Sooooooo...

This happened!

Jesse proposed on the morning of my birthday and obviously I said yes. I wasn't really surprised cuz we've been talkin about it for months now. But I was surprised he picked such an amazing ring. I've never been a huge fan of diamonds so I had been looking at different stones for a whole and decided my birth stone, aquamarine, was my favorite and hinted at it. I guess he heard me cuz it's perfect.

In other related news, our move to Washington has turned out to be awesome so far. I love my job, even though it's 100 times the responsibility that I'm used to. Lol But I'm kicking ass and taking names and already up for a pretty big raise on Tuesday so I'm pumped for that!

As far as our apartment goes, we're still living with minimal furniture. You may recall I got rid of EVERYTHING before I moved up here so as to not have to rent a truck or trailer for the move. We drove up only with what would fit in my jeep. Lol But we just got a sofa and a dining set last weekend for my birthday. So it's starting to come together.

We are currently sleeping on a terribly uncomfortable air mattress which sucks. But we can't afford a bed yet. Lol But we'll get there.

What else is new??

Not a ton I guess. Oh! I finally met the lovely Rosie who lives up here near me! It was brief because she had to work but she's super rad! You should for sure go check out her new set in MR by the way and make her fucking pink cuz she fully deserves it.

BABE STATUS! Am I right or am I right?!

Here are some photos of things I saw for my birthday in my new home:



I guess that's it mostly. I'm still getting settled here, I guess. It's really different being away from my family... Like nothing I ever experienced before. But we're working on building a new family so that's something to look forward to. we're busting our butts collecting evidence for the custody case for Jesse's daughters and things are lookin pretty good for us to get those little angels full time. So we have out fingers crossed on that.

Other than the family thing, the weather is a lot to get used to when you're accustomed to year round sunshine and warmth. This whole having to wear a jacket every time I leave the house thing is a bit of an adjustment. Haha! But I'm working on making this a home and slowly but surely we're getting there.

Well I'm exhausted so I'm gonna duck out for now. If you're not already, follow me on Instagram: zombie_kitty. ALSO go give Rosie's new set some sweet lovin. It's super sexy.

Love ya guys!

Well we made it to Washington and.....

I'm sick.

I'm so bummed.. I'm like really super sick with a really bad cold and I feel like death. And frankly, I'm pretty pissed that it happened RIGHT when I moved here since I have to start my new job on Tuesday. Gahhh!

But the drive went well, only about 13 hours from Sacramento, CA to the Seattle, WA area. No hang ups. AND we got approved for an amazing apartment yesterday! We sign our lease on Monday. So that is crazy exciting! I can't wait to get moved in and not be sleeping on Jesse's sister's living room floor. :/ not to sound ungrateful or anything! It's amazing of her to let us camp out! It's just not comfy and there are 3 toddler boys running around 24/7, which isn't helping my cold. Lol but we're probably gonna get keys to the new place on Wednesday! I cant wait to show ya pictures! It's really cute!

Here are a few pics:












Also, Jesse got me these sweet rose colored Oakleys


That's about it for now! I'm gonna go back to TRYING to get rest on the couch with my mound of used tissues and try to avoid getting climbed on by little toddler monsters. Lol I realllllllly need to be better by Tuesday for work! Gahhhh!

TTYL

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes!

So you know me. I can't just make one major change in my life! I've always gotta change my hair too.



Yep! I'm brunet again! I needed something way less high-maintenance. The blonde was fun for a little bit but... Meh. I got tired of it and I think it's not really me. Plus the brown makes my eyes look more blue I think. I actually don't know if that's true. I kinda just made it up. Haha!

Anyway!

I've been workin hard on sorting through all my clothes and other belongings and making some decent progress! Today I dropped of 8 goddamn bags of old clothes at Goodwill. It felt good to get rid of so much shit! Haha! I've still got a lot to do but I finished A LOT!

It's all happening!!!

I guess I don't have a lot else to say. Just wanted to show ya my new hairs! I will talk to ya soon!

Xoxo
P.S. GO 49ers!!!!!

Man oh man oh man...

I don't even know where to begin with this update...

I got myself a job up in Washington!!!!!!

