I think you're a virus. A disease. A plague. You make me sick sometimes. Sometimes I look at you and I want to throw up. Just puke my guts out. Scream at you. Tear my hair out. Gouge my eyes out. Hearing you speak is like chewing on broken glass, I love you so much. Seeing you with that fucking loser. Seeing how he makes you feel. I watched him make you cry. I fucking hate the way you make me feel. I'm not myself around you. Just seeing you play with your hair makes me want to swallow a shotgun. Hearing you on the phone makes me want to vomit. I need your voice in my ear like a junkie needs his fix. I need to see the way your tits fill out that blue shirt you wear sometimes. You're my addiction. You're my nightmare. I fucking hate you.
take it easy. take it hard. take it fast. take it any way you can get it.
DEC 07, 2005 12:37 AM
DEC 07, 2005 10:18 PM
have you ever been to sandwich?
would you like a sandwich?
are you normal?
DEC 07, 2005 10:41 PM
DEC 07, 2005 10:43 PM
you've thought about this for a while, haven't you? 
DEC 08, 2005 07:04 AM
DEC 08, 2005 09:00 AM
hell yeah it is... too bad i didn't have any this morning... i could have seriously used it. Although then i would have been breakin faces 
DEC 08, 2005 09:40 PM
DEC 13, 2005 12:58 PM
I agree with the monotony thing. I write so much thinking it's all new and interesting, but really, it's just elaborations on the same thing, details inclded to make it sound different.. 
I'm such a talented writer, sometimes I fool myself, even! 
My first online journal, that poeple could comment in and stuff, man.. I wish I could still read that. It was some sad, pathetic shit.. 
I remember the day I realized that it had been deleted from lack of recent updating.. I almost had a heart attack.. I cried, that I know.. 
That was like..four or five years ago, though..
DEC 13, 2005 05:01 PM
It's so rare I get a camera.. And when I get one.. I get obsessive..
I have a tripod, and the camera has a self timer, but what I think I really need is a camera that doesn't need me to push the button for the self-timer to reset each time.. It needs to just keep going every 5 seconds or something. 
They've got to have those somewhere, right?
The craze wasn't anything special.. People just being dumb, hacking into all the online journal sites..Meh. I don't think I really have to worry abuot that here. Plus the majority of the poeple here are smarter and wiser.
DEC 13, 2005 10:03 PM
Well, it is a relief for me to have found a place where I'm able to express myself and get (mostly) friendly, intelligent, and legible responses and answers and conversations.. Not "OMG!!!1 U 2?!"
I feel most of us are past that stage here..
