Hey Everyone-
Hope all had a wonderful Halloween! I just love it, it's my favorite holiday. I as all pysched this year to wear a costume which one of my wonderful SG g/f's here made, yet I didn't get the opportunity. Long story, but I was helping a friend in the hospital (much more important)-oh well, there's always next year!
I think I'm going to end up putting on the costume and taking some pics, just for the hell of it, because it is SOOOO AWESOME-and I'd love to send my g/f pics of her wonderful creation. Besides, it's always fun to do something off the wall and stir up some shit, like going shopping in costume for no apparent reason, especially here where I live-where the people are all so F*CKING MUNDANE-it makes me insane!!!!!! I swear, when I left New York to relocate to this particular area in Florida, I had no clue I was about to enter the Twilight Zone!
Anyway, hope all my loves and sweethearts are doing well-I'd love to hear about your Halloween (and see pics if possible), so I can live vicariously through you at least for this year. But have no fear-I WILL BE BACK!!!!

I'm going to try and keep on top of my blogs more as well, so that everyone knows (at least the ones who care, LOL) that I'm still alive and doing fine. My biggest problem is just a bit of a love issue at the moment-but I'll work through it, I'm sure!
Miss you guys-write me! And if anyone on here has a MySpace account, write me and let me know what your URL is, so I can add you to my friends list. I'm on MySpace ALL the time. Yes, I'm a MySpace Whore, I'll admit it! LOL.
Love to you all! Talk to you soon. Big Hugz and Luscious Kisses!

Hey there everybody! After I wrote my blog last night, I thought about it alot. I hope I didn't bum anybody out in anyway-that certainly was not my intent. I really just wanted all my friends to know, where I've been, what's been going on, and apologizing if I neglected anyones messages during my "momentary lapse of reason". So I guess I have to apologize now AGAIN, if I did bum anybody out-I'm really sorry. But as you'll see, as you get to know me better, I'm kind of a straight, upfront, in your face sort of person. I've always been that way-I just feel that regardless of how crappy the news might be sometimes, the truth is always the best road taken, and we all know that at times the truth can hurt!
So please just accept me for who and how I am, and again, I will ask that no one fret what I had written in that email. I don't know why it's happening to me, but it is-and it is not for me to question why. Everything happens for a reason, and I'm still a firm believer in that; eventually I'll find out why.
So forgive me, love me, accept me and go have a fuckin great day for goodness sake!
Luv & Hugz
Laura (The Incredible Shrinking Brain, LOL)

Hey everyone, it's been awhile, I know-but I had some more medical issues to deal with. Just to give everyone a little heads up as to what's been going on with me; over the course of the last several years I had been experiencing some very odd symptoms to which any Dr. I went to had no explanation for. So, they started taking MRI's of my head/brain, because chronic fatigue, headaches and other things were involved. Well, it has finally been definatively determined that I have what is called "Cortical Atrophy". To put it simply, it means that my brain is reducing in size (shrinking, if you will), which they tell me will lead to early onset Alzheimers (for which we all know there is no cure) and of course the inevitable death. What is baffling everyone is that it is happening to someone of my age-normally this is only seen in patients who are usually 70+, but that's my kind of luck-if it's bizzarre enough, guaranteed I'll make the record books and become the test study for something like this.
So, I hope that everyone understands now why I haven't really kept in touch like I enjoy doing. I had to run through the cycle of emotions: shock, pity, depression, confusion and acceptance. So now I'm at the point where I've just decided to forge ahead, I cannot control or change this (there may be a medication to slow it down some, but that would be my best bet. Thankfully it's not progressing rapidly) so all I can do is live every single day as happily as I can, live it to the fullest-like it might be my last.
It's funny how something like this happens and suddenly you just enjoy the simplest things. I had an account a while back on MySpace, but I had closed it-but now in the wake of this new surprise for me, I've realized that I did make quite a few very, very good friends there and I want them back in my life again. So, I reopened my account, and much to my surprise my friends list is growing like wild fire, it feels so good to talk to old friends and catch up.
Well, it's now a little after midnite here and I'm a bit on the tired side, so I'm going to say Good Nite to everyone. But I did want all my friends here to know that I haven't just forgotten you, I've just had alot to deal with over the last month and a half or so, so I'm hoping my lack of communication is forgiven.
I also want to leave you all tonite with the advice that I am now living by: Live Every Day Like It's Your Last, Enjoy Everything You Possibly Can and Most Definately Don't Sweat the Small Stuff. You never know what lies ahead guys-honestly!
Well I love you all and I'll try to keep in touch much more now. And I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me, ok? It's something that happened, why, I don't know, but I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason-so the best thing you could do for me at this point is just take my advice and keep in touch. I love the friends I've made here and want to continue getting to know all of you much better.
Love ya's!