I have to honestly say I'm pretty damn proud of myself. I mean, I said I was gonna find a job and I DID! Lol with zero hesitation! It's for a loan assistant position for a mortgage company up there. I had a phone interview with their regional manager last Wednesday and her and I really hit it off! Her and her husband are from California as well and fell in love with Washington so we related well. Haha! Anyways, I nailed the interview and got a call the next afternoon offering me the job! They offered me more pay than I get now, plus bonuses per closed file, and instant benefits! I am so stoked. Obviously, I accepted their offer and start February 18!

I gave my 2 week notice, which was really bittersweet because I loved my job. But it's such an excellent opportunity and the office I'll be at is in the same town we were looking to move to.

Everything has just fallen into place!!!

One bummer though...
Jesse moved up there this weekend. we decided it would be better for him to head up early and find a job and get us an apartment before I get up there. The situation with his business partner/roommate got really out of control. This guy was just a total scum bag and it was really bringing Jesse down. I hated seeing him that way. He told me he wanted to wait and move with me but it was painful watching him deal with the abuse his roommate was putting him through. So I sent him off on the train last night. But I know this will be better!

I missed cuddling with him last night though so I cuddled his pillow instead..



Buuuut the good thing is, over the next 2 weeks, I'm going to go through all my things, sell some of my old furniture and then he's flying down back to Sacramento to help me pack and then we're gonna spend out Valentines Day driving my Jeep up to Washington together! So I only have to go a couple weeks without him. I'll probably survive. Haha!

I can't believe this all came together SO FAST and everything just fell into place. I am so happy and excited for this adventure!!!!

Anyway, here are a few random pics...
My view from my desk a couple weeks ago..

Wearing his shirt to bed

Proof of my recently developed anime addiction

I survived a brutal flu.. Barely..

Made a couple mini road trips to Chico

I do the dew.. Even though I'm certain it will give me cancer

Cloud nine...




Jesse's last meal in California just HAD to be In N Out. Lol


Well that's about all I've got! I am so anxious to get up to Washington and start this new life. New city, new job, new apartment, new furniture..Hopefully new friends like miss Rosie... It's going to be amazing. I can feel it.

Anyways... I'm sleepy so I'm gonna crash! But thanks everyone for supporting me and being so rad! I'll keep y'all posted and whatnot like always!

Xoxo
PS Follow me on Instagram if you don't already zombie_kitty

New major massive changes happening... As in now!

Sooooo.... We have been talking about marriage and spending our lives together and... It's happening. I am very very VERY happy and excited! But I'm stressed because...

We are moving to the Seattle area! And as soon as in 3 weeks or so. Like no joke. Haha! Life is just a lot less expensive up there and his family is there and his daughters are nearby... But with the 2 of us working there, even with rent and stuff I will finally be able to pay off some debts I owe and stuff that living in California makes impossible for me and it's been weighing heavily on me. :-/

The only crappy thing is that this is happen so suddenly because he is working on getting custody of his daughters again because we found out some pretty terrible stuff about their mother over the holiday and don't think they are safe with her and her family any longer. AND I just got hired on permanent here at my work and now I have to leave. And I haven't told any of this to my parents yet because we just devised this definite plan about 2 days ago. We've been discussing it for a few months now.. But his business partner and roommate has recently completely screwed him over financially and while we were on vacation he STOLE from Jesse. So we just want to get out of here and away from the negative energy and start a life together. so it's all for the better and I am excited but nervous for a couple reasons...

1. I think my parents are going to be pissed about me leaving this great job behind.
2. .... I need to find a job up there, preferably before I move (so if anyone in the Seattle area is reading this and knows of ANY possible job opportunities, PLEASE let me know )

I am really happy though. All of this feels right. And it's going to be a little struggle to get things started for us up there, but I believe in my heart that this is the best decision I could make. so wish me luck! And if anyone has advice on job hunting from a distance in advance to the move, please throw it my way! I love you all and thanks for your support! I'll keep ya posted..

Xoxo

I don't even...

So, I'm having this super seemingly bipolar mood situation right now where I want to write a blog but I don't. So, I'm just going to start typing and see where it goes...

First some tunes..

So thiiiiiis is my favorite dubstep remix of any rap song ever. Of all time. It's amazing. You should probably listen to it. Now.

