I wish SG had an app that was not a dating app.

I'm going to Dallas! Do I even know anyone in Dallas? I need to check. Is there anyone on here in Dallas?

Crap, has it been that long? Going on 2 and a half years since my last post here.
So much has happened since then; got a job, got married, got a house, got a dog, got promoted, my little girl was born, got started on baby number 2, got promoted again, and getting ready for a family trip to DisneyWorld. I can't believe how busy I have been.

Well little sister just left after spending 4 days with me . . . yesterday I took her to Estes so she could see the Stanley hotel and go on the ghost tour. It was pretty cool. It was more fun when Monday night she put a wig on and did her makeup to make dad and step-mom think that she cut off all her blonde hair! Sadly they didn't fall for it.

Well, I'm back from Kansas where I saw li'l sister graduate high school. While I was there, I was also bitten like crazy by who knows what kind of creatures.
So the drive from Denver to Anthony, Kansas is boring. Long and boring. I think I'm allergic to Anthony. I was fine in the rest of Kansas, but Anthony sent my allergies into overload.
Next time, sister, you're coming out to Denver.

I had a chance.
I had a chance with Ashley (a girl I've known for 10 years).
She was going to come back to CA.
But how could I have made that sacrifice?
She had the name picked out and if I didn't like it, tough!
And now, I wonder . . .
I moved to Denver
I live in a nice place . . .
How did I get here?
Did I put in the thought when I made this decision?
Did I make the right choice?
I don't know where my life is going.
I have very few job prospects and fewer friends.
Had I chosen to stay in CA and wait for Ashley, where would that road have taken me?
I hate this. Why do stupid thoughts and emotions present themselves to me now?
Why did I not have the foresight to consider these things previously?
Did I make the wrong choice?

And you may ask yourself,
What is that beautiful house?
And you may ask yourself,
Where does that highway go to?
And you may ask yourself,
Am I right? Am I wrong?
And you may tell yourself,
MY GOD!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE!?

Why do I have to find out what is going on with them?
I feel like there is some sort of timer on my curiosity that makes me need to check on the ex.
With every girl I've dated, I felt a need to find out what they were up to after a certain amount of time had passed. Well, with what's-her-name, that time expired a bit over a week ago. Now I can't stop trying to see what she's up to? Is she's dating (she is)? And, if so, who is he (my former roommate's brother and once a very good friend of mine)? What's going on in her life? Is she doing better than me?
I wonder if everyone goes through that. I don't know because it's been true for me but guys tend to suffer alone. I have never talked about this aspect of my heart with anyone so I have no outside input to know if it's normal.
She got her degree in 3 years, and was happy to throw that in my face when the break-up was happening, went on for a Masters and a teaching credential and, like I said, she's now dating one of my former good friends.
Now here I am in Denver with no job, still haven't finished my BA, no friends (well 2), had to give up my cats (they got a good home, but still my heart aches at losing them to someone else - I think that part of that comes from the fact that what's-her-name and I rescued them together and bottle-fed them from 1 week old), over half my stuff is still in storage and I don't feel like I have a "home" to come home to yet.
I think some of the things going on in my head and heart right now could be dealt with rather than being dwelt upon simply if I knew people out here. Now I'm rethinking my pick-up-and-move idea to get away from her and the memories.
Now I just need to figure out how to go make friends when I'm still trying to find my way around town.
I did make it up to Estes Park last weekend and went on the Stanley Hotel's Ghost Tour. That was fun; hopefully I got some good pictures from that. I hadn't taken any pictures in so long.
I wonder if getting out and taking pictures again would even make me feel a bit better.
Hmmm . . .
I gotta find a place to take pictures.

Saw the midnight Iron Man 2 in IMAX last night, er, this morning.
Loved it!

Back from CA. Went for the weekend since Friday was birthday and I have been away from the family for a month. It made me sad to come back.
Seeing my cats.
They remembered me . . . and that made me sad. I wish I could have them with me.

I want a job that's cool and fun but haven't had a regular job in so long, I don't know where to start looking.