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FEBRUARY 7, 2009 @ 09:50 PM | 6 COMMENTS


Finally I got laid!!! Its funny I was even beginning to plan a depressing blog, that most likely would've been fueled by Jack Daniels, describing the long and frustrating YEAR it has been. As good as it was it's already beginning to feel like a bit of a mistake. I really didn't want to just sleep with some random guy who meant nothing to me, because essentially I want a little more than that, but the horny as fuck part of me just figured fuck it!! But now the irony being even though I quite like this dude I'm not interested in anything serious with him and I'm getting the feeling he wants a relationship. Oooooohhhhhh shit. I already told him how I felt and he seemed to be cool with what I want but that hasn't stopped him from sending me 20 texts a day. What can I say, I'm fucking lovable!
I seem to be getting a decent amount of work at the garbage dump, fuck that sounds seedy, and I figured out if I continue to get lots of work I could be in the U.S by the middle of the year!!! Exciting!
Apart from that I'm refusing to leave the house until the weather stops being ridiculous, at the moment Australia is apparently the hottest place on Earth (could've pulled that outta my ass), reaching temperatures of 49 degrees, I dunno what that is in farenheit, or if you even use farenheit, or if thats how you spell farenheit, but lets just say its super fucking hot here!!! In fact its even too hot to type and its making eating this ice cream very difficult.
Val skull
JANUARY 31, 2009 @ 04:40 PM | 5 COMMENTS


So my friends, tis a lovely Sunday morning here and I'm not sure what to do with it!
Anyway the work situation has vastly improved.... see if you just have a whinge things get better! Well this new job of mine sounds terrible, I'm working in a recycling plant essentially sorting through people's rubbish, but I swear it's not that bad, in fact I actually don't mind it! It is just recyclable rubbish, so in theory it shouldn't be too disgusting, but it turns out people are bigger morons than i thought and just put garbage in their recycling bin, kinda annoying. So far I've seen about 100 nappies, 500 plastic bags, 4 DVD players and a christmas tree! Among a ton of other shit. And just before I started there they found a puppy, I just hope I don't see one coz I think I'll be scarred for life! I'm getting some pretty decent pay and its not too far from home so I should be $aving that $weet travelling monie$ in no time! And I'm allowed to have piercings, yay! I've never had any before because I've always worked at places that didn't allow it, but they're not too picking at the old garbage dump! So yesterday I got a maedusa piercing, I dunno why they call these things stupid names, but hey I didn't make it up alright.
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Oo oo and I got accepted into the animal studies course I applied for, so I'll be starting that soon.
Alrighty kids, that's about all for now, I'm off to the beach me thinks.
Love skull ValGal skull

JANUARY 19, 2009 @ 02:27 AM | 6 COMMENTS


Well then. I have just recently begun a super shit job.... just imagine standing in one spot all day packing empty bottles into boxes.... are you imagining it?? Now I imagine that you are now imagining offing yourself at this thought, now imagine me imagining that every single day!! On the upside I don't have to wear a ridiculously butch and demeaning uniform, but I do have to wear a hair net..... for once I would like a job that doesn't involve wearing a hair net!! And also I can get piercings which rocks!! I don't think I'm gonna stay there for long, I reckon just a couple of months at the most to save some money so I can quit, well ideally I would have found another job by then but with this recession shit going on I wouldn't count on it. I know I'm never a particularly upbeat kinda gal (it's not fucking cynicism it's realism I tell ya) but the whole job hunting thing just really fucking angers me and starts me getting pissed off about the whole fucked up way of the world working. I mean it's fucking shit enough that were forced to waste half of our lives working, and for the most part just to provide ourselves with basic necessity, but the fact that it's impossible to get ahead in this world no matter how much effort it feels like you put in. I mean I completed school, like a good girl, I didn't go to college or anything but its not unusual over here, but all I've ever fucking heard since I began work is that I don't have enough experience. Not only is it annoying because clearly I will never gain any experience if I'm not given the chance but mostly it shits me that the majority of these jobs I apply for would take me a whopping day, maybe 2 days tops, to figure out what was going on. I really have attempted to get into almost every kind of industry at some stage and after a few years of rejection I just now feel hopeless and doomed to a long life of working in fucking factories because they're the only places that will hire me.
Aaaah, glad to have that off my chest! I guess it just gets extra frustrating because I've never known what I wanted to do for a "career" so it just makes it all the more harder when no one will give you a chance. I've applied for an animal care course, which I'm hoping I should be able to get into, and once I've completed that it should give me a few more job options, ones that'll involve getting to pat puppies all day, that'll rule!
Oh it's not all bad, I'm mainly just being a whinger! At least I'm getting a bit of work to keep me going, and today I realised ipod's make mundane work about 75% better! But its just the usual, no workies means no monies means no travels makes sad ValGal.
But it turns out being pissed off is the inspiration I needed to write some new songs, which I haven't done for a while. Lately I've felt my artistic talents have gone to shit, can't seem to find the right words or draw as freely as I once could.

