October 13-20 let me know, I love meeting new people!
The ever lovely Tovi has a new set out.
Into The Wild
I'm not going to lie I'd envy anybody wants to get to hang out with this amazing girl on a daily basis, and NOT just because she has huge boobs. lol She's just a real sweetheart and rare kind indeed.
I have fallen in love with this band, Electric Six they are so catchy and goofy.
They are coming my way in November, I might just have to check them out.
I am still single but it doesn't bother me really, just focusing on me and I won't settle for anyone sub-par. I am 25 and I'm not longer into silly love games, I want the real thing or nothing at all. So yes, Ladies I am free.
I am still trying to write again but I have terrible writer's block. It sucks.
I need to break out of this funk and live my life again and not go through this boring cycle.
See you space cowboy.
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
The woman I was seeing for the past 2 months has been cheating on me! What the fuck bitch!?
I am not even sad, I'm just pissed!!!!
The woman I was seeing for the past 2 months has been cheating on me! What the fuck bitch!?
I am not even sad, I'm just pissed!!!!
You know I had written a great blog but then the computer crashed and I lost it all. 
So here's some pictures of me
Sigh...now off to work.
So here's some pictures of me
Sigh...now off to work.
Real or Fiction. This shit will scare you to the core. I actually had nightmares about it last night.
Something like that
As a child the only time I spent with my father was doing work out in the hot sun. I despise that I was never taken to a sports game or fishing or the typical father-son activities. My hatred of not having that turned on my father and I began to resent a man who just wanted the best for me. My mother wanted me to be a beloved young man with the moral teachings of Christ. Unfortunately for her this direct action led to my doubt and then dismissal of a God and of my mother’s good intentions. I turned to cinema, the art of talking pictures inside a rectangular box as my only pleasure and escape for a long time. I vicariously lived through action heroes, misfits, outcasts, loners, villains and everything in between. Years passed of the same routine. The Back breaking work with my father whom I only began to see as a man who I worked for, a foreman or supervisor than a dad and my mother’s blind devotion to a radical sect of Christianity that punished free thought and ideals, this was my life until I was 18.
In school, I used my quick wit and self-indulging humor to connect to people, even though I am afraid to get close to people, I never learned how, I still don’t. I often speak words of encouragement to people, telling them dreams are not impossible and have the guts to take the dive. It’s funny, I don’t even believe in myself, is that a practice what you preach kinda thing? I want to be a filmmaker, tell stories so I can connect with people, inspired and entertain them yet I am likely to be another nobody among the sea of no ones.
And what about love? I’ve given into temptation and lust so much I lost count. It’s not that I conscious seek it out, it just happens to me. When I try to love, I try too hard. I push too hard, too soon and I scared them away, they brand me a stalker, a creep, a freak, I’m sure a few of you could be witness to that, it’s pathetic. It’s my worse flaw but please from the bottom of my heart know I mention it with best intentions to be a good man, someone you could grow with. Yet I fucked it all up by invading the bubble, even after your warning. I am sorry. Good intentions? My father reminds me that the road to Hell is paved with good intentions, does Hell exist and what about God? I like to believe there is something beyond this reality, I am not some angry atheist that thinks religion and the existence of God is stupid and trite but I seriously question it. If God is all powerful and controls the universe than why does he allow child to be slaughter? People to die from horrible diseases and leave us in the dark, maybe that’s faith, maybe it’s just bullshit.
When you get older the more things you have to leave behind, that’s life. What I see from television I have nothing but when I see the world as a whole I have so much, maybe I should give some back? It's hard for me to judge people when I haven’t been in there shoes and it's hard for them... not to judge me when they read these words. Easier to blame myself for everything.
Yeah, something like that.
As a child the only time I spent with my father was doing work out in the hot sun. I despise that I was never taken to a sports game or fishing or the typical father-son activities. My hatred of not having that turned on my father and I began to resent a man who just wanted the best for me. My mother wanted me to be a beloved young man with the moral teachings of Christ. Unfortunately for her this direct action led to my doubt and then dismissal of a God and of my mother’s good intentions. I turned to cinema, the art of talking pictures inside a rectangular box as my only pleasure and escape for a long time. I vicariously lived through action heroes, misfits, outcasts, loners, villains and everything in between. Years passed of the same routine. The Back breaking work with my father whom I only began to see as a man who I worked for, a foreman or supervisor than a dad and my mother’s blind devotion to a radical sect of Christianity that punished free thought and ideals, this was my life until I was 18.