Well, life has been really fabulous lately. Job is going great, things with my man are just flat out fantastic, working on finding a place to move out to, I've been feeling good, the whole she-bang!

And then...

Today I got a notice saying that my wages were being garnished. The thing that is so frustrating about it is that I've been on a payment plan for these old tickets and shit that I owed on and I thought ALL of it was included in what I've been paying. Well surprise: It wasn't. I tried to call and explain that I misunderstood. That I thought it was all included and all that. The state isn't very understanding with that sort of thing. I mean, I guess as they shouldn't be anyway. I'm sure tons of people lie about that shit every day. How are they to know I'm being honest?

So now, 25% of my weekly checks go to my debt with the state....

Which means I will have 1/4 less income....

And my credit score will once again be absolute shit.



MOTHER FUCKER!!!

I swear, just when I think life is going great and I'm getting back out on top, the universe opens up and shits on my fucking face.

So, I spent a big part of my day crying in my cubicle and avoiding eye contact with my co-workers so I wouldn't have to explain my bloodshot eyeballs and mascara streaks down my cheek that I kept thinking I'd wiped away, but hadn't. I don't want my co-workers to A) know about my financial bullshit and B) know that I'm a giant pussy.

(side note: that was "AM a giant pussy" not HAVE a giant pussy. My pussy is quite petite and adorable actually. Not giant and flappidy. Just wanted to clarify. )

Anyways...

I talked to my handsome and sweet boyfriend on my lunch and he cheered me up. He wants me to move into his place with his roommate, who is a cool guy and LOVES me! But, like a year ago when Jesse moved here and into his house, his roommate Josh said "no girlfriends can live here". But here's the deal, I've become good buddies with Josh, he trusts me, know I have a good job, I clean a lot, take good care of his animals, all that AND the situation is that me and Jesse have been planning on getting a house together next summer, so I'd only have to live there for a few months anyways! I am hoping he will be cool and allow it and Jesse is gonna ask him soon. So, we'll see. But I'm not going to get my hopes up! Because we alllll know what happens when we do that!

But Jesse has been really great about putting a smile on my face and said if Josh says no he's going to do anything in his power to help me figure something out. This kid...


While I'm on the topic of him, we are getting more and more excited about our road trip to Washington state (which now he's paying completely for. my bad) But it's really going to be a good (busy) time. We leave here Dec 22 at like 4 am and should get up to Seattle late that evening. Then we'll get to spend a few days with his HUGE family and his 2 daughters and then drive home the 26th. It's gonna be crazy and exhausting but I'm up for it! It will be my first Christmas away from home and somewhere where it actually gets cold! Haha! His mom has been sending me long and sweet emails lately to update me on all the plans and tell me about his daughters and all his siblings and what to expect. That kind of thing. Everyone seems really stoked to meet me! LOL So, it'll be a good Christmas I think.

Unless they hate me. That's always a possibility. And really the only possibility that is making me nervous about the whole thing. He swears they'll love me. We'll see! Haha!

In other semi interesting news.. I helped trim like 15 pounds of bud this last weekend! Haha! Call me crazy, but it wasn't nearly as boring to me as it was to all the guys. They hate it. But to me, it was so calming and reaxing! Just the repetition and scrutinizing each bud looking for any signs of mold and trimming off the stems..... My mind hasn't been so clear since I used to paint regularly. That's what it was like for me: Art. Is that weird? I guess it's like how some people knit. It's the same kind of thing. The strain I was working on is called Ultraviolet and it's beautiful and sticky and purple... I would never take a photo of someone else's product out of respect so I have no photos to share but I WISH you could see it. LOL Goddamn..


It's the only medication i use anymore. I literally never even smoke anymore just for fun or anything. I've really gone to using it strictly medicinally. It works better than Xanax, that's for sure and I can function like a normal human being on it. Not so much on the Xanax. I dunno. It effects people differently, you know? That's why it pisses me off when people label me as a dumb pothead or something like that. There was a time that I just smoked to get stoned and be silly and do silly things. But, I've grown a lot. I learned a lot more about the plant in relation to the mental issues I have. And I've learned how to use it to benefit me and my state. I've really grown to appreciate the plant on a level that I never did as a kid and I think that's key. And I know my limits and how different strains affect me, etc. Plus, I never pay for it! So it's free medicine. Which is aplus for a gal with no insurance!