Anyway I complain about having no money then I pull out this!

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Excuse the shine! Well I already started it so I had to get it finished off right!

The year is off to a good gig start! I saw Peter and the Test Tube Babies which was awesome! Dropkick Murphys are here again but since I've already seen them twice I decided to save my money and skip it this year. Amanda Palmer is due back next month which is exciting and best of all Bouncing Souls are doing a 20th anniversary world tour, they haven't yet posted dates for here but I think they will, they fucking better!

Hopefully there are more good things to come. I spose I should get my shit together and do another set. I have some ideas that I really wanna do but I just haven't been into this site much lately, if you lovely boys and girls weren't here I probably wouldn't bother.
Take care all
Love Val skull miao!! love kiss ARRR!!!




DECEMBER 30, 2008 @ 03:06 AM | 9 COMMENTS


So maybe it's time I elaborated?? I've put it off as long as I could because I do hate wanking on about myself, that may be hard to believe coming from someone who posts naked pictures of herself on the internet, but its true, I swear!
Since tomorrow is NYE maybe its fitting to review the year I had, although I must admit I'm a little afraid because I haven't, as usual, done most of the things I wished to have done by now.
Well this year was the first in 7 years that I was single and overall I quite enjoyed it. There were times of loneliness, and there were times of horniness....fuck me there were times of horniness haha! Its funny how much I took sex for granted whilst I was in a relationship, I can even recall a time where I was turning down sexual offers! If I knew I was going to have such a dry patch I would've rethought that! But as much as it sometimes sux being alone, most of the time I'm quite content with it. It was certainly a refreshing change, one I definitely needed. I had a few bouts of rejection which knocked my confidence around a little, but I think this year I felt more like myself than I have in a long time.
I moved out of the folks home! Thats was a major, and overdue, accomplishment for me! Although its kind of a wrought spending half of your weekly earnings on basic living necessity it is well worth it just for the independence and freedom I now have, and just getting to live with my friends and feeling comfortable in my surroundings is something I surely don't take for granted. I never really had that with my parents, we didn't have the best relationship and living with them was like constantly tip toeing around and biting my tongue, not much fun and not a very homely feeling. Its also benefitted my relationship with my Mum, its weird but I guess we need that distance to be closer.
I think since I've been on here I've talked about my eagerness to travel, probably so much your all sick of me whining about it! Well I didn't have the best year of work, but I'm half way to America baby! Yeehaw! Now the bad news is I don't have a job to return to after Christmas, so I may have to spend some of that savings. I mentioned this concern a little while ago and yep the factory I worked at went down! But I have a few leads of new jobs, all as equally shit as the one I had before but as long as I can make some decent cash, enough to be able to get the hell outta here by the end of next year I'll be super happy!
There was lots of awesome shows to go to, probably my most favourite thing to do is to get out to punk gigs. Dropkick Murphys fucking rocked! I got up on stage...in case you forgot, but I'm pretty sure I didn't let anyone forget that! Amanda Palmer is so amazing, I had the great pleasure of seeing her perform live and will again next year too, yay! Was there more? I can't remember. Almost every weekend though I've been seeing some of the rad local talent too, even some in my hometown, which is so ridiculously small its hard to believe that anything decent could spawn from here. A wicked ska club has given us some monthly entertainment, and I even made a few new friends, which for me is something I feel quite incapable of.
I'm sure I've done more than that....at least I hope I have, but I do have a head like a sieve and although I seem to be able vividly recall embarrassing incidents from my childhood I can't remember interesting and exciting things that have happened recently!
So all in all I can't complain, it wasn't the best year, but hey I'm still here and thats always something to be thankful for. I hope you all had an equally reasonably decent year if not better and if it was shit then I sincerely wish you (and me) have a better one in 09.
ValGal xoxo
kiss skull biggrin miao!! ARRR!!! love
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DECEMBER 9, 2008 @ 06:16 AM | 10 COMMENTS