Hey everybody, how's it going? Hope everyone is doing well. I've finally returned from the "Land of the Lost". I know I've been scarce lately. Haven't written much here, haven't written much to anyone personally, but I hope everyone can forgive and understand that I was going through a difficult time AGAIN.
You all know about the condition that I have and how I suffer with that miserable crap everyday, right? Well, a little while ago, I started experiencing some very strange things happening to me; i.e. blurred vision, everything going white and losing sight (momentarily), extreme pain from the base of my head/top of my neck-shooting in an arc across the top of my head to right behind my eye and it feels like I'm getting stabbed there with a hot poker, numbness/tingling in my limbs, hands & feet, suddenly having an eyelid involuntarily decide it wants to close and "go to sleep" and I can't open it (both eyes, but mostly the right), etc.-you get the idea, this list could go on and on. Well obviously they sent me for head tests and MRI's and today I finally got to the Neurologist, got my results and while I am worried, I am very relieved at the same time. Apparently there is a swelling around the nerves just at the base of my head, which seems to swell when I get stressed, excited, etc. and I am losing the proper flow to my brain, at different times and different places-causing all these freaky symptoms. Hopefully, it can be treated through medication, therapy and shots to the base of my head in the nerves to the brain.
So, if I seem like I've been "distant" lately, trust me, I miss each and every one of you very much, but didn't want to write for many reasons. I don't like anyone to think I"m complaining, I didn't want to worry anyone needlessly, and I really didn't want everyone to have to be asking how things were going, when everything was always the same and I didn't have any real answers for anyone. So, I hope all if forgiven-I'M BACK GUYS! And feeling a whole helluva a lot better now knowing what I'm dealing with.
So that's pretty much all that's been going on in the exciting life of Laura lately-what's been going on with everyone else? Drop me a line and let me know how all you guys are doing. I'm going to do my best now to try and drop everyone a line, at least to say Hi-but just wanted to give a general update for anyone who might give a crap, LOL!

Well, it seems like forever since I've written, so I decided, what better time than now, while I'm feeling pretty good and actually feel like I can sit here for a while.
I've been so busy lately, doing alot of taking care of Laura things and it seems like I'm forever on the message boards giving people advice, I forget to jump on here and let all my friends know what's been going on.
Well, since I've written last I got 2 new tattooes (2 purple stars-one above each breast), I got my nose pierced (just a stud through the nostril) and my navel re-pierced.
Tonite since I'm feeling pretty good, I think I'm going to get my left nipple pierced and possibly my tongue or eyebrow (undecided on that yet, and usually when I'm not too sure, I wait) and I'm going to check out what my guy is going to charge me to have the SG Logo tattooed (so might go ahead and get that too). I will certainly let you all know what I've done and take some pics and get em up there for all to see.
Hope everyone is doing well, reading everyone's blogs and seems like everybody is just crazy busy lately!
I've been thinking alot about back home (NY), and how much I miss it, I think I'm going to have to schedule a trip REAL soon. I need it. It's that NY fix, you gotta get it or you'll die! LOL
So that's what I've been up to. Oh, and I've been buying the coolest jewelry from SG Noir. She sells on here and has a website (not sure if it's officially opened yet) called FreezeDriedEvil.com Her jewelry is amazing, as is she-I love her to pieces!! Try and check her stuff out-everything she has definately makes a statement!
Well gotta run-I'm hearing that ink gun hummin already!
Talk to you all again soon. Luv ya!

Hey all my luvs. How's everyone doing? I've been sick and going through hell the last few days. What a nightmare. Don't really want to elaborate too much here, if anyone wants to know, drop a line and I'll fill ya in. But what's got me today more than anything, is that I really, really wish I had a girlfriend, for some serious holding, touching, loving, kissing, cuddling time. I want that more than anything right now and pray for it all the time and just don't know what to do! It's becoming so frustrating. There are 2 girls here that I'd LOVE to be with, and 1 in particular, and I think they know who they are. But, ::sigh:: we don't talk to each other nearly as much as I'd like, so I don't even know if I'm barking up the wrong tree.
I know this may sound foolish/desperate, but if there are any girls out there in the same boat as I am, please feel free to drop me a line, talk, so we can get to know one another and maybe, just maybe there'd be that "spark" and we could hook up somehow. Getting out and finding people here is tough for me. I don't even know where or how to begin.
Maybe I'll just lay down and take a nap for an hour or so, and hopefully I'll wake up and this unfulfilled feeling will have subsided some. At least I hope so. Cause this just sucks, after going through what I've gone through this past week, and feeling so shitty and now this crappy feeling of not having that sensual touch, that I know I can only get from another woman-has just left me feeling icky!
Hope I didn't bring anybody down, sorry, just how I'm feeling right now.
Guess I'll just write again, when I'm in a better mood, so as not to drag any of you poor guys into my muck! But, thanx for listening.
Hope everybody else is doing better than I am. Luv ya!

Hey everybody, just checkin in to say Hi! Haven't been on as much as I'd like to, but the condition (disability) I have has just been kickin my ass! For anyone who is curious, it's not an outwardly visible disability, it's a condition called fibromyalgia. It's a pressure point disorder, which causes pain in every pressure point in your body (and I think there are like 152 of them!). There are good days and bad days and various things can set the bad days in motion, along with this comes another wonderful disorder known as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. But enough of that crap! I hate dwelling on it-I think the new medication cocktail I'm on seems to be doing the trick finally (hell, it's only been 3 yrs. of freaking trial and error-I guess that's why they call it "Practicing Medicine"!) On a happier note, I've just gotten 2 new tattooes and should be going for 2 more next week. Will post pics as soon as they are complete and healed.
Basically, I mentioned my condition, in the event that someone else out there has it, is trying to deal with someone who has it, or just wants any info or to just talk to me about it. Please feel free. It's one of those silent, but incurable diseases-and I've found alot more people than I've expected have it, but there isn't a whole lot of info about it, at least until recently anyway. It is finally getting the recognition it deserves! Well Happy Hump Day all, and I'll talk to you tomorrow! Luv ya!