Why did I just babble about that forever?

Sorry, Mr. President Nixon, Sir.

Anyways... that's my lil update situation! Life is crazy, but as my man keeps reminding, being depressed and sad doesn't get me anywhere. All I can do is try to stay positive and know everything -somehow- will work out. I'm not sure HOW yet, but I'm sure that will come in due time. Thanks for letting me vent and babble of nonsensical things. Hope it was mildly entertaining! LOL I will try to write a better more fun blog soon! Hope you all are fabulous! I will try to catch up on some of yer blogs tonight and see what you have been up to these days!

Also, I really love you who actually still read my blogs cuz you are the ones who have been around for me since the begining. You are awesome and I really want to send you all Christmas cards or something this year to show you how much it means to me! Honestly, friends are hard to come by for me lately and even though you all are in far away lands, I consider you better friends than most people I know in real life. So thanks for everything! And I'm serious, if you want a Christmas/holiday card, shoot me a PM with your address and I'll make you one!

One more song for inspiration, huh?


Anwyays!!! Talk soon, cool cats!



P.S. You can follow me on Imstagram if you want! I post way too many pictures on there because I am random and use it as a crutch when I get bored. Lol username: zombie_kitty
xoxox

Feeling betterrrr


I don't feel like writing a new blog but that other one was kinda bumming me out. LOL

Some random things....
My rear:


Lone wolf smoke sesh:


ASSASSINS CREED 3:

(and a shit load of weed in the background. Hahaha!)
Me and Jesse are obsessed with this game right now. Intense!

Me on Halloween at work:

Had a super low key Halloween. Worked a 10 hour day and then went to Jesse's and watched movies, played Assassins Creed for hours and then cuddled all night. it was actually fabulous. Plus he was sick so it was nice to just chill.

I love this picture of my boobs so here it is again. Haha!


Sorry I super don't feel like typing much! Just needed a change of scenery. Haha! But I am happy and doing a little better and things seem to just eep getting even better so I think i'm gonna be alright! Well, I'm off to read and catch up on all your blogs now! Hehe! Love ya!
Side note: you should probably follow me on Instagram: zombie_kitty

Scattered thoughts...

First of all, this song is amazing and it describes the way I feel at the moment..

Crazy how an instrumental can do that, huh?

Small vent sesh under spoiler:

Anyways, sorry for the mini rant. I just needed to get that off my chest. lol

Here are some random photos:
I swear, my sunshine is this lately...
Serenades

putting air in my tired because i'm a total chick and don't pay attention to such things

we are fucking obsessed with these damn Nano Blocks...


and we're stoked for this game to come out next week!

"Baby, NO ONE wears pants on Sundays!"

I bought ths candle that changes colors. I don't understand how it works but it makes me happy

I love animals..



Started making pear brandy a few weeks back..

in my funk..

brief moment of goofy..

the only the medicine I can get that actually helps..

that and laying in bed watching Mean Girls..


The sky has given me lots of smiles lately too





Been on a major Tool kick..

New reading material. Love Thoreau, but never read either of these. So I'm diving in.

A pic I took in Muir Woods that I felt this quote fit


Well that all I suppose!

I'll pull out of this funk soon. I'm sure of it. And this weekend I have fun plans with Jesse to go to the pumpkin patch and stuff and carve pumpkins and make pumpkin bongs and stuff... lol So I'm sure things will brighten up! Just gotta stay tough and know it'll pass. Hope you all are doing good!

Plus boobs...

Reaching out to embrace whatever may come

Mother.... Fucking.... *sigh*

Know what's suuuuuuper rad? When you spend a lot of time typing up a nice lil blog filled with pictures and that sort of thing and then your laptop is all, "Hey bitch! I hate your guts! Check this out!" and then just shuts off.

Kowabunga!

So now that it's 10:30 and I want to get a decent nights sleep tonight, I have zero interest in re-doing the blog I had intended on posting. Lame as fuck!

Watch this video, will ya? It gives me fucking chills into my fucking bone marrow!

It's footage of Pretty Lights' most recent show at Red Rocks featuring his brand spankin new single "So Bright" that I'm passionately in love with.

Is it possible to marry a song? If so, let's do this!

