well i'm on the road again.
its almost been a year since i updated.
i got evicted this month, WTF its -30 out there (landlords = asshole)
my subscription runs out next month
but you might see me becoming a SG in the new year...

Later days <3

so in the last week ive been to the hospital 3 times, and to 2 different doctors, got a bunch of test taken to see whats wrong with me. so hopefully its fixable and not too serious

heres some pics i took today, they arent great but im just happy to have got out and shoot some
- i downsized them all so they wouldnt stretch the screen or get cut off-












hmm in other news i REALLY want this truck. no seriously.

1957 Chevrolet Pickup Truck Cameo


my bangs are so out of control in this picture haha i cut them shortly after cause they were driving me crazy


ok better blog soon...

ive been sick for the last week
pretty much having no life except for sleeping, watching movies, listening to music, sitting out on the porch in the sun and talking online in the nights, how thrilling?
NOT

im happy its sunny out though makes things more enjoyable

anyways heres pictures just because?

new camera











ya ok thats all

im offically 1 year older
but none the wiser.

actually i learned a lot this year, about myself, about what i dont want to be, about friendships, about the healing process after pain , about self worth.

and im trying so hard to start fresh , and to stop with my problems, and i guess the first step in fixing those problems is acknowledging i have them right, so im on the right path.

anyways finally got my babeh.




i have so much to learn before i go to thialand


ohh i also went on a tour of the house i will be hopefully moving into in august, great enviroment, its spacious, clean and has amazing art everywhere! plus all the people that live there are artist or activist, its pretty sweet

2 concerts, 1 awsome weekend

saturday night i saw VNV Nation & AND one
and that was so good i almost creamed my panties!
no seriously, the autmosphere was amazing and everyone was dancing and working up a sweat

VNV Nations new cd judgement is really good but i prefer their older stuff better, like Matter + Form, empires, and Futureperfect

i cried when they played standing, i just had so much emotion going through me haha

and one's set was so perfect. i was mad that they didnt bring merch cause its hard to get their stuff over here

ANDDDDDD.
i met Steve before the show and i almost died, he was in a hurst infront of the venue haha
and may i also just add that he is so incredibly good looking 0.0

no pictures from this show because they didnt allow cameras

but i did get 2 pretty pictures of the city



and then saturday was subhumans UK show,
seriously best show in a long time



















andddd im so cool that i met and chilled with dick



so ya it was pretty fucking intense that i got to see 2 of my favourite bands in one weekend haha

today its going to be as simple as:
1) i quit my job, let the 14 day countdown begin
2) i went to get my drivers licence, something i thought i would NEVER apply for, but i got it, the first level anyways


3)
No- name KD is keeping me alive right now, yay for cheap student budget

im creating a visual image from these poem lines

"I cannot rest from travel: I will drink
Life to the lees: All times I have enjoy'd
Greatly, have suffer'd greatly, both with those
That loved me, and alone, on shore, and when
Thro' scudding drifts the rainy Hyades
Vext the dim sea"

and i need help

i have the idea of a wine bottle being life itself, but i dont know what to put around it or behind it.. like waves? or roses/skulls?


i have this so far, dont laugh i told you i have no talent


any ideas? this is for a school project i have to pick a poem that is close to me and make a visual ..and when it comes to sketching and drawing im challanged but if this turns out good i might bring it to a tattoo artist and get them to work on it and get it inked on me, as the life tattoo i mentioned before

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anyways im looking into these artist...

http://www.cottage13.com/

http://www.passage.ws/

http://bobbyfive.com/

http://www.tat-a-rama.com/

http://www.myspace.com/tcbtoronto

http://toratattoo.com/

http://www.nighthawktattoo.com/

http://www.yongesttattoos.com/

http://sinfulinflictions.com/index2.html

http://www.stingertattoo.com/Main.htm

if anyone has any stories, information or experiences with any of them, good or bad, please tell me, i need input on deciding..

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on a side note i tried bleeching my hair last night

and my efforts failed misrably. so i have to get another box, i should have known better then to think i could go from black to blond that fast, kindda extreme.

and i cut a lot off today



















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other then that not much going on, im indulging in a lot of candy >.>
and my boy is still being distant, but i wrote him a letter, and the words seem to have gotten all fucked up

i want this kid, this is by far the best part of my day,,,
http://s26.photobucket.com/albums/c133/A7Xgrl/?action=view&current=kassie3.flv

i have no clue what coulor to dye my hair
ideas?

so much has happened in the last two weeks, and like the weather, i feel change coming my way.

1) im focusing in school more

2) new tattoo ideas

first of all, i want to get my Zodiac Sign, which is Taurus, i want to get a design that is somewhat feminine but still inforces how strong i am , anyone know anywhere where i can find images that incorporate both? im having a really hard time finding something i like

and i was wondering if anyone had any impowering sayings that show how important it is to love live, and treasure it because it could be gone tommrow..

my main idea for that one is getting "Carpe Diem"



3) im reading up on buddhism, and i think i may have finally found a religion i can have faith in, which is empowering and enlightening. so i believe i am going to get a few more books to read, practice meditating, visit a temple, and try to follow the middle path. OHH and i might be going with a group to thailand for 17 days in july which i think could really help me figure out who i am and what i want in life to a greater extent then i already know.



4) im quitting smoking
hopefully for good this time
5 years has damaged my lungs good enough, i shouldn't poison my body anymore with black tar


5) quitting my job within the next few weeks


6) spring cleaning going to do some major changes to my pad! going to DE-clutter

7) im going to tell the guy im involved with that im always going to be here for him no matter what and that i care for him a lot, but its hurting me too much by him pushing me away and distancing himself ,and although i may like him, i most diffently love myself more. so im going to give the guy some space, to think about what he wants, and if he truely thinks that he could ever be with me and wants to be serious with us then we should give it a try.