Hey all!
If anybody is reading this:
My SG account will be ending this month. I have decided not to renew my subscription.
I won't be renewing my WOW subscription either...
I've always been too shy, socially awkward, and afraid to just go out and live life.
Now is the time. I've gotta pay off my debts, start saving money, and prepare for the future.
My future.
Most of the time, I thought I'd never have a future. I wasn't sure I'd live to see this year come.
It's here. I'm here.
I'm trying to get better as a human being. Both internally and externally.
Eating better. Exercise. Prayer and meditation. Singing. Writing. Sketching. Planning. Living.
But one thing has always been missing:
Loving.
I have so much love inside of me and no one to give it to...
That's what's killing me now. Not depression. Not self-loathing.
If I can't find someone to love, who will love me for who I am... I'm dead. Life will be completely meaningless.
Worthless. And then my greatest fear will be realized:
I am unlovable. I am not meant to be alive.
Sorry for the downer...
It's just something that's been milling through my mind the past decade or so...
I guess that's it.
Cue Batman outro... Now!

My take from the mall today (minus the logo sticker that is on the back of my iPad Mini, which I am writing this on ^_^):




G'night!
-Patrick

So, today is my day off and I went on a bit of a shopping spree. Well, to me its a spree. And a Batman spree at that.
Pictures will be coming later, but here's what I got:
@FYE: -Batman Logo fingerless gloves $13
-Batman Logo belt $10 on sale

@Hot Topic: -Batman Logo lanyard (for my Walmart badge) $8
-Batman Logo sticker (for the back of my iPad Mini) $3.50
I then went to Sbarro in the food court for lunch. ^_^

And that's been my day off so far!
Check ya later!
-Patrick

I got a love that keeps me waitin'
Waitin'
Waitin'
I'm a lonely boy
I'm a lonely boy
Oh oh ah oh
I got a love that keeps me waitin'

Sorry it's been a while. Not much going on really. Working full-time at Wal-Mart. Eating. Sleeping.
Feeling like shit actually. Wish I had someone to talk to about it.
Yeah. That's pretty much it.

Here are some pictures (from my camera-phone) of a couple sketches I've done recently:







Let me know what you think?
Thanx!
-Patrick

Alright, alright...
I'll post a new blog.
<cricket, cricket>
. . .

SO... Since last I wrote on here some stuff has happened.
The End.


Just kidding.
Uh, I saw a dentist a little while back about a sore tooth and ended up getting a root-canal and crown done ($2,500 w/o insurance). Been looking for work for the past few months (the job market is terrible around here btw) and just last week found a job.
Last Tuesday, I was called in for an interview at a local Wal-Mart. Was interviewed by 2 different managers that morning and took a drug test that afternoon. Later that evening, they called to let me know everything went through and orientation was the next morning. Orientation went well and I started training Thursday and Friday. So, this is my first full-week working for Wal-Mart part-time (up 33 hrs/week).
Now I can get bills paid while I work on some projects of my own. ^_^
That's about it.
Hope to get some sketches scanned and put up here soon.
Until then...
"May the odds be ever in your favor!"
-Patrick
Undead Design Co.

WANT:
BadAssJewelry.com

Just applied for a job at McDonald's...
FML!!!!!
-Patrick
Undead McDonald's Company

So...
What do you want to know about the past week or so?
Tuesday (2/14):
11am: Had a consultation concerning a bad tooth and made an appointment for a root canal...
2pm: Initial interview at a local Supermarket for a deli job. (Have heard anything yet)
Wednesday (2/15): Root canal @ 1pm.
Thursday-Today:
Chill.
Hang-out with friends.
Sketch a bit at the Cafe.
Fill out job application after job application...
Watch some Korean Dramas on Hulu.
Go to church service.
Some more sketching and hanging with friends.
Go see TinTin (awesome movie BTW!!!).
And so on...
Coming up Wednesday is the appointment to get a crown for my tooth.
That's how it's been.
Still looking for work.
I've got a month's worth of funds left before I'm SOL with bills to pay...
Looks like I'll have to break down and start filling out Fast-Food applications.

At least I still have you ladies to cheer me up.

Check y'all later!
-Patrick

P.S.- If anyone wants to commission artwork (fan art or other) drop me a line and let me know. I do more than just mess around in MS Paint. Mainly sketches (pencil or ink). I don't have a scanner right now so I can't upload my previous work at the moment...