Quick update:
-I worked 12 hours of over time last week and you best believe I can't wait to get that paycheck
-I've lost a total of 10 lbs! Just a few more to go to reach my goal and then it's tone time!
-Turns out my best friend Katie is in rehab right now. I'm stoked for her, but she's also my hair stylist and my hair needs to be did. So I'm gonna try this new salon out while she's off getting clean. Hope she's not mad when she gets home and sees I got it done.
-Me and my man went on a hectic 10 mile hike on Saturday and I'm STILL sore so it was worth it
-My mom and I started making pear brandy (that we invented) today and it looks bomb (photos of that later when I actually feel like re-doing this damn blog)
-I've been practicing my hula hoop again. A lot. I think it turns Jesse on. haha!
-made some cookies from scratch the other day for my guy and his roommate because I'm getting all domestic all of a sudden
-been trying to hop into Chat a lot more lately to catch up with some of you lovely fools that I've neglected and miss the fuck out of.
-blah blah blah...yadda yadda yadda...

I'm so butthurt about my laptop doin me dirty I can't even concentrate. Haha!

I'm working on a pretty sick hula hoop routine to this:

A friend of a friend of mine wants to make a high quality video of me doing it for fun. We'll see. You know how chicken shit I am about that shit... stage fright and all that... Maybe if someone gives me some Molly or Ex before I do it... HAHA! I kid.. kinda.. not really.. but whatever.

Alright... I need to crawl under the covers and fantasize about slamming my laptop into the wall now to helpme get to sleep.

Jesus FUCKING Christ

You know the drill... We need some tune-age for your blog reading pleasure:

This song reminds me of the last time me and my dude rolled on some molly and banged all...damn..night. LOL Deal with it. It's a fucking rad song! And it makes me dance super nasty.

Alyways... So I have kind of a lot to fill you in on considering I haven't written a fucking blog in like a month. Damn I suck. Sorry guys!!!

Religion? OVER IT!
So you may remember a few months back, I made an attempt at re-entering the world of christianity in an attempt to find some structure in my life and make some new friends. Ummmm...... BIG MISTAKE! *forehead smack* I really made a legitimate attempt! Like, seriously! I think part of me just wanted to believe in something, anything, that would help pull me out of the depression I was suffering from at the time.

And what happened, you ask?

Oh, just met a bunch of assholes (like I kinda knew I would) who were absurdly judgmental (which I kinda knew they would be) who stalked my Facebook page and and questioned my relationship with my boyfriend, my foul language, and my tattoos (which, surprise, I kinda knew they would). So, I deleted them all from Facebook, stopped showing up at their Nazi meetings, and haven't looked back.

I'm much happier now.

There is no denying science for me and as much as I wanted to have faith in something, I can't trick my brain into blind faith. I don't function that way. So, peace out, chumps! Thanks for nothin but stress!

I work out!
Yes, it's finally true! My mom paid for me to join her gym so that we could work out together and I'm so much happier for it! I've been putting in a minimum of 4 hours a week there and have lost about 8 pounds already and can feel myself getting more fit. To be honest, I'm not looking to drop a whole lot of weight, but I'd like to get back to 120lbs (I'm ABOUT 132 at the moment). I'd be content there. And I wanna tone up big time! So, I'm stoked that I'm already making a lot of progress and that I'm feeling so much better and having more energy during the day and sleeping better at night. And it's been enough for my man to notice and his reaction has been really nice.

Anyways, maybe once I get into the shape I want to be, I'll give the whole modeling thing another go. I've been getting lots of emails outside of SG about some gigs, I just don't feel 100% confident in my bod at the moment. The photogs seem to be pleased with it, but... I don't care what they like, to be honest. Haha! So, I'm about to work my ass off!
Me my first day back at the gym..


Speaking of himmm..
Things are going so so so good with Jesse! He has still been really super duper busy with work, but he's been so good about sending me sweet texts during the day to say hi and remind me that I'm loved, which I think is fantastic. lol
Old picture with quote from a phone convo a couple weeks ago...

oh my fuck he's so cute.. Him on his bday.

we had sushi and fried cheesecake. THis is what fried cheesecake looks like. Gone.

What me and Jesse's date nights look like:




And some of this: (me waiting for him to get out of the shower. lol)


PLUS!