life sux 'cept tattoos.......tattoos are the shit

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skull GAL who drives a VAL miao!!
OCTOBER 28, 2008 @ 07:44 AM | 16 COMMENTS


I gots bored with that last blog, yes i gets bored easily. Things still haven't improved. I'm looking for other work, which so far isn't going well. There really is no jobs out there! Well at least none that are even worth applying for coz I wouldn't get due to lack of experience. Anyway I'll keep looking and hopefully something turns up soon.
Apart from that nothing much else is happening as I have no cash to leave the house! Oh but I am making some dolls. By making i mean buying scabby old ones from second hand stores and making them cool. At the moment I'm working on a punk and a skinhead, but I plan to make a whole collection of them, representing all the styles and sub-cultures I so love! When they're done I'll put up some pics, I'm possibly even thinking about selling them, dunno yet, I'll see how they turn out first.
Anyway I was rummaging through all the shit I have and found all my old photos, thought I might put them for your and my amusement!

believe it or not I was once cute...here's fucking proof!

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Ah the good old Year 12 Formal! For all the Americans, this is our dodgey attempt at a senior prom.
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getting on the piss....as the kids do
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if anyone out there finds it hard to quit smoking, just think if you don't you will end up looking like......
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THIS! Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!
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So now you've seen me naked, at my stupidest and at my most hideous. Sure know how to make myself vulnerable!

Much Love, ValGal skull kiss ARRR!!! miao!!
OCTOBER 19, 2008 @ 06:30 AM | 9 COMMENTS


WARNING!: This blog may contain excessive whining!

I just wanna get the fuck outta here! Really, I feel like travelling is the only cure for all my negative shit at the moment but I have no where near enough cash to even think about it. Work is sloooow! This is usually the busiest time of the year, apparently people go crazy for cereal in summer?! Normally I'd be doing overtime and raking in the dough, but this year, nothing! I'm quite sure the company is going down, of course they wouldn't tell us until the last possible second. Now I'm sure your all thinking why dont i just get another job? Well my friends here is my predicament....although this job sux balls, it does pay well (when I get the work!), is piss easy and is a 2 minute drive from home. Plus there is the added bonuses of working with reasonably nice people. To add to the troubles there are also no other jobs. Seriously, nothing. I have no other skills or qualifications....unless I could get a job that involves sitting on my ass and eating excessive amounts of baked goods, I am fucking awesome at doing that. I hear that doesn't pay well though. See here's the thing, i could possibly get another job, something that is actually stimulating and where I don't have to constantly talk myself into not contemplating suicide but run the high risk of making minimum wage, thus not helping me with the travelling situation. Or i could get yet another happiness draining dead end job where I make cash, if i get enough work, but will most likely end up spending it all on chocolate in an attempt to distract me from my pathetic excuse for an existence. Either way I am just fucked....and not in the pleasurable way, lets not even get into the lack of that! I originally got this shitty job to make money to travel...that was 2 and half years ago. This just makes me lose all hope! I used to make heaps of money...where the fuck did it all go? I look around, and I am sure as fuck not surrounded by 30 grands worth of shit. I just feel like a failure, and that its no one's fault but my own, and I just don't feel like I have the energy to pull myself out of this rut. To make shit worse I've started to take money out of my what was never large savings, so now I'm just getting further from what I want. And don't let this rant mislead you into thinking I'm some ignorant bitch, i am aware that people out there have real problems but for this blog I choose to be selfish and not really give a fuck for anything but my petty shit.
Also I might add I think I'm mental...for serious. I really think i should go back to the psychologist before I flip out. A mixture of negative thinking, paranoia, anxiety and occassional depression = crazy ValGal! I am finding myself permanently anxious for no reason. I'm having attacks at work, and out of fear of looking like a complete nutcase I just carry on working like nothings happening but inside feel like I will die if I don't runaway. I look in the mirror and feel like the face I'm staring at doesn't match the thoughts I can hear. I have so many fucked up thoughts constantly circling in my head that I have a never ending headache. I feel like I cant control my own emotions and thoughts anymore. But again, i have no money to go tell this shit to a proffessional.
Somewhere along the line I've convinced myself that if I could only travel i could find the answers to my troubles. If I could just go to a far away land, an opportunity would arise. If I could just find somewhere that felt like home, maybe i wouldn't feel so fucked in the head, maybe i could be...happy?

