Lets face it, I'm here for the naked ladies!

...don't front.

Poop

...Mature, I know.

Well well well....
what a pleasant suprise, seeing you here!
I supose you have something to say?
Well go on, say it!

Who are we?
dancing, parading
fragile sculpture's
flesh and bone
Thought's and memorie's
homeless soul's
No direction
No connection
No ambition
So many goal's
Ever searching for happiness
in purposeless form's
Object's of all
we desire to achive
Farther than mind's conceive
Living our lives
make believe
From birth to death
ourselves we deceive
So, who are we?
If not whom we say
What I wouln't give
to be you for a day

I am JesseJames, procrastinator extraordinaire, dreamer,
explorer and more confused than ever.

Who are you?

Little has changed since our fall apart
We procrastinate, this time lost
I'm not gullible as I was before
Shattered soul's and broken heart's
So, wish me to the forgotten place
where your memorie's tend to be erased
Slit my wrist so I can breathe
I'm so cold and I'm shaking

The ground is crumbling beneath my feet
I'm losing sight of everything
Your imperfection's contagiously seep
from beneath your selfish masquerade
Look me in the face and say
you don't love me anymore

just leave me here
leave me here to die
Please leave me here and let me bleed
show me what my heart can't see
because I'm not your's to feel insecure
so just take advantage of who you are
Punish me beyond reasoning
Your love is my desease

Shattered soul's and broken heart's
have we forgotten who we are?
Masquerade our selfish thought's
now I don't know you anymore
Slit my wrist so I can breathe
Your love is my desease
Please slit my wrist so I can bleed
I'm so cold and shaking
I'm cold and shaking now

I just seen the most rad thing on tv. SUICIDE GIRLS on HBO Real Sex!!! Holy shit!! For the first time in my life I wish I was a girl, well, maybe just a suicide girl anyway Great job ladies and congrat's to Missy and everyone envolved. You rock my funk'in sock's!

Am I the only person my age not going to school? Every girl I talk to is taking classes, and that leaves me feeling quite stupid. It seem's like all my friend's are graduated or are graduating soon. What really sux is I actually WANT to go to shool! Thank's to current living expenses and possibly 'caugh' credit, it is nearly impossible. Beside's all i want to do is be a stunt driver, and you don't need a college degree for that. I've basically ruined every car + anything with wheel's I've ever owend trying to do stupid stunt's. It cost's like 5k to go to Bob Bondurant's performance driving school. So now what? Anybody have any good Idea's? Please let me now.

futhrfuk Ive been so damn stressed at work these last few day's. What the hell? It's like suddenly I have all this crap to do and not enough help. My stupid ass boss think's it's a direct reflection of my work ethic. like I'm a slacker. What an ass clown! Ive been busting my ass while he was on vaction. He come in and just point's his finger at everything that need's to be done like his index finger is gonna fix shit. Thank's Ass!!!

Wow, this journal shit is kinda hard to keep up. Does anyone even read the boy's journals? Not that I've written anything worthy of reading, but maybe I would if I thought someone gave a shit.

I also wanted to express my sadness over Katie's (hopfully short term) absence Thank you K for many great set's and many interesting journal entries. You will definantly be missed sweetie. Good luck on your travels.

Fuck! I'm sooo torn! I just got back from visiting my family in Colorado. It was gut wrenching to say the least. I haven't seen them for two year's!, so it was quite the homecoming. my little niece is not so little anymore and is the biggest sweetheart God I love her. Do I stay here in AZ or do I go back to Colorado?? Decision's, decision's. In other new's I did get tatted while I was there. Two little skulls now reside in the corner's of my chest. Just the beggining of larger shoulder tat's. I will soon update with pic's.
Fuck Off!!
-Jesse