Ain't no rest for the wicked... Money don't grow on trees.

Wooooooord. This song says it all right now. LOL Fuckin a.

On the topic of moneys, I've been picking up lots of extra hours lately at work because my sales have been through the roof and my boss loves me. So, that's great! But, even that hasn't been enough to pay the bills so I've been doing a little cam action to make up for it. Naughty time! lol It's whatever. I don't really care. Shit's gotta get paid, ya feel me?! So, there's that.

But more important than that is the fact that things are going SO WELL for me at my job. My bosses have all expressed to me that they want to see me work my way up to assistant manager status so they've been training me on some extra things. It's been really fun! And I'm still looking into the school situation to take care of the whole design aspect so that hopefully in the next couple years, I'll be moving my pretty little ass to SoCal to work at corporate. *siiiiiiigh* Wouldn't that just be AMAZING?! I think so. I never knew working retail would help me find my niche, but it SERIOUSLY has. So, needless to say, I'm pretty stoked on that prospect. Either way, I love my store and the people I work with, which is more than I had ever anticipated.

I've been reading this book about the history of the company and how Vans came to be... well, Vans.

It's actually really fascinating and something I really connect to, as lame as that may sound.

Other stuff...

I've been making sure my ratties get LOTS of play time lately because Dita's tumor just does not stop growing and I'm getting really nervous about it. She is still as silly as ever, running in her wheel, eating like a pig, EVERYTHING. But, the tumor is almost the size of her body now. The vet I saw said not to put her down until she stops eating because that's the sign that she is giving up, but I want a second opinion. She doesn't seem to be suffering AT ALL, except that it's hard for her to get around, but she still does it. I mean, she runs in here wheel sooooo much, so it obviously doesn't bug her THAT much. But, I don't know, because all her nutrients are going right to her tumor to try to heal it, so her body is getting thinner and thinner. Fuck.

Anyways, my mom has been taking our animals to the same vet for like 20 years now, so we're gonna go in and ask her opinion on what I should do. I don't want to put her down if she's still enjoying life, ya know!? But I don't know what's going on inside her body right now. The vet will. This vet is honestly the sweetest, best vet I have ever met in my life. When we had to have our latest boxer put down a couple years ago, she came out to our house to do it and she even teared up when it was all over. So, I know she'll know what I should do.




Autumn colors have come finally, a little later than usual for NorCal. Our backyard is JUST NOW transforming into November. We only have one tree so far that isn't green:


I think it's beautiful. That picture was taken a couple days ago and it's even gotten more orange since then. our maple trees are always the first to change. Now I'm just waiting on the rest. Hopefully soon!

And the rain has serves as great nutrients for the flowers:

So much is blooming because the actual COLD hasn't really officially hit us yet.

What else...?

Oh! So last week I went out with Brando's sister and her friends. I took my meds, not really thinking about how it interacts with alcohol, which proved to be a terrible decision. I had 5 shots of whiskey, which felt like 10. I completely blacked out, don't even remember getting home, where my parents apparently found me sitting on the front porch and then they put me to bed, where I proceeded to puke all over my bed.
Worst. Night. Ever.
My mom was pissed and even now, I can't remember ANY of it. Soooo, NOTE TO SELF: No more drinking with my meds. Gross.
I even had to work the next day, which was a terrible day. I was hungover and felt like shit, hadn't eaten anything. Bleh. So, on my lunch, I got a hangover cure and felt much better:


Never againnnnn!

Speaking of Brando, he's been texting me lately. Not a whole lot, but just from time to time to say hey and whatnot. He even suggested us grabbing a drink. As always, I'm not going to count on him to follow through on that, but it's cool that he's even thinking of me. He also asked when I'd be done with his letter! Which, by the way, I haven't even started. LOL I just keep sitting and staring at the blank paper going over shit in my head. I really need to get on top of that. Maybe I should be doing that instead of writing this pointless blog. LOL

And on the topic of guys...

Johnny was in town again on Monday night and asked me to stay with him at his hotel. I told him that I'd stay if he'd agree that we wouldn't do anything romantic. lol He agreed and I actually had a nice time with him. We ate a shit ton of pizza and watched TV and played with his puppies and slept in the single most comfortable bed ever. Pillow top and goose down heaven is what it was! he had a seminar thing that he went to so I spent a couple hours alone in the room with the dogs. I felt like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman. lol I watched tv..

and took random pictures..

me and charlie..

Charlie and Bella being fucking adorable..


That's pretty much all as of right now! I've got an exciting day at work today, which I'll tell you more about later, probably after it's happened. I'll let you know if Brando actually follows through with wanting to meet up (my guess is HE'LL BAIL! Big surprise, right? lol). And I'm hoping to have a fun hang out sesh with Thanatogenous soon. So, I'll keep ya posted.

Overall, life has been pretty decent the last week or so. Minus the blackout drunk night. lol But, I haven't felt as helpless and down and out as before. So, that's exciting. I'm just trying to stay as positive as possible. I won't survive if I give up on that.

Hope all is well for you all.
XOXOX




EDIT: I totally forgot, I also got into my very first car accident. It was my fault. lol I'll tell you more about that later with supporting photos. but, my Jeep is kinda fucked up, which means .... more money issues. but the guy I ran into was really cool about it all. I'm trying to stay positive today, so I'll just tell you about it in my next blog so I don't get bummed out right now. lol