FYI!: this is a rhetorical whinge fest. Don't feel as though you have to leave a comment to the crazy bitch, I'm not looking for answers it just helps if I get all this shit out of my head, maybe then I could sleep.....

skull kiss ARRR!!! miao!!
OCTOBER 7, 2008 @ 02:17 AM | 16 COMMENTS


Things to do before i die....
1. Travel the world. See NY, LA, Mexico, Japan, Europe.....any other destinations would be a bonus
2. Get covered in tattoos
3. Get a job that doesn't make me want to off myself everyday
4. Once I have completed number 1, move to my favourite destination
5. Get a British Bulldog
SEPTEMBER 26, 2008 @ 09:00 PM | 15 COMMENTS


Well my date supposedly got food poisoning! I don't really care, I'll admit I'm a little disappointed and very much in need of a bit of p in the v, but over all I'm kinda relieved. I was feeling really anxious and nervous about the whole situation and I wasn't even sure if i liked the guy in a boyfriend sorta way. Plus although I often miss having a boy around I'm just kinda getting used to being alone and starting to enjoy it again. It's awesome being able to make all my own decisions and do what i want when i want....not to say I wouldn't sacrifice that for someone who i felt strongly about. But until I find that someone I have all the boy I need right now.....

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His name is Eugene.
LOvE ValGAl skull kiss skull
SEPTEMBER 21, 2008 @ 05:15 AM | 7 COMMENTS


Well things are lookin' up compared to last blog! Got asked out on a date last night tehehehe blush ...come to think of it thats the first time ive ever been asked out on a date, it was all very cute but im not exactly sure how interested i am yet, anyway I gave him my number so I guess I'll just see what happens.
I think I already told most of you individually that we finally moved outta the scummy mould infested house, yay! The new house is soooo purdy, I was gonna take pics today and put em up but I couldn't be arsed. Summer is coming all too early for my liking! Spring has only just begun and I'm sweating it out already!
Urm, I'm applying for an animal care course, so if i get into that and complete it I will be able to work in animal shelters or a zoo...how fucking rad would that be! I'm really fucking get sick of my indecisiveness and lack of direction so my new thing is to just figure fuck it! Its better to give this shit a go and possibly fail instead of sitting around doing fuck all forever.
And what else....I'm getting a new tattoo soon, yay. Taken in the design, a traditional style coffin, wings roses and other shit. Thinking bout getting this thing on my chest but fuckin geezus its gonna hurt like a bitch! But yes I'm still yet to book it in, have to wait and see what he draws up first.
So thats about it kids, I'm doing well as can be expected, hope you all are too.
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Much Love, ValGal skull kiss miao!! ARRR!!!
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