In school, I used my quick wit and self-indulging humor to connect to people, even though I am afraid to get close to people, I never learned how, I still don’t. I often speak words of encouragement to people, telling them dreams are not impossible and have the guts to take the dive. It’s funny, I don’t even believe in myself, is that a practice what you preach kinda thing? I want to be a filmmaker, tell stories so I can connect with people, inspired and entertain them yet I am likely to be another nobody among the sea of no ones.
And what about love? I’ve given into temptation and lust so much I lost count. It’s not that I conscious seek it out, it just happens to me. When I try to love, I try too hard. I push too hard, too soon and I scared them away, they brand me a stalker, a creep, a freak, I’m sure a few of you could be witness to that, it’s pathetic. It’s my worse flaw but please from the bottom of my heart know I mention it with best intentions to be a good man, someone you could grow with. Yet I fucked it all up by invading the bubble, even after your warning. I am sorry. Good intentions? My father reminds me that the road to Hell is paved with good intentions, does Hell exist and what about God? I like to believe there is something beyond this reality, I am not some angry atheist that thinks religion and the existence of God is stupid and trite but I seriously question it. If God is all powerful and controls the universe than why does he allow child to be slaughter? People to die from horrible diseases and leave us in the dark, maybe that’s faith, maybe it’s just bullshit.
When you get older the more things you have to leave behind, that’s life. What I see from television I have nothing but when I see the world as a whole I have so much, maybe I should give some back? It's hard for me to judge people when I haven’t been in there shoes and it's hard for them... not to judge me when they read these words. Easier to blame myself for everything.
Yeah, something like that.
Not a bad way to spend $40
The Deftones were solid and played their best hits. System Of A Down killed it! The playlist was amazing!
(No Order)
-Prison Song
-Soldier Side
-BYOB
-Needles
-Deer Dance
-Chop Suey!
-Forest
-Psycho
-Suite-Pee (with The Deftones too!)
-War?
-Suggestions
-Sugar
-Dreaming
-Kill Rock N' Roll
-Hypnotize
-Holy Mountains
-Lonely Day
-Cigaro
-Radio/Video
-Bounce
-Lost In Hollywood
-Aerials
-Toxicity
-Revenga
And I want to show you my kids!
Molly (Dog) and Enzo (Kitty)
Personally I've been depressed a lot lately, I think it's just a mix of loneliness, stress and lack of a good nights sleep and no sex. It's been a few months. There was someone I was interested in and I think they just used me, I gave them my heart and she took everything and said nothing.
It's easy for me to judge her when I don't know her whole story and it's hard for me... not to judge myself Easier to blame the one in the mirror, at least I understand him.
Yeah, something like that.
But tomorrow is another day.
The Deftones were solid and played their best hits. System Of A Down killed it! The playlist was amazing!
(No Order)
-Prison Song
-Soldier Side
-BYOB
-Needles
-Deer Dance
-Chop Suey!
-Forest
-Psycho
-Suite-Pee (with The Deftones too!)
-War?
-Suggestions
-Sugar
-Dreaming
-Kill Rock N' Roll
-Hypnotize
-Holy Mountains
-Lonely Day
-Cigaro
-Radio/Video
-Bounce
-Lost In Hollywood
-Aerials
-Toxicity
-Revenga
And I want to show you my kids!
Molly (Dog) and Enzo (Kitty)
Personally I've been depressed a lot lately, I think it's just a mix of loneliness, stress and lack of a good nights sleep and no sex. It's been a few months. There was someone I was interested in and I think they just used me, I gave them my heart and she took everything and said nothing.
It's easy for me to judge her when I don't know her whole story and it's hard for me... not to judge myself Easier to blame the one in the mirror, at least I understand him.
Yeah, something like that.
But tomorrow is another day.
