I have something to admit...well not admit but discuss.
Obviously im un-happy with my appearance, hence the eating disorders and self abuse...and lately it has all been heightened, theres just so many beautiful people in the world, and i really dont feel as if im one of those people.
A survey done in New Zealand on NZ woman showed only 2% of the population considered themselves to be beautiful, i really think thats sad, but i most definately can relate to that 98%.
Ever since i was just a young girl i wanted to be blonde and blue eyed with dark skin and a awesome body..


Like her, fuck shes hot..people like her make me feel so fucking ugly and disgusting.
Or her.....

I feel so in-adequate when i look at woman like this...
I just had to get that off my chest..and shit i know i shouldnt compare myself to others and all of that but its just so difficult..
I think im feeling like this quite intensely is because of the comment my bfs friend made ..shit like that just really gets to me..


Went for a bikeride this afternoon, freezed me ass off...am working on trying to look after myself..yes..why? because id love to look more like those girls above..
Obviously im un-happy with my appearance, hence the eating disorders and self abuse...and lately it has all been heightened, theres just so many beautiful people in the world, and i really dont feel as if im one of those people.
A survey done in New Zealand on NZ woman showed only 2% of the population considered themselves to be beautiful, i really think thats sad, but i most definately can relate to that 98%.
Ever since i was just a young girl i wanted to be blonde and blue eyed with dark skin and a awesome body..

Like her, fuck shes hot..people like her make me feel so fucking ugly and disgusting.
Or her.....

I feel so in-adequate when i look at woman like this...
I just had to get that off my chest..and shit i know i shouldnt compare myself to others and all of that but its just so difficult..
I think im feeling like this quite intensely is because of the comment my bfs friend made ..shit like that just really gets to me..

Went for a bikeride this afternoon, freezed me ass off...am working on trying to look after myself..yes..why? because id love to look more like those girls above..









