I like a boy. a lot.

buuuut. hes goin places and i cant go.

story of my life! every boy i like lives halfway around the world.

Hey boyz and girlz

So, my sister had a baby a few weeks ago... I'm in love. I can't wait to go home and spend some time with that little guy!

I'm tired so I shall sum up the past few weeks with a list:

broken heart
see above
tough decisions
no money
no food
graduating from school
lots of hard work
alcohol
waiting
smoking
comiserating
dancing
septum piercing
spring cleaning
spring fever

back at school, and vegging out before i have to buckle down again in a few days. this whole break has been about body mods, and needles getting poked into me constantly. some of it good, some of it not so fun, but all of it worth it. i got my nose fixed, my deviated septum, a cyst taken out of my sinuses, and a teensy tiny bit of cosmetic on the top of my nose. not too long of a recovery, some darvaset, and one bloody nose later, its looking pretty okay. my black eye finally went away thank God. i had to get a cavity filled, not so fun, but i bonded with my dentist over reminiscing about European food haha. aaaaaaaand i got a new tattoo! still needs to get the color thrown in, some pink on the petals of the lotus flower and some green on the leaves, which looks rather like an artichoke without the color haha.



those ribs hurt like a bitch! that poem on the outside is by Rumi

Dance if you've torn the bandage off
Dance in the middle of fighting
Dance in your blood
Dance when you're perfectly free

and speaking of dance, i got a sweet custom made tribal fusion belly dance coin bra for xmas!



ciao for now

I'm bad at writing lately. But, that will change soon, because I made a blog on wordpress to chronicle my experience attempting to return to Spain once and for all. Nevermind that I have not made a post in it yet.... haha.

i have to return to school soon...gross. just applied for a government grant to be a cultural advisor in a Spanish high school and possibly teach English....PLEASSSSEEE LET ME GET IT!

recently got a nose job to fix the plumbing in there....OWCH. so far its healing nicely, but i think one of my stitches came out and something is wierd on the left side, and on the right side i have a black eye that WILL NOT go away.... badass though? hope so. On new years I drank so much and it thinned my blood and I ended up having a MASSIVE nosebleed lol. it was kinda cool though. wish i had pictures.

In other news, my Spanish boyfriend broke up with me and I started dating one of my best friends, who also broke up with me....major heartache in 2009 . But, I will prevail, and hopefully 2010 will be better!

new set in the works! i want to go piiiiiiink.

Happy new year folks <3

okay soooo, no one's reading this (yet) but i just got really excited about my boyfriend coming to visit me from SPAAAAIN in a month and a half!!!! that seems like a long time, but.....I haven't seen him since the beginning of May. Torture.

here he is in all his yummyness

Hi everyone!

So i finally stopped being lazy and dancing around the issue and became a hopeful!!! I've known about suicidegirls since i was 15/16 and always wanted to do it, but I always let people talk me out of it. However, I hate when people tell me what to do and who to be, so I am really excited that I decided to do it now
anyway
I never know what to write on these things
uuuuuuuuummmmmmmm,
some things about me: I'm currently attending school to be an English and Spanish teacher, and my goal is to be moved snuggly into Spain by this time next year. Maybe, maybe not, we shall see. My boyfriend is Spanish though, and can't live here, so that would be ideal. I actually just studied abroad in Valencia for four months (gorgeous/awesome!) Obviously, I speak Spanish, and i would love to learn more languages asap!!! I dabble in languages. I like all things exotic, dark, mysterious, and sexual. Anything bizarre, macabre, and otherwise not accepted by general society . I tend to change my hair a lot.

Friend me, love me, don't stop thinking of me...