Rollercoaster....

So, I keep having these EXTREME and entirely random swings of emotion and how I feel about the recent breakup. Part of it is my bipolar, part of it is my mind feeling crisis, part of it is just normal hormones cuz I'm a chick and all that bull shit. lol

I have these moments where I am like, "Alright! I have my own place again! I can do whatever I want with it. I have my own space." And I can just feel ok about our split.

THEN, crazy Me sneaks out and my mind starts going to a scared place like being scared to sleep alone at night (something I haven't done in a year and a half). I also get this jealous thing like hating the idea of him dating anyone else, though I know that is not on his agenda.

We're best friends and nothing can take that away from us. He knows things about me that NO ONE does and vice versa... We've always had a connection and that will always be there. I want him to be happy. I want me to get happy...

BUT......

I wish we could grow and learn TOGETHER instead of on our own....

HOWEVER!!!!!!!

I have met a guy here on SG who is completely sweeping me off my feet and is probably coming to visit on my birthday.... He makes me happy and it feels good.....
confusssssssssssion