I'm done. Finished. I've had enough. I'm through with it. I'm sick and tired of having to make apologies for myself and my actions. I think I realized what my problem is: I care too much about what people think of me. I always have. I've tried very hard to make good impressions on people I don't know, and it always ends up blowing up i my face, usually from a simple misunderstanding or miscommunication. And I've always thought I was in the wrong, and perhaps I was sometimes (and for that I'm often always sorry), but I'm through with having to make things right and tidy and trying to be the guy that everybody likes! It's way more trouble than it's worth, and it ain't worth shit!

So from now on, I'm going to be honest with myself, and just be me, whoever that is. I'll still be the nice guy, for the most part, but if we don't get along well, then that's fine too. I'd like to get along with everyone as much as I can, but I realize that that's not going to happen all the time; some people are content at being complete dicks with no sense of humor at all. And you know what? Fuck 'em! It's not my fault they don't get me. They're opinions about me don't mean squat to me. I know who my real friends are, and they're the ones who really matter to me. I'll never confuse "being friendly" with "being friends" ever again.

Look out, world! It's a whole new Lew...or rather, it's the real Lew now! The Lew who was always there but wasn't sure of himself until now. This is me. This is who I am!

Don't like it? Then I got two words for ya...