We are OFFICIALLY going to be driving up to Seattle for CHristmas to be with his family. I don't know if I've ever mentioned that he's 1 of 10 kids and he has 2 daughters that live up there with their scumbag mom (which we are working on that, don't worry). SOOO for Christmas, I think like 7 of his 9 siblings, his 6 nieces and nephews, his daughters, and his parents will all be at his sister's new house. We've been trying to plan a trip up there, but it's hard to get his whole family together like that. So, his mom suggested we come for Christmas since they're (mostly) all be together. And since plane tickets are ABSURDLY expensive during the holidays, we decided to rent a car and road trip it up there! We will be leaving the Saturday before Christmas and staying until the day after.

I am craaaaazy excited about it, but super nervous too. I've only met one of his younger sisters and she was awesome! But, I've got to meet the rest of his family, his parents, AND his little girls. He swears they'll love me and want to keep me (lol) but you know how I worry. Plus, I come from and extremely small family so it'll be a new experience for me. lol

One thing DO know, is I need some warm clothes because all I have, literally, is hoodies because DUH! I'm a Cali kid. And it's going to be SUUUUUPER cold. Haha! Dammit. Anyone feeling generous who has an extra legit winter coat? Hmmm maybe I should update my wishlist. I kid I kid..

I'm about 99% positive I'm getting the best X-mas gift ever, BTW..
So, my plan (because my mom says I need to) is to be moved out on my own by the end of January 2013. So, my mom has been helping me tuck a little money away, per paycheck, so save for a deposit and such. Jesse isn't going to be quite ready to get a place yet by then (for financial reasons and some hold ups with his job and his business partner that I can't really explain to you for privacy reasons) but our plan is to have a place by next summer so that we can bring his little girls down here to stay for a few weeks while they are out of school. But anyways, I'll find a little place to sign a 6 month lease for... I have been looking at little guest homes on people's property to rent because a) I hate apartments and never want to live in one again b) it'd be a lot more private and quiet c) it'd be on land, which I love d) I like dealing with individuals more than property management companies because I like having a more personal relationship with the people I'm giving money to and e) its usually way cheaper. I have found a few really awesome little places that I'm really hoping are still around when I need it!

ANYWAYS, I kind of refuse to move into a place all by myself without the proper protection. And Jesse is sort of uneasy about it as well. So, he says he's gonna buy me my first handgun for Christmas! Eeeeee! I am soooo excited. He really wants to get me a Colt, I'm sort of partial to Beretta... but we'll see. We have a few really awesome shops nearby that sell second hand guns so we may go scope them out together. He wants to get me something light, I personally like heavy guns... We'll see! I'm just completely stoked. You have no idea.
Old pics but I love em!



Quick rant
....meh.... I had a rant, but I decided this may not be the best forum for it. It's about fake bitches and how sick of them I am and how I've been deleting a lot because I'm sick of their mindless dribble..

I feel like ranting right now might put me in an icky mood too and I don't feel like that right now. LOL

Picture Fun! Spoilered for your pleasure..
lots of randomness... Prepare yourself. lol

Aaaaaand boobs:

just fucking cuz

Anyways... that's my life these days! Work is good. The state hasn't arrested me for my fines yet because I am VERY slowly but surely taking care of them.. So, that's cool! OH! Me and Jesse have a pet snake now who is still unnamed. I'll have to take a pic this next weekend while I'm over there so you can see how cute he is! He's just a lil gopher snake but I think he's fabulous.

Overall, I'm pretty happy these days. Life isn't perfect, but I've learned my lesson about waiting for perfect. it never comes. So, I'm just surrounding myself with people I love and who love me and just going with the flow. It's working out fabulously so far! Hope you all are doing great!

Oh! Oh I forgot!!
Quick shout out!
There are 2 hopefuls in MR that I have fallen head over heels for and you KNOW I never give shout outs to people because not enough people read my blog anymore. But, if you haven't checked them out yet, you really should.
Mayaz in Electric Feel


Hloya in Elven Charm


So smokin hot... I can't even handle it.

Ok, NOW I'm outta here. I am getting to work at 5 am all the rest of this week to do OT to make more MONEY so yay! But I must get some sleep soon.... After I read everyone's blogs til my eyes fall out. LOL

Love you guys!